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Open your mouth

Open Your Mouth

“…Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it…”

(Psalm 81:10)

 

 

I don’t know about you but I am hungry.

I am hungry, spiritually.

I want to feast in what the lord has to offer.

 

Are you hungry?

Open your mouth wide, and he will surely fill it.

 

 

He will fill your mouths the way a mother bird fills the mouths of a baby bird to nourish them. The little bird sees their momma bird and they open wide. They don’t know if momma bird had the time to get the food or not, but they trust, they trust with all their might, that when their little mouths open they will be fed.

 

Same like infants and a nursing mother.

As soon as we have our baby, they know they need to suckle on something for their mouths to be filled. What does an infant do? They open their little mouths, and mom provides. They latch, they suckle and then they are fed. They trust in their mom to be able to provide the nourishment they need. They don’t know the source of their nourishment yet they trust.

 

We know where the source to satisfy our desires are.

 

We already know that God provides for his children. We know we need to trust in him & that we can trust in him to provide.

 

We need to trust that God will provide our needs and fill our needs.

 

I crave Gods love.

I crave Gods mercy.

I crave Gods blessings.

I crave Gods embrace.

I want to be filled with God.

 

I will open my mouth.

I will praise his name.

I will give him glory.

I will exalt his name.

I will thank him for being merciful.

I will ask for atonement for my sins.

I will keep my mouth open, and let him fill me up.

 

This is exactly what we need to do open our mouths and he will begin filling it.

 

‘Ask and we shall receive’.

 

He will quench my thirst for he flows with living waters and my dears I guarantee he will quench your thirst.

 

 

Father God I thank you for your constant blessings in my life. The mere fact that I am here seeking your guidance, seeking you to satisfy my needs is a blessing in itself. Father God you are worthy of all praise and I lift your name on high. I thank your and praise you for you are worthy of all praise. Father God my need is simple. I want to be filled with you. I want to be filled in your presence. I want to be filled with your love and compassion. I want to be filled with your embrace. Lord you know my carnal needs in this world, you know my weaknesses and my strengths, lord I ask for you to fill me up so I can overcome my obstacles and my burdens. I know you have a plan for my future. . I ask you to fill me dear lord with your peace and patience while I wait on you to achieve the plans you have forth in me. I love you. in Jesus’ name. Amen.”

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wake up

“Now the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him; and he cannot know them, because they are spiritually judged.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭2:14‬ ‭ASV‬‬
The Bible says An unbeliever cannot understand spiritual things. To understand spiritual truths we need to understand them i the spirit not in the flesh.
We need to understand that we are subjected to sin. We are surrounded by sin. We always look at things in the flesh.
When we are told to open our eyes, we think, hey, my eyes are open. Those are not the eyes we are told to open. When we are asked to open one’s ears to listen. Some respond um I am listening. No you are not. Your Spiritual senses need to be on alert. We will never receive messages or blessings from the spirit if we are not spiritually intune with our spiritual senses. This is the only way one can understand spiritual truths.
The blind shall see.
Those that are blind, will only see, when they are spiritually awaken.
Many of us are spiritually blind. You will never see unless you open your eyes.
You too shall see.
The times we are living in are difficult ones indeed.
Leaders are corrupt.
Sin is considered good.
We are living the days of Sodom and Gomorrah again.
Yet I feel worse.
To be religious is subject to scrutiny.
Many are being wrongfully criminalized.
We need to wake up, and see things from a spiritual perspective.
We will all face judgement one day.
The supreme court will not decide our fate.
The Lord will.
Father God I ask you to anoint me with your spirit. To wash over me so that I can see, Hear, feel, smell, your presence. I was once blind, but through my trials and tribulations I see. I was once deaf, but now I hear. I pray dear lord for an awakening in our communities. May our people see, and hear your greatness. May the understand they need to be ready for the spiritual warfare when we are under attack. May we be able to discern your voice and be able to follow through. Amen.

Crying Woman

The crying woman
What does it mean?
A while ago I had a dream, this dream resulted in me getting up, reaching out to someone and praying for them.
I wrote this to the person:
I’ve been meaning to text you all day.
I hope all is well… not sure the obstacles you may be facing but as you know God is in control and if you are facing obstacles it shall soon pass.
The reason for the random text well is because you’ve been in my spirit and mind all day.
I am resting on Med’s and every time I go to sleep, no matter what I am dreaming you have been appearing crying. You talk to vent, though in each dream I couldn’t hear what you’ve said, you continued to cry. Each time I’ve told you the same thing. It will be ok, it will pass. You are stronger than you realize, and I am here for you and love you.
Each time I have woken up from my medication induced naps…I got on my knees and prayed for you. Maybe that’s what you need. Prayers, but know I am here for you.
I do love you!!
I just wanted to share with you.
The recipient responded back with details of their struggles.  Thanked me for the words.
Those words were what she was asking for to be told that it will be ok, and to be reminded that her struggles will pass, she needed to be reminded that she is strong and loved.
What was the point of me writing this?
There are reasons beyond our control why we have certain dreams.
There are reasons beyond our control as to why certain individuals pop up in our mind.
Sometimes we have to follow the instructions.
Reach out to the person and relay the message.
You never know what someone is going through.
You never know the needs that they might have.
You never know what words they need to hear.
What we do know is when we are instructed to do something, we are to follow suit.
We are to listen carefully.
Doing so we can provide exactly what that person needs.
So the crying woman, what does it mean?
It means God put a vision in my sleep of someone I know, who was going through something.
God knew she needed additional prayers.
God knew she needed to hear the words I told her.
God used me to do so.
God can do the same with you.
When I reached out to the person, I had no idea what they were facing, what their burdens were nor their troubles.  When I finished hearing back, I was happy knowing that a difference was made in that person’s day.
Be that difference when the lord speaks to you or shows you signs.
Father God I thank you for any opportunity to do your will.  I am thankful for another day. Thankful for the love you give.  Your are gracious, kind, knowing, omnipresent and omnipotent.  I want to continue to be a vessel for your greatness.  I want to continue to do your great work.  In the name of the father, the son, holy spirit. Amen

Change

“Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” (Psalm 139:23-24

I am wondering dear lord is It me? Am I the problem? Am I too defensive? Am I unknowingly offensive? Am I anxious and nervous for nothing?
I trust you lord, but is my trust in you reflected in my words, actions, reactions and ways?

Dear lord forgive me if I have offended others. Forgive me if I have overreacted. Forgive me for being over emotional.

Sometimes we are quick to blame others without looking at the man or woman in the mirror. We are quick to blame others without seeing the bigger picture.

We need to think, rationalize not jump the gun. We need to take it easy. (Actually to quote one of my professors "Cojelo con el take it easy okay mama".)

Proverbs 16:32 ESV /m
Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city.

We can all heed this advice. Myself, you, even our President. We all have had moments of reacting…. and over reacting.

I'm wondering the cycle of behavior patterns if that's something one can truly change. I can lift my hands and ask you dear lord for guidance. Not everyone understands the power in reaching out to you can do.

I spent 14 years with my husband, 9 of those years married. I uprooted myself to be with him. Moved to his side of time which is about a half hour to forty five minute drive to my everything, my life line, my family, at the time my friends. Some of my anger which comes up during arguments is the notion of being uprooted.

Building a relationship with my husband I lost many. I always put him first. Yet I still tried my best to be there for my family, friends and loved over time, distances grew and I've had to make a choice. My house hold or yours?

How much sacrifice I have to make for those whom don't appreciate my efforts. How much more sacrifice do I need to make for those whom don't acknowledge what I've done in their lives. Why sacrifice for people whom don't even look for you?

Tensions buildup, external and internal reasons for them. Quick to explode, quick to snap, quick to anger.

Why though? Over the trivial things that we keep thinking of. Right now I'm only briefly mentioning things that bother me from time to time, but we all go through experiences like this. We bottle things up that bother us up and snap.

Think about this: for many years I've said I uprooted myself from my family and friends for you, dear husband…. for you. I've stopped going out, stopped seeing people since you had me move with you. Deflecting to the real problem. Deflecting from the truth. Deflecting from admitting I had a choice.

I chose not to go out when invited, because of my own fears and insecurities based off where I live. I never wanted to be caught walking out late alone.

I chose not to travel sometimes because my commute is longer using mass transit (before we had a car). Blaming my husband for my own inability to accept what was really going on.

God had pulled me away from toxic people. God was even pulling me away from toxic relatives…. you know the ones that milk you until you have no milk left. You know the toxic friends….the ones that want you to binge drink with them until you all pass out.

Toxic relationships.
Relationships which did not honor gods will.

My husband was a pawn, by God to get me away from what distracted me from my reality. My husband was used by God to reopen my eyes and get me back on my feet. I was also a pawn used by God to get my husband to accept him as his lord and savior and serve him dutifully.

My lord has taught me time and time again how one can change. How one can be used for his greatness. How we need to open up and look at the bigger picture.

My dear lord thank you father for another day to write, worship, praise your name and analyze the great deeds you've done in my life. Without you lord I am nothing. You are the god of my fathers, the god of Abraham, the god our father, the king of all kings dear lord. I love you with all my might and my being. I thank you for the lessons of life you present me. I pray for forgiveness if I have offended anyone. I ask you for forgiveness dear lord for I am human and have sinned. I ask for forgiveness and redemption in your holy name. Amen

Arise

"Arise, shine; for your light has come! And the glory of the LORD is risen upon you."

(Isaiah 60:1, NKJV)

The Glory of the Lord has risen within you. The glory of the lord gives us the strength to rise and shine the light the lords has given us.

We all have gifts/ talents that were given to us by his good grace. These gifts and talents were given to us for us to grow and use in his glory. They are provided to us so that we can rise up from our circumstance in the flesh. They were given to us so that we can shine in his holy light. It is when we put god first in all of our endeavors, it is when we properly glorify his name, it is when we give him due praise for our success and talents that we can shine like beacons of light in his name.

We shall and can rise up. We shall and can shine bright and let his glory manifest among us. His glory is already with us. All we have to do is wake up, look for it, rise up and we shall shine and be of blessings. We don't have to look far. We don't have to travel the world to find ourselves, we have to search within. We need to look in the depths of our soul, the depths of our hearts. We need to see from within to see what God wants from all of us.

Did you know that the word “glory” in the original language indicates that God’s favor, blessing and splendor is on you in a heavy way.

He has filled us with so much of his glory that it weighs us, its there, in searching for it you shouldn't have to search far, it's there.

Please know that your time is now. It is time to shine bright. It's time to rise. Let that sink in. Let this marinate in your spirit. His glory is with you. It's time to ride and shine because of his glory.

Thank you father for your glory. Thank you for letting your glorify marinate and manifest within me. Thank you for allowing me to rise, so that I may shine. Lord I know I shine because your glory is within me, you placed it there. Many may not realize this my lord. Many may not realize that your glory is with them. I pray for them dear lord, I pray for them dear lord that they may see your glory within them so they too can rise and shine. Amen.

Zanqueo quiero conorcerle… Zacchaeus I want to get to know you

Luke 19:1-5New International Version (NIV)
Zacchaeus the Tax Collector
19 Jesus entered Jericho and was passing through. A man was there by the name of Zacchaeus; he was a chief tax collector and was wealthy. He wanted to see who Jesus was, but because he was short he could not see over the crowd. So he ran ahead and climbed a sycamore-figtree to see him, since Jesus was coming that way.
When Jesus reached the spot, he looked up and said to him, “Zacchaeus, come down immediately. I must stay at your house today.”

Zanqueo quiero conorcerle… Zacchaeus I want to get to know you.

This was a sermon that my pastor gave and even hours later it kept resonating. I needed this sermon. I think if your read my post a few days ago about an encounter and once you read this, you will understand why I feel this resonated deeply inside me.

God I am listening!
I'm going to paraphrase the sermon.
In The sermon the pastor described Zacchaeus procession. He was the chief tax collector, hated by all because of what he did. Yet when Jesus arrived, he had a drive, a need, a wang to see Jesus. Zacchaeus was short in stature, no matter how hard he tried, the crowds were so big they kept preventing him from seeing.

I tried moving along with the current of the crowds, but was still unable to see.
He saw a sycamore tree, so Zacchaeus climbed a sycamore tree so he could be able to see Jesus, despite his lack of height, despite being held back by the crowds, beside being hated due to his profession.

He wanted to see Jesus…. with his ambition, drive, and faith…. he saw Jesus. He saw Jesus….. and Jesus saw him too.

Don't let what others think, what others say, what others do deter you from getting to where you need to get spiritually. Do not let their actions, their words, their expressions deter you back. Do not let their actions, their words, their expressions hold you back spiritually.

Now back to the sycamore tree. It was explained to us that in those times the fruit of the sycamore was used to feed the pigs, pigs were deemed and unclean by the Jews, since the pigs were deemed uncleaned so was the fruit and the tree which provided Nutrition to these animals.

God qualifies the unqualified.

The sycamore tree was used to help Zacchaeus both became qualified and significant to God for an important lesson in our faith.

I also wanted to learn more about this tree, here is what I learned: links and references will be found at the very end of this post.

Sycamore Symbolism:
1a-"In Catholicism, the sycamore tree symbolizes the place in a person’s life where he has a clear vision of Jesus. "
2a-"In mythology, the sycamore tree was thought to be the embodiment of three goddesses: Isis, Nut and Hathor, who was called Lady of the Sycamore. In a traditional and attributive sense, the sycamore tree is considered the tree of protection and favors."

In this section where I have quoted from an article I found where we see how in Catholicism the tree symbolizes a place in a persons life where he has clear vision of Jesus, the author also shows the mythology of the mythology of the tree

Sycamore Tree
1b-"The sycamore tree that Zacchaeus climbed into was the Ficus sycamorus, also called the sycamore fig.  Some scholars argue that the Ficus sycamorus was the original fig tree in the Garden of Eden, not the Ficus carica. "

2b-"In Israel, sycamore trees grow where underground water is shallow and is most prominent in the southern Israel because of construction and rapid development.     Under very favorable conditions, the sycamore tree may produce up to six crops per year."

Symbolism: Regeneration    
3b-"In Israel, the sycamore tree symbolized regeneration.  Regeneration refers to someone who is spiritually reborn.  (Like zacchaeus)Zacchaeus had a spiritual rebirth thorough his discussion with Jesus in his home.  Levi, known as Matthew, was one of Christ’s original 12 apostles.  Like Zaccheaus, Levi was a tax collector (Mark 2:14).  When Christ called, Levi left his tax collector’s booth and followed Christ.  Possibly Zacchaeus knew Levi and wondered why his colleague who could become very rich collecting taxes would give it up for Christ.  After spending several hours with Christ, Zacchaeus no longer wondered because he too had a regenerated heart. Zacchaeus’ new heart did not cause him to follow Christ as did Levi’s.  Instead, Zacchaeus’ regenerated heart caused him to make restitution and change his life where he lived in Jericho."

What we see in these three points from the author is that the genome of the sycamore tree, we see why and how it was able to grow in Jerusalem and we see its symbolizing regeneration, renewal and rebirth. How this tree became qualified for a pivotal moment in someone's life. How this tree was pivotal in ones salvation.

Focus on the Lord, not "the crowd."
1c-"Faith is not a vicarious experience. While others can help to bring us to Jesus, He calls our name and we must personally respond. Not just once, but every day, every moment. Faith is a door into an ongoing, intimate dynamic relationship with a living, loving God who, in Jesus Christ, has come to seek and save the lost. Jesus reminds us "You did not choose me but I chose you…" (John 15:16) Zacheus climbed that tree in order to see the Lord, not to be seen by Jesus. He did not care what the crowd thought of a grown man climbing a tree! He went after the encounter with Jesus Christ with a childlike simplicity and a reckless abandon. Do we?"
2c-"The "crowd's" in our lives rarely lead us to God. Remember the exchange with Simon Peter recorded in the Gospel of St. Matthew, chapter sixteen? Jesus asks the disciples "Who do men say I am". They told him what the "crowds" said about Him. "Some say John the Baptist, others Elijah…." Jesus then spoke personally to Simon and asked "…but you, who do you, say I am." Peter replied "You are the Christ".

3c-"Desire to see Jesus more than anything or anyone else
The story of Zacheus invites us to ask ourselves if we are serious about fully and truthfully living out our Christian vocation. Do we really want to see Jesus or are we comfortable with keeping Him at a distance? Do we compartmentalize our lives, living a separation between faith and life that keeps religious things in a "religious compartment", treating faith like a hat that we put on and take off depending upon the environment that we find ourselves in?"

4c-"The Christian vocation is a call to ongoing conversion by giving ourselves away to the One who poured Himself out for us…and being transformed in the process. It is about giving our whole lives over to the Lord who takes up His residence within us and then continues His mission through us. "

5c-"We are also called to love differently, because we love "in" Jesus Christ. We are invited to "be" differently, because we are different now, at the deepest level. Jesus Christ continues His life and mission on this earth through His Body, His Church, of which we are members."

6c-"Choose to live in the Sycamore tree
The Sycamore tree created a clear line of vision for Zacheus. It helped him to rise above the crowd and see the Lord clearly. It placed him in the right position for the invitation that would follow. Jesus told him to come down for he was coming to his house! Imagine the thrill. For us, the Sycamore tree is a symbol of that place in our own lives which enables us to have a clear vision of Jesus. Zacheus did not hesitate. With the same lack of caution which he had demonstrated in climbing the tree, he came down to stand in the presence of God Incarnate. There he heard the call that would forever change his life."
7c"Where is Jesus passing through in our own lives? He always shows up for those who have their spiritual eyes opened to see Him. How about in our workplace? How about in our relationships? How about in our families? Are we running out to meet Him? Or, are we afraid? Are we wondering "if we see Him, what will He ask of us?" The invitation of this story is to climb that Sycamore Tree; to find the place that will make it possible for us to see Jesus, unimpeded, so as to hear Him call our name. He still comes to seek and to save what is lost. He still comes to the homes of all who open their hearts wide to his presence and are willing to live lives bathed in the light of His refining fire."

8c- "When we see Jesus on the Jericho Road of our own lives we are invited to exercise our faith, to choose Him and change. He does not do the changing in the relationship. He is the same "yesterday, today and forever" (Hebrews 13:8).Prayer is not, in the first instance, about getting God to do what we want. It is about entering into an intimate communion with Him and in Him, and then abiding (St. John 15). In that relationship, we invite Him to change us and we learn to surrender all to Him in love. ……. Zacheus teaches us about life in a Sycamore Tree. "

In this section we see 8 points 1- focusing on faith and it the crowds around you. 2 the crowds won't always lead you where you need to go 3 ones faith and determination, 4 ones vocation as christians, 5 we are called to love, 6 we are asked to live in the sycamore tree 7 we are asked to question where we see ourselves with Jesus and our relationship and 8 we are taught and reminded Jesus is the same.

I loved this added research on the sycamore tree and how it relates to us and our faith. I can't wait until the second part of this sermon.

Father God I thank you for this sermon and this research that came from it. You know my heart and you know how this sermon moved me. God I hear you. I will not listen to the crowds nor will I let them deter me from you. My relationship with you matters more than what others say. I will climb that sycamore tree, I will look for you with all my might so that our relationship can grow. Amen.

Notes 1a &2a came from:
http://peopleof.oureverydaylife.com/sycamore-tree-symbolize-6810.html

Notes1b-3b came from:
https://www.google.com/amp/s/godasagardener.com/2013/10/13/climbing-a-sycamore-tree/amp/
But for further reading on
Bible plants along with their symbolism. Check out : 1) Rooted in God and 2) God as a Gardener. You can purchase them from website: Carolyn Roth Ministry at http://www.CarolynRothMinistry.com/

Notes 1c-8c came from: http://www.catholic.org/news/hf/faith/story.php?id=34384

Marital advice … an open letter to my cousin

This is an open letter to my cousin whom is having a destination wedding.
I was unable to go due to timing. My sister just had a baby, as mentioned in prior posts she's a special needs. She is doing well, but I would've felt better being able to be there for her, with her during this new transition in her life.

Juny I don't say it often but I love you…. my first brother, my twin. For many years my other half. I want to congratulate you on your upcoming nuptials. May this day go smooth, may you and your bride be blessed beyond belief, may God our father anoint this union while you say your vows. I pray for your health, years of happiness, longevity, wisdom, strength, endurance, may your love and passion for one another always remain.

Mark 10:9: “Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate."
I pray that you both weather the storm, for there will be good days and there will be bad days, but trust in God, keep faith in God, keep hope in God to ride out the storms to come. Both of you Remember always marriage isn't a one way street, two people, joined together to become one, it's a 50/50. There may be times one or the other have to meet at the half way point. Always stay united.

Ephesians 4:2-3: “With all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace."

Love one another with all your night, remind each other often day it, display it, always keep an open Chanel of communication.
Ephesians 5:25: “For husbands, this means love your wives, just as Christ loved the church. He gave up his life for her."
But tell your bride that I said to love you just the same, love your husband the way Christ loves his church.

Remember to always be supportive of one another. Be each other's rocks. Be each other's support system.
Ecclesiastes 4:12: “Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."

As I mentioned before you will have storms (later vs sooner). Always love each other even in the storm. Always talk it out, never go to bed angry at one another, as I said earlier always communicate.
1 Corinthians 13:4-5: “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."

1 Peter 4:8: “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."

Nothing breaks my heart more than not being able to go to witness this big day for you. Nothing breaks my heart more than not being with my family during this time. I will be there in spirit covering you with blessings. I will be fasting and praying for you and your wife. May god bless you always.
I love you June.

Father God I ask that you cover this union in prayers. May they heed the advices of marriages others provide. May they always put you first my lord, may they always love and honor one another. Lord I ask you to bless them, protect them, let the Holy Spirit manifest in them so that he can guide their every step. I rebuke negativity and Harm in the name of Jesus. May their union be of a blessing, of love and success in their celebrations. In the name of the father, the son and the Holy Spirit Amen.

Left to Chance

So I began to read a book which made me reassess my life and relationships.

Left to Chance
by Amy Sue Nathan

Before I start my review here is a synopsis from goodreads.com where I won this book in a giveaway.

The website synopsis:

From the author of The Good Neighborand The Glass Wives comes an enchanting story of returning home and discovering what truly matters after loss.

No one knows why Teddi Lerner left her hometown, but everyone knows why she’s back.

Twelve-year-old Shayna— talented, persistent, and adorable—persuaded "Aunt Tee" to return to Chance, Ohio, to photograph her father’s wedding. Even though it's been six years since Shay's mother, Celia, died, Teddi can hardly bear the thought of her best friend's husband marrying someone else. But Teddi’s bond with Shay is stronger than the hurt.

Teddi knows it’s time to face the consequences of her hasty retreat from family, friends, and, her old flame, but when she looks through her viewfinder, nothing in her small town looks the same. That’s when she truly sees the hurt she's caused and—maybe—how to fix it.

After the man she once loved accuses Teddi of forgetting Celia, Teddi finally admits why she ran away, and the guilt she’s carried with her. As Teddi relinquishes the distance that kept her safe, she’ll discover surprising truths about the people she left behind, and herself. And she'll finally see what she overlooked all along.

I cried, I laughed and I truly enjoyed reading this book. I can relate to Teddi and why she ran away, why she stood away. Sometimes when we loose people we love, we close up ourselves, we isolate ourselves in our grief, thinking we cannot function with out our departed loved ones…. whether or not they passed away or decided to travel across the country for a new life.

I was able to channel the emotions Teddi under went. I was able to relate to her struggles, her fears, her anxieties and her being around people she has not been around in years. I connected to the character on a deeper personal level, having somewhat been there myself.

I enjoyed this book.
I cried with this book.
I laughed with this book.
I sighed with this book.
I was happy with this book.

Eloquently written, easy read, easy to follow.

I recommend everyone read this.

This book also allowed me to take a step back and reflect on my relationships.
I keep thinking about how much things have changed.
In general.
How much time has passed.
How much I've changed.
How much my friends have changed.
How I went back to being the person I once was, without the same people who were originally there when I was that person.
How different it all feels.
Then I thought if anything happened to my "best friends" I wouldn't ever know.
Their significant others wouldn't tell me because I have no friendship with them.
Not by choice, distance.
They wouldn't even know I existed to contact.

I face my struggles and my challenges alone.
How are my "best friends" dealing with there's?
Teddi' longed for her phone conversations with her deceased Celia, the way I long for talks my friends.
Teddis life was drastically changed when her friend left her life, as was mine when my friends left mine to a start a new elsewhere.

Social media allows for some sort of contact with your loved ones, but it is so impersonal. Nothing like a phone call, nothing like a hey text, nothing like one on one face to face interaction if possible.

We've all moved on with our lives. We all have new friends, some even have new best friends, new things that matter. I am not the same person you once knew, you are not the same person I remembered.

Life is about growth. Some people are meant to be with you at given points in your walk, and then they branch off.
Some people are meant to walk the distance with you and be by your side.
If you love someone's, do not abandon them regardless of the circumstance.

What a nice lesson and reflection from this amazing book. Everyone is mourning, everyone too needs help in their journey. I mourn losses daily. We all wonder about the what ifs.

This book comes out on November 2017. Pre order it. It's going to be a good read and a great way to self reflect your existing and past relationships.

By my Spirit

By my Spirit
“…’Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ says the LORD of hosts.”
(Zechariah 4:6, NASB)
We all have places we want to go.
Places we want to see.
Problems we want to clear.
Debt we want to eliminate.
Goals we wish to achieve and aspire to fulfill.
How will you go to the places?
How will you see the sights?
How will you clear your problems?
How will you eliminate debt?
How will you achieve the goals you are aspiring, whether long term or short term?
Sometimes we are in a hole or a problem due to self infliction?
What? You ask? Me? Hurt myself? I would never?
Yeah… you would.
We all do someway some how whether we like to admit it or not.
The other day I #Yolo in my post. Not in referencing in we only live once so live it up, I did so reminding you that You Only Live Once, meaning what we do here affects us in our after life. The decisions we make affects our outcomes here and there.
So yes YOLO References will be made again in this post, why? Well it’s our Yolo attitude that leads us in to our problems. (Self inflicted, societal derivatives ).
That YOLO attitude may get you to places you want to get, places you want to see, even achieve some of your short term goals. The down side is, how’d you get there? You need funding? How much debt are you in living the YOLO life? Are you happy or are you trying to find things to fill that void?
A few days ago I posted about using vices and other means to fill the voids where I did not need anything to fill. What I wanted, what I needed was in front of me, beside me, around me and in me this whole time. Living the YOLO life can temporarily fill that void, but what about long term?
What about your future?
Your salvation?
Your after life?
Your retirement?
In our bible studies we ended our discussion about using our professional backgrounds and talents to be used in churches.
When we are guided by the Holy Spirit we can accomplish great things. He will let our talents grow and mature, he will provide, he will take us to places we never even dreamed of adding to our bucket list. It’s not by our strength, nor our power or our might. When guided by the Holy Spirit, Yolo will take a whole other meaning. You only live once, for Salvation…… Key word… Salvation.
Yes I only Live Once.
I want to make the best of it so I can reach the pearly gates and find my name in that book.
So my point here: The solution to all our problems rest in God.
How will you go to the places? – Declare it in the name of the Holy Spirit. If you are meant to go there, not only will he take you, he will show you how you will get there, Oh the so many places you shall go, is not just my favorite Dr. Seuss quote for life, but for my spiritual Life. Guided by the Holy spirit, oh the many places you shall go…both spiritual and in the flesh.
How will you see the sights? – Declare it in the name of God, the Holy Spirit will show you some great marvels of the world, as well as in the spirits.
How will you clear your problems? – Declare yourself problem free in his name. The Holy spirit will provide you the rubric to solving that problem.
How will you eliminate debt? Declare yourself debt free in his name. The Holy spirit will guide your spending, guide your thoughts, guide your actions, guide your game-plan to eliminate your debt.
How will you achieve the goals you are aspiring, whether long term or short term?
simple “…’Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ says the LORD of hosts.”
Thank you father for my dreams, aspirations, desires and goals you have placed in me. Thank you for creating the rubric, the building blocks and the steps necessary to make these dreams, aspirations, desires and goals come to pass. I know that you will guide me, to not only to see, not only to go, not only to save, not only to solve my problems, here in the flesh, but to allow me to see, to go places I never even dreamed of and be problem free spiritually. When I am weak, you make me strong father, when I am blind, you let me see, when I can’t hear, you open my ears to listen. Today I declare that in your name our goals will be achieved, in your name I bring forth healing. In your name, I eliminate debt, In your name I will travel and see. In your name I will be guided by your spirit, not by might, not by power but your spirit. I love you. Amen.

Prayer warriors needed to fight the good fight 

“Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.”
(1 Timothy 6:12)

We have all been placed here for a specific reason. We all have a specific role to play and a specific fight we need to fight for our creator. Each one of us has a story. Some are simple, some are hard, some are very complex.  
What we all have in common is no matter what our stories are, no matter what struggles we face, we all have the same fight. Yours may be more specific than mine, mine may be more specific than the person sitting next to me on this train, but we all have the same fight.
Our fight is a spiritual fight.

It’s is a fight for our faith.

It’s a fight for acceptance.

It is a fight for hope.

It is a fight for our eternal salvation.
Regardless of our backgrounds. Regardless of our hardships, the fight of faith is one in the same.  
We were chosen to be Gods people.

We were chosen to be his prayer warriors.

We were chosen to spread his word.

We were chosen to defend him against the enemy.
Fighting the enemy could be tiresome.

He comes from Many angles.

He uses different pathways to deter not only your blessing but your faith in God.

He attacks us using our loved ones.

He attacks us using our colleagues:

He attacks us using random strangers.

He attacks us with illness.

He attacks us with stress.

He attacks us with uncertainty.

He attacks us by filling us with doubt.
Our faith is what can help us with this battle. We all have a pivotal role in this celestial fight for our eternity. Are you willing and able to pick up your arms (spiritual) and fight the good fight?

Are you going to continue to fast, continue to pray, continue to praise even during the hardship?  
Job lost it all, was tested, over came his circumstance and in the end was blessed.

As parents, nothing hurts us more than seeing our children in anguish, pain and torment. As I am writing this, I have an uncle who’s son (my cousin) is in a hospital because he was found unresponsive in his room. Several exams were done to see where the problem lies. My aunt and my uncle are desperate in need of prayers. 
We will fight this food fight with you for your son. We will take up our coats of arms, we will hold our shields, we will gather our swords and we will fight this good fight with you.
My grandmother told my uncle, ” he was chosen by God to do his work and that everything he is going through is the battle that he will face against the devil.”

God chose his son for his specific battle. He God will lift him up from this circumstance.
My young cousin maybe unresponsive right now. But I know deep down he is fighting. This poor young child…. whom has been through a lot in his life, please feel our prayers, please feel our thoughts, please feel our words, listen to the voice of God. Follow his lead little one, he will direct you, he will guide you, he will help you in this fight.  
I am praying for you little champ. 

You will come or victorious in Jesus name. 

The lord will guide your doctors to reveal the nature to your current mysterious circumstances. God has he answers and in time will provide. While we wait I will pray. While we wait I ask for prayers. While you fight, we will fight with you. 
Father God I ask you to cover your hands over my cousin and bring forth healing. I ask you to wake him from this nightmare. I am asking for healing and liberation in your name for this child. May he be liberated from the demons holding him down. I ask for strength for my aunt, uncle and family as they face this battle of the unknown. I ask for guidance, patience while awaiting diagnostics, I ask again for healing. I ask that anyone reading this can unite with my family in prayers. May the Holy Spirit move so that we can provide strength and liberation for my family. Lord your will, will be done. Amen.