It’s been a while

It’s been a while since I posted.

 

End of last year I was dealing with surgery, possible cancer and a spiritual growth that usually comes with the storms.

 

I have spent much of my time concentrating on the word, my children’s bible study classes to ensure I am readily equipped with my lessons for them.

 

I have spent plenty of time thinking of associated crafts to do with the kids and projects to engage and illustrate the word.

 

I have also been taking care of myself and my family.

 

Though the surgery is over.

The scare is gone.

 

God has worked.

God has shown mercy, grace, healing and love.

I too need to continue doing my part.

 

I have jotted down a few things here and there.

 

I will come back to writing and sharing.

 

Many Blessings to you all.

 

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I am forgiven

It’s been a while since I posted something, but today something beautiful and divine happened and I had to share.

I was talking to someone earlier today about a situation she is going through.

After our discussion I told the person about a project I wanna do with the kids and youth as well as an example lesson that correlates with the project. So the person asked me how would your correlate a bible lesson with the project???

I said easy…. I emailed the person what I started working so they could get an idea of what I was talking about. When they asked for an example who would’ve thought a mini sermon would’ve came out of it.

So I grabbed my Bible and randomly grabbed a verse.

I began to read to the person:

“So I made up my mind that I would not make another painful visit to you. For if I grieve you, who is left to make me glad but you whom I have grieved? I wrote as I did, so that when I came I would not be distressed by those who should have made me rejoice. I had confidence in all of you, that you would all share my joy.

For I wrote you out of great distress and anguish of heart and with many tears, not to grieve you but to let you know the depth of my love for you. If anyone has caused grief, he has not so much grieved me as he has grieved all of you to some extent—not to put it too severely. The punishment inflicted on him by the majority is sufficient. Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. I urge you, therefore, to reaffirm your love for him. Another reason I wrote you was to see if you would stand the test and be obedient in everything.

Anyone you forgive, I also forgive. And what I have forgiven—if there was anything to forgive—I have forgiven in the sight of Christ for your sake, in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.”

2 Corinthians 2:1-11 NIV

https://www.bible.com/111/2co.2.1-11.niv

After I read it I was awestruck.

So was the person.

This applies to both of us…. in our respective similar yet different circumstances.

Unequivocally random yet not random because God works mysteriously.

I continued using the scripture as intended for the lesson I want to do with my project and how to use the scriptures in a prayer and lo and behold my friend said thank you.

My friend said I think you were meant to tell me this so I know what I need to do.

I said yes and thank you for asking me about my kids at church and what my plans are because because sometimes before we can preach to others we need to preach to oneself!

#iamforgiven

#weareforgiven

#forgiveothers

#asheforgaveyou

#youareforgiven

#impromptupreachings

#Godstiming

#applyingthescriptures

#bearingfruits

Post op complications

So I had some complications 24 hours after surgery, had to be admitted Tuesday night and been in the hospital since. Now it’s Thursday and I’ve been discharged and feeling along better.

Complications started with my inability to breathe, felt nausea, felt hot, felt dizzy, then I began throwing up. I get to the hospital I’m automatically put on oxygen they run labs, urine, full work up.

The assessed the incision sites, it all looked good.

Then I had additional testing done…, I had spasms and obstruction in one of my organs. Apparently the organ was “frozen” still asleep post surgery. So it was causing all this other trouble and led me to the situation I was in. I was in severe pain. Every move I made. It hurt.

Eventually after I’v fluids and constant monitoring and exceptional care all was well and I was discharged.

Now I feel better, obviously still some residual discomfort but well none the less.

When my mom got home she told me about a shared story. When we found out about everything she shared my story with her colleague who asked if she could tell her pastor so her church could pray.

So she told her pastor.

Her pastor said wait how many masses and cysts she has?

She responded the quantity.

He said nope I only see one and when they operate you shall see.

When I was in the Er because of the complications my doc showed up to visit me in the OR. So I said, doc now that I’m not drugged up and I’m sober…. explain to me what happened?

Surgery took longer than expected because of complications in the surgery, but before we go there let’s start with the report:

I had a cyst on each ovary and on one of the ovaries it was 8.5 cm big, which needed to come out and was suspicious in the appearances based on the images. The other was 3.5cm big.

So he went in his goal was to get the big one since that was the most dangerous one. When he went in he didn’t see anything there.

He had someone pull up the images and review because I had 2, decent sized cysts that needed to be removed. What he found where one of the cysts were mini fibroids and mini cysts about to form so he began to remove and scrape, but he was puzzled that he knows a cyst was there but now it’s gone…. that’s all he kept thinking.

So he proceeded on the other side….to get rid of the big one, the big one rupture, so he quickly removed it and began cleaning because of potential toxins that may be oozing out. When he is done cleaning he sees the same thing he saw in the other one. A bunch of mini ovarian fibroids and mini cysts hiding underneath this big mass. It was undetectable underneath on all the scans…. for both ovaries.

He said appearance wise they look benign…. but he sent them to the lab and waiting on the pathology. But he said God is amazing that one was totally gone….. and he’s surprised that all the images and videos showed them (except what was hidden underneath) and now everything is gone.

You and I know what that was. God was working in me. God was working with me. I have a testimony to give and it’s that God still heals. He still works and miracles still happen.

So my mom shared this story with her friend whom shared my surgery with her church for prayers, she cried the whole time because her pastor said he only saw one….. and just like my mom just told her is what her pastor said. He only saw one. She asked my mom if she can give this testimony and my mom consented.

God is amazing!!!

Thank you lord for you have given me peace and strength in the most of my trials. I’ve never stop having faith. I’ve kept it positive despite my news, my research, despite what I was warned to prepare for just in case. I did prepare. I took up my arms and prepared spiritually along side my brothers and sisters at church, I fasted, I prayed, I praised and I let God manifest in me and around me in any capacity he wanted. I let it go and let him take control.

I also prepared in the flesh.

I researched, I did my paperwork, I made arraignments, I situated post op and recovery plans, I had plans a-z just in case.

I prepared my self mentally. So I could be of sound thought and mind no matter what happens.

God it’s true what the doctor had told me. I had a peace, a calm and positive vibe that was radiating. It is because of you. Father you are the healers of healers, the lord of lords, miracles still happen, you have shown me love, given me strength and been merciful. I know I don’t deserve it but you have been nothing but perfect. I love and thank you lord!

Time to recover

Yesterday was my procedure

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I went in to the OR singing this song yesterday..

Victory, victory shall be mine.

Victory, victory shall be mine.

If I hold my peace,

let the Lord fight my battles;

V-I-C-T-O-R-Y!

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I felt peace, I wasn’t worried…. I was calm… I trusted in God

The OR team said you look strangely calm.

The anesthesiologist said because she knows God and his angels are with her.

She is family and we will do our best to take absolute care of her.

My doc held my hand tightly as I slipped to sleep.

But the last thing I saw before closing my eyes was wings.

I saw wings. The OR was filled with Angel wings behind everyone.

I am in a ton of pain.

They took those little suckers out and scraped my ovaries (others were starting to grow… and they cleared it out.

They had some trouble because there was one that was filling up with blood, it had ruptured while he was taking it out and they had to clean me up quickly. This delayed the or time what should’ve been a 45min surgery turned into two hours.

The big mother trucker that was causing me pain and strife looks like it’s not cancerous but they sent it to be biopsied🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼just to be sure.

My worst fears are over.

It’s time to focus on my recovery and thank GOD.

Today’s the day….

Today is the day… today I will have my procedure.

When I got to church yesterday I did exactly what the lord sent me to do.

I went and went to pray.

I Lay upon his alter and Began to pray and praise him. I had my 1:1 with him at his alter. After I finished praying I went to greet the two visitors of our church.

These new sisters who have been visiting the church said

“The lord told me to tell you this, behind you are two angels, I’ve sent them to protect you, standing behind you I see wings, the wings of the angel protecting you, you are worried, constantly worried. The lord says Stop being worried and let me manifest. Increase your faith. And watch the wonders I can do with you. You have been chosen to lead, because of who you are. This why you lead our children. When this is all over You will give testimony on all of this you are going through because my name will be glorified and you will be healed.”

As the service started up and began I knew the lord was masking waves and working. His name being glorified.

During the alter call my family and I went to the alter. We too need to make sacrifices so the lord can work. Together we asked for prayers for additional strength, we asked for prayers because though we are praying ourselves we know we could also use the support of our prayer warriors.

While we were being prayed over the Pastora placed her hands over the area to be operated on and I felt sudden heat penetrating the area…. she went to the other side and the same thing…. this penetrating heat surging through…. to my right the pastor had his hands mainly on my husband and a finger or maybe two touching my shoulder …as he touched me heat soared through my left side and to the afflicted areas…. the lord was manifesting and his presence was felt evermore.

End of service I was instructed to read today psalm 91.

“Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him. For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease. He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection. Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrow that flies in the day. Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday. Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you. Just open your eyes, and see how the wicked are punished. If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home. For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. They will hold you up with their hands so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone. You will trample upon lions and cobras; you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet! The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation.””

Psalms 91:1-16 NLT

http://bible.com/116/psa.91.1-16.nlt

If there is anything I want to show the kids and our youth is….

Even when you feel like giving up…. don’t!!

Pray harder

Fast longer

Praise with more passion.

Our faith determines our strength.

Our faith determines our reward.

Our faith determines how the process ends.

Each time it’s a lesson.

Right now it can be painful.

Right now you may want to worry, doubt may wanna creep in….you may want to throw in that towel…. now is not the time and don’t let your fears doubt and worry bring you down.

Your faith is what will keep you up.

This is all a process and God will not give you more than you can handle.

When this process is over:… we are going to share our stories….

We will all be victorious and through that God will be Glorified.

God thank you.

Lord you are good.

Your mercy will indeed endure forever.

You are my light.

You are my life.

You are the reason for healing.

You are my salvation.

I thank you for your blessings and for being the one to be there with me today.

I pray that it’s you that will be operating me using my oncologist as a vessel. I pray that your name is glorified. I pray that you comfort my family while I am getting my procedure as well as give them the strength to get through the day.

Amen

Blessed

It’s now getting real

Surgery time set.

Preparing myself, my family, making arrangements for my recovery time.

It’s happening.

It’s starting to sink in.

The next 48 hours I want to spend in peace, tranquility and fighting off the nerves and doubts that the enemy tries to set in.

Besides this turmoil we were blessed with an new car which we will pick up today.

Gone is the black beauty of our ML350 with all the financial drain it has caused us.

I am hoping the ML350 doesn’t give its next owner any trouble.

So happy for my husband because this made him happy.

Our kids love the idea of a new car.

I am thankful for not having that economic strain.

Focusing on the car was a perfect distraction needed for the kids and my husband.

Thank you Jesus.

Thank you for the distraction…..

2nd call for this process

And just like that the disability insurance called me today to begin the paperwork for my leave.

Ayi….It’s starting to feel real.

 

One more phone call to go and then come Monday surgery time.

 

I put all my faith and trust in God.

Though it is normal to feel nervous, I am rebuking the nerves in the name of Jesus.

 

My kids [entire class] at church prayed over me.  I know God listens to their heartfelt prayers.

I will be good.