​ Sink or swim

Sink or swim methodology.
At an undisclosed “prestigious” location where like every other institution of the same kind emphasizes on clientele, care of clientele and the happiness of its clientele.
Your job description is constantly thrown at your face reminding you that the needs and care of the clientele is of the upmost importance.
Employee morale (at least in my department) is at an all time low. To think we didn’t think it could get any lower. We have collectively decided to boycott holiday festivities because we have once again been slighted.
We were given an hour notice to not take lunch to some on lunch training, yet still continue to work. With options in the surrounding area taking over an hour to deliver, we didn’t have any options to order, and since we are not allowed to use our cell phones we couldn’t order and have them call our cell while we wait.
In this short noticed meeting which occurred on Friday we were told that come Monday we were going live with a project. Now the timeline which was given to us a month ago suddenly disappeared. Location A- bigger population time line was spring 2018. Location b smaller population time line was end of December early January.
What we were blind sighted with was that both locations were going live on Monday. The problem with this is not only the shortened timeline, nor management being unreasonable nor unfair. The problem with this is that we did not have adequate training. We were given a one hour training that still didn’t capture the full intended implementation of a new workflow that was to start in 4 hours (business hours)
We addressed our issues and concerns to our supervisor whom basically said, yes thank you for your concerns but we are still going live. Then he kept making trump references. Comparing yourself to using trumpism isn’t going to help smooth out this transition. A supervisor who talks about wanting to support his team so that his team does not fail was not what we saw.
We saw a supervisor who wants to prove to administration a point. That his ideology of how a workflow is intended to flow will work. Productive training did not occur. Actual sit down training did not occur. We will either sink or swim once we clock in today.
This is a form of professional bullying.
Bullying is bullying. We have bullying in the professional environment. Bullying your staff without adequate notice to just change poof just like that. No one in our team saw this coming. We were blind sighted. What is crazy is it appears based on the dialogue that the other interdisciplinary teams we deal with will be blind sighted as well. I refuse to feel the wrath when I have to inform my practices I cannot do something without the new addition to my workflow entered. Oh man they are going to be pissed off.
The conversation kept flip flopping on the notion of whether or not they know or don’t know. Whether they are on board or not on board. Whether they will come on board or not after “we” can convince the head honcho. So wait, what? Yes my thoughts exactly.
We will be going live with something that needs to convince one of the top bosses. Um does anyone see a problem with this?
It’s Monday and I still have no idea what to do when I walk in
Will I sink or swim?
Sadly I’m already drowning and I have yet crossed the threshold.
‘Quick and dirty’ method of new employee(usually sales personnel) training in which the recruit is pushed straight into the actual work environment, with little or no formal training. He or she has to learn fast and make good, or lose the job.
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Sleep

“In peace I will both lie down and sleep, for You, Lord, alone make me dwell in safety and confident trust.”
(Psalm 4:8, AMPC)
I don’t know about you but I have not slept a peaceful nights sleep since Harvey, Irma & Maria destroyed the homes and lives of millions of people. Despite my concerns, despite my worries, despite my anguish I find comfort in knowing that My Lord will sustain and provide. I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful for the few relatives I’ve heard from are doing OK. They are making do and surviving considering the situation. They have maintained their faith. I have maintained my faith.
I am thankful for the many individuals whom have organized venues as donation drop offs. The many volunteers whom have worked tirelessly morning, noon and night….I am thankful for. For the legislators fighting for us because they genuinely care….I thank you. I am thankful for the means and modes of transportation allotted to get the goods down. I am thankful that despite being late, additional help is underway. I find peace and comfort knowing that the spiritual warfare has many prayer warriors knocking down the enemy’s path to destruction. We shall continue praying, you will not defeat us. We may not be able to save 100% of the people but you will not take 100% of them from us.
We will pray, we will fight back spiritually and we will take care of our people. I find peace in knowing that God has our backs. God is our protector, defender, strength, shelter, peace, refuge and provider. No mater how the storms of life come against our people, Take comfort in God, trust in god and you shall find safety, peace and joy.
In times like these we dwell in his safety, peace, and confident trust. We need to focus on God’s word, declare his promises over you and those in the Caribbean whom are hurting. We need to dwell in him. He will provide the peace, protection and victory for those affected directly and indirectly.
Father God today I thank you for your promises of peace and safety in my life and those afflicted in the Caribbean. I chose to focus my attention on you. To be used by you in each way you need to be of a blessing to others. God I ask not just for a peace of mind which I desire and need, but that you provide peace, joy, nourishment, protection, provision, shelter, strength, refuge and protect our Islands. Father our hands here in the states are tied and we are limited in what we can do…but I sit here in supplication for those in need. My peace of mind will come, when I know that these people are doing better. In Your holy name. Amen.

I will always love you..:.

Many people play pivotal roles in our lives.

We learn from some.

We get disappointed by others.

Some people have a purpose to be in your life.

Some are meant for a season.

Some are meant to last a lifetime.

Some were not meant to be in your lives at all, but your decisions made you stumble among the same path. We are made to learn from them too.

Many look upon their exes as if they are the most vile creature whom should be resident in Hades.

I look at them as lessons.

My time with them were special.

I love them all in a very unique way.

They all hold a special place in my life.

My first… you will always be my first love. You will always hold a special place in my heart. I will always care about you, pray for you and wish you the best.

Circumstances, age, timing all made an impact to why we just couldn’t be. I will forever love you. Despite our distance, despite our differences and even our losses. It was with you that I learned of my condition. Though I kept them from you, out of fear and to not push you away. It was exactly what I didn’t want that happened.

You will always have a special place in my heart.

To those after. Anyone I’ve been with whom I loved and cared for will always have a special place in my heart and will always be in my prayers.

Each of you have different reasons why I have love for you. Each have shared cherished memories.

I will always love you for what we have shared.

We all love different individuals differently. It doesn’t mean you love one more or less than someone. It just means the kind of love you have for them is different. My first love will always be my first love.

My true love will always be my true love.

My first Love will always be my first love.

 

My loves in between will always be individuals whom hold a special place in my heart that  I will love and care for until my last breath despite our differences.

“Me Too”

“Me Too”

 

Harvey Weinstein has been much of the talks lately.  Many are coming out whom have been directly affected by Harvey, and many more are coming out whom have been affected by others.  You and I have all seen the way they have been coming out.  #MeToo.

 

​http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/wireStory/alyssa-milano-elevates-harvey-weinstein-conversation-50525732

 

The Me Too movement as you know came about as a response and to bring awareness to the situation at hand since the Harvey Weinstein controversy.  Since the first post about this situation “more than 53,000 people had left comments and thousands of women had declared “Me Too,” sharing their stories of rape, sexual assault and harassment across social media, including some for the first time.”

 

 

 

 

I too included a “me too” post for the very first time. I have never shared my story, but I have undergone sexual assault and harassment.   It took a lot for me to even write those two words because it meant admitting to myself that I am a victim of assault.  I never reported my assailants, nor would I at this point. One of them is deceased, the other was really young when he did so.  I was young myself and did not know how to talk about or process what I endured.  My post also shows my family a truth about my past which I never wanted to discuss, never have discussed with them, nor do I have any intentions to further discuss with them nor my spouse. 

 

Some may have seen it, some may have not.  Those two little words I wrote in solidarity for being victimized, but any further elaboration up to that point was not going to be given.  Many though chose not to admit their assaults or harassment in this movement.  Many are still unable to handle such memories or just want to bury their past deep down to the bottoms of the oceans. I do not blame them.


I commend the women whom have been able to share their stories in public. They are stronger than I am for sharing their stories along side their Me Too.  

 

As I write this I can vividly see the faces of the two whom have harassed/assaulted me in my past.  I can vividly see where I was, what I wore, What was said and what happened after the fact.  I cringe at the memory. I feel repulsed by myself.

I couldn’t add more than those two words.

My family follow me on social media.

I didn’t want to disclose more than I did.

Saying me too, I said more than I ever did since my first encounter.

As mentioned earlier one of the assailants I was told passed away.  Died too young.  Died in a hit and run accident in Florida.  It was horrendous to hear.  I never wished either of the two any wrong.  I forgave them both. Though I am scarred by the memories…I forgive them each time I think of it.  The one who passed away shouldn’t have died the way he did.  He was on his way to get milk for his infant.  I cried at the news.  Like I said I did forgive him. In person at that.  (though I did leave him with a black eye and a few scratches to the face at our encounter).

 

Sometimes we are victimized not by strangers but people we know and associate with.  Sometimes its a relatives.  I thank God in my case neither are relatives.  They were people I have known though.  People I didn’t think would do such a thing.

 

What I ask is that Mothers of boys, lets teach our sons to respect women. Lets raise our boys not to harass or assault anyone.  Teach our children boundaries.  Teach our children respect overall.  Teach our children “personal space”.  Teach our children how would you feel if you were in those shoes?  Teach our children what If it were me your mom or sibling that this had happened to.  We need to make things personal in order to assess our feelings accordingly.  We need to hold ourselves accountable for our own actions.

 

Mothers of daughters, teach your daughters to speak up.  Teach your daughters to defend themselves.  I may not have been able to speak up or do something the first time.  The second time I did fight back.  I did not turn the other check like the bible says, and I have asked for forgiveness in that.  I did defend myself.  I did not report to any authorities of anything nor did I file complain.  I probably should have.

 

Remember to please not judge those victimized.  No one ever asks to be raped, harassed or assaulted.  It’s not something that one says Hi, I’m here, Pick me, Choose me, attack me?


 We need to respect the privacy of those whom admit they were victims; but do not want to disclose anything further than two words.

 

It is hard.

 

Here are affiliated articles on the #metoo movement.:

 

Pslams 9:9

The Lord is a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

 

As with all that I do, let us end in a prayer.

Father God I thank you for another day to speak about a topic which is not spoken about often enough.  Lord you are my stronghold, in the good times and in my times of trouble.  Lord you are the stronghold to the many women whom have been victimized during the years.  I once again come before you and seek forgiveness for my transgressions on the issues I mentioned above and I forgive those whom have caused harm to my person.  God you know the situation that occurred, you know how it has affected me and why I choose not to disclose more than I did.  Lord I still want to forgive my transgressors and once again ask for forgiveness for my transgressions.  Lord I ask you provide strength and guidance to the many victims whom have yet found an outlet or confide in someone to discuss their circumstances and experience.  May they find refuge in you so that they too can forgive and move forward.  I know it is hard my Lord, but with you all things are possible.  Amen.

Help needed.

reblogging

additional means to help:

 

I want to apologize first to my lord and savior for not writing and blogging about his word, love and mercy.

Second I want to apologize to the readers whom are lifted up when you read the words that the lord inspired me to write.

Since hurricane Harvey I have been campaigning on stop for relief efforts for all in need. Whether by providing information as to where to donate aid, time, monetary donations or goods. I have family whom recently moved to Texas, my heart was heavy, luckily my family do not live within the regions which were affected. Despite that blessing my call towards servitude never falters. As Christian’s we are called to service. My calling is evermore present right now… the phone is ringing and Lord knows I’m answering any which way that I can.

Then hurricane Irma hit and destroyed Many islands which many of my relatives resides in as well as Florida where I have many relatives as well. Yet again my campaign continued to help any which way I could. Advertising relief efforts, advertising information…. any which way I am able to help I can.  Irma destroyed my father in laws properties in St. Martin.  Irma destroyed my uncles properties in St Thomas and St. Croix.  Irma destroyed many parts of Puerto Rico.

Now Maria…..oh María…. you finished off what Irma started and now, because of you I haven’t had a good nights rest. I can’t complain I have it better off compared to my island folks, compared to my paisanos. My heart is heavy. Still haven’t heard from many relatives. Many are without power, without food, without water, without their shelters.

As I write this I fight back tears which I thought I no longer thought I had any left. I have cried so much since Harvey, I cried ever more since Irma and Maria.  Maria has forced everyone to get down on their knees and seek God.  I have been working non stop and will continue working within the next few weeks for relief efforts for the carribean.  I heard from half of my family in Puerto Rico….Half.  a quarter of them are doing ok, surviving.  the other quarter are struggling….my heart is torn….theres not much I can do for them, I feel so helpless…so I find strength in God and my calling of servitutde to help.

 

As I write this post, the song that came up was Israel & the New Breed.  Oh GOD I cannot control the waterworks. But thank you…thank you.  This is what sticks out…

It’s not over, It’s not finished.
It’s not ending,
It’s only the beginning when God is in it.
All things are new.
All things are new.

I know it’s darkest just before dawn.
This might just be the hardest
Season you experience.
I know it hurts; it won’t be too long.
You’re closer than you think you are;
You’re closer than you’ve been before.
Oh look to the sky, help is on the way

We believe it
We declare it
We decree it over you
It’s not over when God, when God,
When God is in it.
No limits no boundary
I see increase all around here, yeah

God I needed those words…My family needs help. I know you shall provide.

The islands need help, I have faith, I trust in you with all my might that you will provide for them all.

 

God all is in your hands.

Many were forced down on their knees.  I trust in you.!

There is an urgency to give…please give.

If you are trying to contact family members in Puerto Rico, the American Red Cross Safe and Well website allows individuals and organizations to register and post messages to indicate that they are safe, or to search for loved ones. The site is open to the public and available in English and Spanish. You can also contact the Washington, DC, offices of the Puerto Rico Federal Affairs Administration, at 202-800-3133 or 202-800-3134, or email maria1@prfaa.pr.gov or maria2@prfaa.pr.gov. If your loved one needs emergency assistance, you can alert the U.S. State Department by calling 800-407-4747 (in the U.S. and Canada) or 202-501-4444 (from overseas).

https://www.youcaring.com/mexicoandpuertorico-959275

https://safeandwell.communityos.org/cms/index.php

https://www.ny.gov/programs/empire-state-relief-and-recovery-effort-puerto-rico

https://www.directrelief.org/

https://catholiccharitiesusa.org/

http://www.salvationarmy.org/

https://hispanicfederation.org/unidos

http://unidosporpuertorico.com/en/VkMoZ/

https://www.habitat.org/

http://www.savethechildren.org/site/c.8rKLIXMGIpI4E/b.6115947/k.B143/Official_USA_Site.htm

Drop Off Supplies VIA NYS

Across the state, New Yorkers are encouraged to drop off goods for donation at the below listed drop-off locations. We are only accepting the following items for donation: batteries, flashlights, portable lanterns, diapers, baby wipes, cases of water and feminine hygiene products. All items must be unopened and in their original packaging.

The drop-off sites will accept donations every day between 9 a.m. and 6 p.m.

Capital Region

Empire State Plaza Main Concourse
Albany

Central New York

Senator John J. Hughes State Office Building
333 E. Washington Street
Syracuse

Finger Lakes

State Police Zone Station
1155 Scottsville Road, Suite 400
Rochester

Long Island

Perry B. Duryea State Office Building
250 Veterans Memorial Highway
Hauppauge

Mid-Hudson Valley

Yonkers Armory
2 Quincy Place
Yonkers

Mohawk Valley

Utica State Office Building
207 Genesee Street
Utica

New York City

Jacob K. Javits Center
655 W. 34th Street
New York

Shirley A. Chisholm State Office Building
55 Hanson Place
Brooklyn

Jamaica Street Armory
93-05 168th Street
Queens

Roberto Clemente State Park
301 West Tremont Ave
Bronx

Department of Motor Vehicles (to begin accepting donations on 9/26)
696 E Fordham Road
Bronx

Southern Tier

Binghamton Armory
85 West End Avenue
Binghamton

Western New York

Connecticut Street Armory
184 Connecticut Street
Buffalo

Please help any way you can, not just to Puerto Rico but the other areas affected.

 

May god bless you all.

 

Father God I thank you for the valuable lessons you have taught us within the past few weeks.  I apologize for not spreading your word in writing, but I have been sharing your spirit of love and compassion.  Father You are merciful, you are loving, you are the alpha and the omega.  God I humbly ask for aid not just for my mother land, but the others whom were affected by all this natural disaster.  As we sit here in the flesh in worry, concerned, with a want and desire to help, GOD know that I trust and have faith in you.  I pray that for many this was a time where their faith in you was restored.  Many were brought down to their knees and Lord I know you have your reasons for which we will not know.  I ask for help for all these people in need. I ask that you who can provide; provide them with the ailments they need to sustain until all these islands are fully restored.  In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

Topographic map

Capture

 

Why am I posting 3 different maps?
Answer:
Look at the topographic features of our island. High elevated mountainous terrains which are not easily accessible. Each of these mountainous terrains are inhabited by thousands of families per municipality. 78 municipalities total and many are within these hard to get areas. Now add a category 5 hurricanes which they did get, (two to be technical) you find your selves facing debris from all the trees, boulders from cliffs that may have collapsed and been destroyed, utility poles…. all which will need to be moved to reach these families and provide the aid they need.
My people here in the US have not heard from many of these families within these hard to reach areas. I pray, hope and have faith in God that these families will get the aid and relief they need. These are some difficult times on the island with limited resources. Despite these difficult times….. many have placed their faith in God to provide until aid is sent their way. God will provide!

 

If you have been inspired to help; please see my previous post  entitled ‘Help Needed’ on information on how you can help.

Several websites are listed where they will accept monetary donations towards materials, goods and relief efforts.

I may soon update the post with additional information as more agencies for donations come up.

 

Many blessings to you all.

#rebloging

Topographic map

Capture

 

Why am I posting 3 different maps?
Answer:
Look at the topographic features of our island. High elevated mountainous terrains which are not easily accessible. Each of these mountainous terrains are inhabited by thousands of families per municipality. 78 municipalities total and many are within these hard to get areas. Now add a category 5 hurricanes which they did get, (two to be technical) you find your selves facing debris from all the trees, boulders from cliffs that may have collapsed and been destroyed, utility poles…. all which will need to be moved to reach these families and provide the aid they need.
My people here in the US have not heard from many of these families within these hard to reach areas. I pray, hope and have faith in God that these families will get the aid and relief they need. These are some difficult times on the island with limited resources. Despite these difficult times….. many have placed their faith in God to provide until aid is sent their way. God will provide!

 

If you have been inspired to help; please see my previous post  entitled ‘Help Needed’ on information on how you can help.

Several websites are listed where they will accept monetary donations towards materials, goods and relief efforts.

I may soon update the post with additional information as more agencies for donations come up.

 

Many blessings to you all.

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