I have moments where I just start writing.
Words come to my mind and I just have to pen them to paper.
If I don’t I loose it.
So on the train the other day, thinking and while i was thinking these words just kept coming.
Lo and behold this poem came about.
Hope you enjoy this.
Harvey Weinstein has been much of the talks lately. Many are coming out whom have been directly affected by Harvey, and many more are coming out whom have been affected by others. You and I have all seen the way they have been coming out. #MeToo.
The Me Too movement as you know came about as a response and to bring awareness to the situation at hand since the Harvey Weinstein controversy. Since the first post about this situation “more than 53,000 people had left comments and thousands of women had declared “Me Too,” sharing their stories of rape, sexual assault and harassment across social media, including some for the first time.”
If you’ve been sexually harassed or assaulted write ‘me too’ as a reply to this tweet. pic.twitter.com/k2oeCiUf9n
— Alyssa Milano (@Alyssa_Milano) October 15, 2017
I too included a “me too” post for the very first time. I have never shared my story, but I have undergone sexual assault and harassment. It took a lot for me to even write those two words because it meant admitting to myself that I am a victim of assault. I never reported my assailants, nor would I at this point. One of them is deceased, the other was really young when he did so. I was young myself and did not know how to talk about or process what I endured. My post also shows my family a truth about my past which I never wanted to discuss, never have discussed with them, nor do I have any intentions to further discuss with them nor my spouse.
Some may have seen it, some may have not. Those two little words I wrote in solidarity for being victimized, but any further elaboration up to that point was not going to be given. Many though chose not to admit their assaults or harassment in this movement. Many are still unable to handle such memories or just want to bury their past deep down to the bottoms of the oceans. I do not blame them.
Reminder that if a woman didn’t post #MeToo, it doesn’t mean she wasn’t sexually assaulted or harassed. Survivors don’t owe you their story.
— Alexis Benveniste (@apbenven) October 16, 2017
I commend the women whom have been able to share their stories in public. They are stronger than I am for sharing their stories along side their Me Too.
As I write this I can vividly see the faces of the two whom have harassed/assaulted me in my past. I can vividly see where I was, what I wore, What was said and what happened after the fact. I cringe at the memory. I feel repulsed by myself.
I couldn’t add more than those two words.
My family follow me on social media.
I didn’t want to disclose more than I did.
Saying me too, I said more than I ever did since my first encounter.
As mentioned earlier one of the assailants I was told passed away. Died too young. Died in a hit and run accident in Florida. It was horrendous to hear. I never wished either of the two any wrong. I forgave them both. Though I am scarred by the memories…I forgive them each time I think of it. The one who passed away shouldn’t have died the way he did. He was on his way to get milk for his infant. I cried at the news. Like I said I did forgive him. In person at that. (though I did leave him with a black eye and a few scratches to the face at our encounter).
Sometimes we are victimized not by strangers but people we know and associate with. Sometimes its a relatives. I thank God in my case neither are relatives. They were people I have known though. People I didn’t think would do such a thing.
What I ask is that Mothers of boys, lets teach our sons to respect women. Lets raise our boys not to harass or assault anyone. Teach our children boundaries. Teach our children respect overall. Teach our children “personal space”. Teach our children how would you feel if you were in those shoes? Teach our children what If it were me your mom or sibling that this had happened to. We need to make things personal in order to assess our feelings accordingly. We need to hold ourselves accountable for our own actions.
Mothers of daughters, teach your daughters to speak up. Teach your daughters to defend themselves. I may not have been able to speak up or do something the first time. The second time I did fight back. I did not turn the other check like the bible says, and I have asked for forgiveness in that. I did defend myself. I did not report to any authorities of anything nor did I file complain. I probably should have.
Remember to please not judge those victimized. No one ever asks to be raped, harassed or assaulted. It’s not something that one says Hi, I’m here, Pick me, Choose me, attack me?
It is hard.
Here are affiliated articles on the #metoo movement.:
- the atlantic
- An activist, a little girl and the heartbreaking origin of ‘Me too’
- Incredible Image Shows How the #MeToo Movement Spread Around the Globe
- Why the #MeToo Moment Is Liberating, Dispiriting, and Uncomfortable All at Once
- Two moguls down. And the #MeToo movement is just getting started
- The ‘Me Too’ Campaign Was Created By A Black Woman 10 Years Ago
- For Some Sexual Assault Survivors, Harvey Weinstein News Can Be Triggering
The Lord is a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.
As with all that I do, let us end in a prayer.
Father God I thank you for another day to speak about a topic which is not spoken about often enough. Lord you are my stronghold, in the good times and in my times of trouble. Lord you are the stronghold to the many women whom have been victimized during the years. I once again come before you and seek forgiveness for my transgressions on the issues I mentioned above and I forgive those whom have caused harm to my person. God you know the situation that occurred, you know how it has affected me and why I choose not to disclose more than I did. Lord I still want to forgive my transgressors and once again ask for forgiveness for my transgressions. Lord I ask you provide strength and guidance to the many victims whom have yet found an outlet or confide in someone to discuss their circumstances and experience. May they find refuge in you so that they too can forgive and move forward. I know it is hard my Lord, but with you all things are possible. Amen.
This Past Sunday I had to sing for church.
This article I read a day after.
I must say the timing was perfect.
Though my voice isn’t the greatest, I do enjoy singing for the Lord.
The song I chose was a song which meant alot to me.
It was a spanish Song entitled Adonai.
In Hebrew Adonai means Lord.
the Song Roughly Translates,
Oh ADONAI, Oh ADONAI,
God of the Universe, Lord of allcreations.
The heavens, shout out the lords Glory, the people today shall adore you, for all the marvels that you have done in our lives, Oh Adonai
Its a short song, very powerful, meaningful and straight to the Point.
I know I have much to be grateful for the marvels God has done in my life, so why not sing a song that says just that. I wasn’t nervous like I usually am when I get to the pulpit. I knew god was in total control. I love my lord and savior and am eternally grateful beyond words or songs could ever describe.
The artilce i read is below: it discusses the authors joy in singing to the lord. It describes that bond and connection one gets when singing to the lord. The link is above incase you would like to go to their site, but this was a good read. Worth sharing.
August 21 2017
A BfA staff member shares his experience of singing to the Lord.
In my everyday Christian life I really enjoy praying to the Lord, calling
on His name, and speaking about Him to others. All these things give me a
way to contact the Lord Jesus throughout my day and enjoy His presence.
But one of my favorite ways to touch the Lord is by singing to Him with
my spirit. The apostle Paul wrote about singing in 1 Corinthians 14:15:
“I will sing with the spirit, and I will sing also with the mind.”
and the means for me to contact and worship Christ, exercising my
spirit to sing really brings me into the enjoyment of the Lord.
Singing in the morning
I particularly enjoy singing to the Lord in the morning. Sometimes as I’m
getting ready, a song pops into my head, and I start singing it to
touch the Lord as I go about my routine. Recently, I’ve sung one song in
particular quite often (hear the music at hymnal.net):
“Therefore with joy shall ye draw water
Out of the wells of salvation.
And in that day shall ye say,
Praise the Lord.
Call upon His name,
Declare His doings among the people,
Make mention that His name is exalted.
Cry out and shout, thou inhabitant of Zion
For great is the Holy One of Israel in the midst of thee.”
At first it seemed a little awkward to sing aloud like this, especially if
other people could possibly hear me. But I’ve found it’s such a great
way to contact the Lord that now I can’t stop!
Singing to the Lord in the morning is so enjoyable because it’s one of the six ways we can drink Christ as the living water
revealed in Isaiah 12. By singing to the Lord in the mornings I “draw
water with rejoicing from the springs of salvation” (v. 3)! And verse 5
“Sing psalms to Jehovah, for He has done something majestic!”
For me, the mornings are a critical time to draw water from the wells of
salvation. Whether I take a drink or not impacts how the rest of my day
goes. I rarely jump out of bed the minute I wake up, and I’m usually
groggy and spiritually dry first thing in the morning. Because I haven’t
called on the Lord or prayed all night long, I need to contact Him in the morning to be
spiritually revived for the day. The easiest way I’ve found to do this
when I’m still struggling with just being awake is to open my mouth to
sing to Him.
What Isaiah 12 talks about is really true. When I sing to the Lord at the
very beginning of my day, I draw from the wells of salvation and take a
good, refreshing drink of the living water. I’m revived and strengthened
to live in my spirit throughout the rest of the day.
Singing and psalming to the Lord anytime, anywhere
While I love to sing to the Lord in the mornings, I’m so glad I can turn my
heart to the Lord by singing to Him at any time. I’ve found that singing
to the Lord during the day helps me maintain the flow of the divine
life within. In various circumstances throughout the day, I might begin
to feel dry, down, or empty. When that happens, though, I often just
sing to the Lord to touch Him in a fresh way. I can testify that the
Lord has been so real to me at those times.
One particular place I like to sing is in my car. Sometimes instead of
turning on the radio, I take the time to sing some songs or hymns to the
Lord. These are such sweet, personal times with the Lord, and every
time I get refreshed and revived. Sometimes the Lord also leads me to
call on Him or to pray. I might end up praying for someone I know, or I
might confess something I sense the Lord is speaking to me about.
Instead of wasting the time in my car, I’m enlivened when I take
advantage of the privacy to turn my heart back to the Lord.
Try it and see
The psalmists knew firsthand how enjoyable it is to sing to the Lord, as we can see in Psalms 104:33:
“I will sing to Jehovah while I live; I will sing psalms to my God while I yet have being.”
If you haven’t experienced singing to the Lord this way, I hope you’ll
give it a try! While it’s wonderful to sing psalms and hymns in groups
with other believers, it’s also so personal, sweet, and refreshing to
sing to the Lord with your spirit at other times during your day. Once
you experience how sweet it is to touch the Lord by singing to Him,
you’ll find yourself doing it more and more. May we all sing to Jehovah
while we live, and sing psalms to Him while we still have breath!
For more on the benefits of singing to the Lord, you can read this post on 5 Marvelous Benefits of Singing to the Lord in Our Daily Life.
We’d love to hear about your experience of singing to the Lord. If this is
something you personally enjoy, please leave a comment to share your
experience and to encourage anyone who’s thinking about trying it for
God what a wonderful article you have sent for me to read.
Father God I thank you for your marvels. Shall we continue to praise you in song and worship, for you ar worthy. God I thank you for all that you do. I am not worthy of your kindness for I sin daily. I rebuke my sins and repent. I am grateful to sing your praises for all that you do for me.