I really like the story of Job in the Bible.
In my personal life I reference it a lot.
Why did those troubles come before Job? (spoiler alert if you have not read the book of the bible).
Satan was traveling the land, he asked God Permission to trouble Job, he wanted to prove to God that Job would turn his back on his creator.
Job lost it all, his children, his properties, his livestock. He was ill. He was taunted by the enemy.
God allowed it though. He allowed Job to be taunted and tested. What he mandated was that his life be spared in this trial of faith.
It was a trial of faith.
His faith was tested.
Though he questioned God, Why me? Why this? God quickly put him in his place upon their confrontation. He questioned job (and rightfully so) “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding” (Job 38:4).
God continued, “Who laid its cornerstone when the morning stars sang together and all the heavenly beings shouted for joy?” (Job 38:6–7). “Who shut in the sea with doors when it burst out from the womb” (Job 38:8). “Is it by your wisdom that the hawk soars, and spreads its wings toward the south? Is it at your command that the eagle mounts up and makes its nest on high?” (Job 39:26–27).
At the end of this interaction, their relationship deepened. The end result was Job was abundantly blessed, double with what he had before all was taken away.
What is my point with this?
We all go through struggles, trials and tribulations.
We have moments where we ask God why? Why me? What’s the justification for this?
It is not our place to ask why nor the justification. We are to build from it.
When I was pregnant with my younger son many things happened to complicate this Joyful moment in my life.
My developing son (fetus) was not fully developing his heart. I underwent various specialists, various scenarios were presented before me, some catastrophic which took a toll on me emotionally. I would never want to see not even an enemy endure the pain, heartbreak, emotional distress I went through.
The entire time I did question God, Why? Why me? Why my son? What is the justification for this? My son, the one you allowed me to have, my rainbow baby, my second miracle. (I was once told I could not hold a full pregnancy to term, here I am with two, God is Good).
I let that fester, and prayed more, confided in God more, I still questioned more. Then I reread Job. I cried, I apologized to God, I submit myself to him. I named My son after Him. Emanuel (God is with us). God surely is with us.
When it was time to deliver, I went through a scare. My son was born purple, no breath, no pulse, (i had no idea what was going on until after). CPR was given, chest compression was started, he was intubated and i was again in a pool of tears when all was explained that he was in the NICU.
He was born at 5:03pm with no pulse, not breathing, purple. He finally took his first breath and time of birth re-announced at 5:05pm. My miracle baby. His name was perfect. God is with us, Always! Every time we sat my son is name, we are proclaiming God is with us.
Despite my trial, my blessing came twofold. Mother of two miracle babies.
Despite my stubbornness and questioning, once I submit myself to him and apologize, my blessings came.
Thank you Father, for the opportunity you gave me to become a mother, not once, but twice. Science said it would not be possible, Science said it would be painful. You told Science I am the Alpha and Omega, beginning and the End, without me you are nothing. I pray for those experiencing problems within their lives, I pray for those facing problematic pregnancies, I pray for those lost within their trials and tribulations. May they stop asking you why and instead proclaim your name and renew their faith. Our Trials are lessons that make us stronger, they are also our testimonies to share, to renew the faith of others. Amen.