Do you Love me?


John 21:15-17 ESV –
15 When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to
Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” He
said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” He said to him,
“Feed my lambs.
16 He said to him a second time, “Simon, son of
John, do you love me?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love
you.” He said to him, “Tend my sheep.
“Do you love me?”

I read this scripture with a narrative, and I began to question it. Not the content but my love, my love for my savior.
The Scriptures here shows that Jesus asked Peter a few times if he loved him.
So I did some digging.

Honestly my first reaction reading this was wow; here is Jesus telling he will be the one , the chosen one to lead his ministry. He will shepherd, us his sheep.

See http://www.gotquestions.org/Jesus-Peter-do-you-love-me.html

There is a narrative here describing when Jesus asked the questions and explains why. (See link above)

Here is the condensed “spark/ Cliff notes” version. (I think I just dated myself with that spark/ Cliff notes comment).
Jesus was eating after his resurrection with his disciples.
He wanted to encourage Peter about his responsibilities for the establishing the church.

He even prophesied how Peter would die.
So he asked 3 times. “Do you love me?”.
The whole notion of this was that it was important for Peter’s love to be declared, He wanted his obedience, which was necessary for the future of his ministry.
He asked him 3 times. The same amount of times Peter Publicly denied him when he was going to be crucified.

Jesus questioned Peter about his love, each time Peter answered he did love him.
So why ask about feeding the sheep?
What did Jesus mean by that?
Jesus was a shepherd, he was our shepherd as well.
The sheep he is referring to is us, the followers the believers of Christ.
So there Jesus gave Peter the authority to Lead his Church.

Peter was Chosen.
Peter was called to lead this ministry.
He was to be a shepherded of the those whom follow in the way of Christ.
Regardless of the reason why Jesus asked the question three times, we know that Jesus was letting him know that his new role would be important .

Think of it this way. When we are learning a new job position, a new trade, a new Assignment a new responsibility in life. It takes repetitive steps and guidance to get the gist of the task before you.
So as the narrator states “When someone repeats instructions to us over and over, we quickly understand that it’s extremely important for us to heed them.
Jesus wanted to make sure Peter understood this vital charge He was tasking him with and the ultimate reason for it, to follow Him and glorify God (John 21:19).”
After doing my “digging” and reading the entire narrative from the author. A lot of things made sense.

Remember nothing is done without a reason.
There is no such thing as coincidence.
This was all in his timing for his reason.
His will, will be done.
All in God’s timing.
EVERYTHING HAS A PURPOSE.
EVERYONE HAS A PURPOSE FOR GOD.

Father God I thank you for another day, another moment to study and grow and learn about you. Thank you for this narrative. Thank you for the love you have giving me. thank you for your compassion. Thank you for entrusting peter to lead your ministry and tend to your flock of sheep. Father I would be lost without you. I love you with all my might. I am grateful for the opportunity to have salvation because of the sacrifice you did for me. AMEN

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Discussion on Inadequacy with a 5 year old

Image result for inspirational  images to be qualifiedToday’s morning devotion ended with a nice dialogue with my 5 year old.The name of the devotion “INADEQUACY AS A BLESSING”.

The reading started with the following scripture:  2 Corinthians 3:-6 | NIV

Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, like some people, letters of recommendation to you or from you? 2 You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everyone. 3 You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.4 Such confidence we have through Christ before God. 5 Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. 6 He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
The devotion in essence continued on explaining how the holy spirits for us even when we are feeling inadequate with our capabilities. Several biblical figures were named. (Paul, the disciples, Moses, David, And Gideon). We are reminded how these men despite at first not being able became able due to the Holy Spirit to proceed with God’s will. We tend to be our own road blocks.
First quest that arose was, “Mom, what is inadequacy?”

When I began explaining, I realized God had prepared our bible study for me to be able to answer my son’s questions. The devotion, the subject, the biblical figures and even the question which arose was discussed last night.
I told my son feeling inadequate is when God tells us to do something, and we get scared (fear), we think and tell ourselves we can’t do it (doubt), we see all our failures and question God how am I able to do this task?

My son responded, “oh, so it’s just us telling ourselves we can’t do it, but God says we can?”
My response: yes my dear.
Next question from my son: how does that power to make us not inadequate for the task?
I told him, by opening your heart, ears and mind, doing so we will be able to hear God, let the Holy Spirit in and follow his will.
His next question: do I have to cut my heart open to have it open for him?

No darling, you need to want it, need to be open minded, cast away doubt, not be scared, and when you start feeling that tinkle, your goosebumps set in, that fire from within, you will know.
A year ago my son sang a song at a children’s service. He sang a medley of songs, one of my child hood favorites. At the end of his song, he tells me mom, I felt something stir, is that the feeling you get when God hugs you?

I told him yes.
My son asked how did these people (Paul, the disciples, Moses, David, And Gideon)mentioned became able to do Gods will.
I reiterated what the devotion stated “…. our inadequacy enables God to demonstrate the great things He can do with so little….”

“….Remember that Moses and David were mere shepherds, and Gideon was least among Israel’s men….yet the Lord accomplished amazing feats through them.”
“Our inadequacy can turn out to be a blessing by driving us into a stronger relationship with God. We can say with Paul, “I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me” (2 Cor. 12:9).”
The disciples were specifically instructed wait until you receive the Holy Spirit, then you will travel all over and speak of my will.
Acts 1:4-8 | NIV

On one occasion, while he was eating with them, he gave them this command: “Do not leave Jerusalem, but wait for the gift my Father promised, which you have heard me speak about. 5 For John baptized with[A] water, but in a few days you will be baptized with[B] the Holy Spirit.”6 Then they gathered around him and asked him, “Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?”7 He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. 8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
This devotion from In touch ministries hit not only a discussion that took place last night, but a blog post I wrote about a few months back describing how God qualifies the unqualified. Many, and I mean many men and women throughout the Bible were deemed unqualified or inadequate. The God qualified them, the Holy Spirit manifested and made them adequate.
Such an amazing God we serve. To give us knowledge on things we know nothing of. To be able to lead the way, prepare our journey, to drop bread crumbs for us to find our way.
What a way to restore ones faith, giving me the power to realize with you before, I have nothing to loose, when I’m weak, you make me strong, where I lack, you will provide.

Father I thank you today for preparing me for this dialogue with my son. For dropping the bread crumbs I needed to explain to him that despite our doubt, fears and reservations, when you call on us to do something, only when we open up, not submit to these doubts, that all the inadequacies we once had, will be gone. Thank you for always instilling in my son that he can do all things in Christ. There is no can’t, we can, we must be willing and able.

Today I ask that you help me with my daily inadequacies so that I can be closer with you and do your will.

I pray for the person reading this. We are not perfect, we are human, but know, yes you reading this, release yourself form those doubts, fears and reservations. Open your eyes, ears, heart and mind to God. He will provide and make you adequate for the task at hand.

Amen.

Prestigious yet no prestige

Prestigious yet no prestige
I work for a prestigious organization which shall remain nameless. This organization is well known. This organization has great aspects to it. This organization I always aspired to some day join. There were expectations as an organization that have yet to be fulfilled. When I got hired there …. at first it was everything I had ever imagined it to be then….
The grass is not always greener on the other side.
Lies… lies…reneged promises. They dangle that carrot then they yank it away….. such a tease.
This organizations leadership needs guidance. They need prayers, they need education and understanding. Quick to find someone to blame in situations, quick not to investigate and research, quick to cross that ethical line of need be.
As an establishment I like the place. As an employee I’m starting to feel it’s time to go. My conscience, my moral beliefs and ethics are always on the line. My family are always up for discussion. I should not have to choose from being a good employee and being a good mom.
My right to privacy should be respected. Confidentiality had been breeched more than once. Loyalty is a myth. Bosses who defend their staff is a legend of days pasts.
I’ve been reflecting on whether to move on for quiet some time. To get back to my grassroots initiatives despite the drop in pay. To do something more meaningful to me. What I do at my “prestigious” organization is meaningful to the lives affected, the lives I help. However, I need something more rooted with a cause that aligns my heart where I can feel pure joy, despite the stress in what I do.
I once loved my job, I currently just tolerate it, passing time, waiting for when God says now is the time to go.
We as people buy into the hype of the name thinking due to its reputation it has to be worthwhile. Turns out it’s a big disappointment. My colleagues have similar feelings.
Why don’t you just leave?
Can we?
In this economy that we are living in?
A single income household cannot suffice with the demands of time for a family of 4.
Benefits, healthcare is what one needs to think about when you have children. Protect ones family and have their best interest.
Finding employment when the competition pool just keeps increasing. It’s hard finding work. You can apply, apply, apply and apply but that doesn’t guarantee a call from a prospective employee. This modern world is so digitized.
We have to teach our children the importance of networking so that they can increase their prospects of future employment. We have to teach our kids to do their best to ensure their resume and cover letters are superb, so that they can increase their chances of a call back, to be knowledgeable, personable and straight to the point during interviews so the interviewee can remember them among the candidate pool. We have to talk about our experiences so they can learn from them.
Oh this prestigious organization. Look where you left me.

Reflecting.

Left me hopeless in ever believing that you were better.

Left me anxious to leave, no jet at the end of my shift.

This is like a pending bad break up from a relationship you had hoped and aspirations.

I once loved you.

Now I long to be free from your bondage.
Your name is prestigious, but there’s no prestige in working for you.
I no longer want to be in a relationship with you, counting on the days to be free from your oppression.