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A New Day

Peter said to them, “Repent, and be baptized, everyone of you, in the
name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins, and you will receive
the gift of the Holy Spirit.
 Acts 2:38
I grew up going to church.
I knew growing up what paths I needed to take that would lead me to the waters and receive the Holy Spirits’ blessing.
It was almost as if it was second nature.
We go to church, we study the Bible, at age 12 we get baptized.
I have been baptized now for about 22 years. (shoot my age was given away).
There are points in my life where I have honestly felt I should be re-baptized for the sins I committed. That Old life that I no longer have where I constantly did things I knew I shouldn’t have are long gone. I repented for those actions.
I am grateful that my upbringings did bring me to where I am today.
Despite going off course, despite battling depression, battling illness, battling my greatest fears I knew that the solution would come as soon as I got back down on my knees, asked for forgiveness and repented. I knew my life would change the moment I put Christ back in my life.
The Holy Spirit manifests in us in several different ways. I know because after baptism the Spirit flowed and the blessings came.
As i got older and strayed away, so did my blessings.
I knew God knew that i still believed in him, I just didn’t practice.
I stopped praying, but still relied heavily on God.
He has gotten me out of so many obstacles that it was hard to ignore that he still had my back even though I was angry, I was hurt, I felt cursed, I was ungrateful really.
I went through what I went through to learn from it.
I went through what I went through to rekindle my relationship.
I went through what i went through to be able to talk about it.
I written about this before; but my children, according to science I wasn’t’ supposed to have them.
God said, I am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end I will decide what my child will have.
So said, so done, both my pregnancies were prophetic to me, both of them were also revealed to me while I was pregnant (and unknowingly pregnant) by reading the Bible.
God Is good.
I repented.
I wish I could re-baptize but I know I have been forgiven and have received the blessings of the Holy spirit.
Another thing that has changed in my life is my husband. (no I am still married to the same man, or am I?).
My husband recently baptized.
My husband has grown spiritually.
My husband is a man I am proud to call my own.
His selfless heart.
His giving nature.
His gentle kindness.
His reasoning to finally joining me to church.
His personal decision on baptism.
I am proud of him.
He is not the same man I met 14 years ago.
He is though a better man, because we can now grow together as husband and wife and in our spiritual journey as God had intended it to be.
We are both different.
My faith is not the same as it was when I met him .
We are not the same as we were yesterday.
Today is a new day, and God allowed this new day to come to pass.
Today is a new day and the Holy Spirit guides our every move.
We have been baptized in water, Baptized in Spirit and have repented for our sins.
God is in control.
Father God I thank you for another day. I thank you for this opportunity to live my life in your walk. I thank you for your forgiveness, for your mercy, for your love and your blessings. Thank you for your sustenance and your guidance. Thank you. I want to continue each day as a new clean slate to do your marvels. I ask that you continue to guide me, to continue to show love and compassion. Dear Lord I love you and will continue to give you praise and glorify your name. Thank you for today, for today I am a different person that I was yesterday. Amen

When God is silent 

When God is silent.
What does one do when we make a plea to God and he is silent?
Psalm 83:1

O God, do not remain quiet; Do not be silent and, O God, do not be still.
Do you fret and wonder if he is answering your prayer? Does doubt set in? Nerves? Do you Trust in your creator?
There are times that the reason we can’t hear isn’t because he is silent, but because we are not paying attention. some times he does answer the prayers. He is just silent.
So what are you going to do about it?

You want to hear your creator? Feel his presence? Know he is with you? Be able to get direction and solace in the midst of the silence.
Take a step back.

Take a look at your reflection.

Stare at the man and / or woman in the mirror.

Could you see your imperfections the way your creator can?

No.

We can try, first thing focus.

Recenter your priority.

Recenter your focus.

Recenter yourself with him in the center of your universe.

Have you confessed your sin to your creator?
Psalm 66:18 says, “If I had not confessed the sin in my heart, my Lord would not have listened” (New Living Translation).
We need to dig deep, no deeper in oneself.

Ask yourself:

Is my plea wrong? Is it favorable to you?

Is there something I did wrong?

Something I need to do?

(Yes sometimes we have to do a little work).

Are my motives pure?

Have I shown my love and faithfulness to my creator?

Our God is a jealous God, did I proclaim love for someone else more than God?

Should I repent?

Isn’t it wrong?

It’s ok let’s repent.

Accept that sometimes his silence can lead to the answer you are looking for…. or the answer he would rather give you.

Pray.

Praise him.

Submit.

Be patient.

Be silent.

Listen.
Silence can be a sign of intimacy and trust. He gave you the answer without saying so. Trusting in you, for the faith you have in him. Already providing the remedy before you even realized it, because you were sulking in not being able to hear him or get a direct answer.
Odd?

No of course not.

Ever had such an intimate bond with someone that just by looking at each other, you knew what the other was thinking.

A mere glance….silent in the same room yet being able to grasp a whole conversation. To be on the same wave length with another being.

Understanding every thought in that persons head without uttering a single word.

This is how our relationship with God ought to be. In the midst of the silence to be able to say thank you lord – I got the message.

I will heed your silent response. For in the midst of that silence more was done than you could ever realize.
Father I ask you today, in the midst of the silence, help me become more intimate with you. Help me become one with you. Help me understand my purpose in your plan in the midst of the silence. Help me hear you, in the midst of the silence. Help me connect with you, be on the same wave length as you. To be able to be in a silent room and know exactly what you have intended me to do. Amen