Prove Me Wrong

The 5th devotional in Mandisa’s series is called Prove Me Wrong.

Scripture:

“The apostles did not stop teaching the people. They continued to tell the Good News—that Jesus is the Messiah. They did this every day in the Temple area and in people’s homes.” Acts 5:42 ERV

 

“How long will you forget me, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you refuse to accept me? How long must I wonder if you have forgotten me? How long must I feel this sadness in my heart? How long will my enemy win against me? Lord my God, look at me and give me an answer. Make me feel strong again, or I will die. If that happens, my enemy will say, “I beat him!” He will be so happy that he won. But I trust in your faithful love, Lord. I will be happy when you save me. Then I will sing to the Lord because he was so good to me.” Psalms 13:1-6 ERV

 

“Lord, don’t criticize me when you are angry. Don’t discipline me in anger. You have hurt me. You punished me and hurt me deeply. You punished me severely, so my whole body is sore. I sinned, and now all my bones hurt. My guilt is like a heavy burden. I am sinking beneath its weight. I did a foolish thing, and now I have infected sores that stink. I am bent and bowed down. I am depressed all day long. I am burning with fever, and my whole body hurts. I hurt so much I cannot feel anything. My pounding heart makes me scream! My Lord, you heard my groaning. You can hear my sighs. My heart is pounding. My strength is gone, and I am going blind. Because of my sickness, my friends and neighbors will not visit me; my family will not come near me. My enemies say bad things about me. They are spreading lies and rumors. They talk about me all the time. But I am like a deaf man and cannot hear. I am like someone who cannot speak. I am like those who cannot hear what people are saying about them. I cannot answer to prove my enemies wrong. Lord, you must defend me. Lord my God, you must speak for me. That’s why I prayed, “Don’t let my enemies smile at my pain. Full of pride, they will laugh if I stumble and fall.” I know I am guilty of doing wrong. I cannot forget my pain. Lord, I told you about the evil I have done. I am sorry for my sin. But my enemies are alive and healthy, and they have told many lies. I did nothing but good, and they paid me back with evil. I try to do what is right, but that only makes them turn against me. Lord, don’t leave me. My God, stay close to me. Come quickly and help me. My Lord, you are the one who saves me.” Psalms 38:1-22 ERV

 

Prove Me Wrong

Devotional by Mandisa

“..for the LORD has sought out a man after his own heart. The LORD has already appointed him to be the leader of his people…” 1 Samuel 13:14b NLT

Do you ever wonder what made David “a man after God’s own heart”? I realize that Jesus is only one perfect Man who ever walked the earth, but come on! David? The same man who used his authority to have an affair on a woman, got her pregnant, and then had her husband (who was fighting in his army) murdered? That David was the one God says was a man after His own heart?

Admittedly, while I can think of many things that would cause God to bestow this incredibly honoring title on David, I suspect that one of those reasons is that David walked in close relationship with God. I believe that the best relationships are those of complete honesty and common sharing of feelings. If David did nothing else, he was certainly honest with God.

After watching my friend Lakisha die, my hope was deferred, my heart was sick, and I was anything but honest with my feelings toward God. I shut down and ignored Him. I can learn a lot from David. Maybe you can too.

1 Be honest with emotions—David was regularly grumbling to the Lord about things he felt God and other people did to him. I’m not suggesting we make a habit of complaining, but if we’re going to do it, it seems to me that it is better to voice it to God than anyone else.

2 Be quick to repent—David made a lot of mistakes in his life, but when he was confronted with it, he was very quick to admit his wrong, repent, and receive God’s forgiveness without wallowing in shame.

3 Be joyful in praise—David was a worshipper! It seems that he was always dancing, singing, and loudly proclaiming the goodness of God. I imagine that he’ll be a blast to hang out with in heaven!

I was still very much in the dark when I wrote “Prove Me Wrong,” a song that expresses my heartbreak at Kisha’s passing. Interestingly, months later, when I was out of the dark and listened again, I felt as if the Holy Spirit whispered to my heart, “Mandisa, you challenged me to prove you wrong. I just did.” I can’t help but wonder if finally bringing my broken heart to God allowed Him to heal it and usher in the grace He longed for me to have. I think David was onto something!

Do you carry any anger, resentment, or disappointment towards God? I encourage you to take some time as you read these scriptures to honestly express your heart to Him. He can handle it. He might even delight in it and see those who do it as men and women after His own heart.

 

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I wanted to add this:

 

 

Psalm 51 New King James Version (NKJV)

A Prayer of Repentance

To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David when Nathan the prophet went to him, after he had gone in to Bathsheba.

51 Have mercy upon me, O God,
According to Your lovingkindness;
According to the multitude of Your tender mercies,
Blot out my transgressions.
Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
And cleanse me from my sin.

For I acknowledge my transgressions,
And my sin is always before me.
Against You, You only, have I sinned,
And done this evil in Your sight—
That You may be found just [a]when You speak,
And blameless when You judge.

Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity,
And in sin my mother conceived me.
Behold, You desire truth in the inward parts,
And in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom.

Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
Make me hear joy and gladness,
That the bones You have broken may rejoice.
Hide Your face from my sins,
And blot out all my iniquities.

10 Create in me a clean heart, O God,
And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me away from Your presence,
And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore to me the joy of Your salvation,
And uphold me by Your generous Spirit.
13 Then I will teach transgressors Your ways,
And sinners shall be converted to You.

14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
The God of my salvation,
And my tongue shall sing aloud of Your righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
And my mouth shall show forth Your praise.
16 For You do not desire sacrifice, or else I would give it;
You do not delight in burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.

18 Do good in Your good pleasure to Zion;
Build the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then You shall be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness,
With burnt offering and whole burnt offering;
Then they shall offer bulls on Your altar.

Meditate on Davids words, just as he asked God to be forgiven of his transgressions, we should as well.
Now repeat:
Lord I repent of all the sins in my life. I repent of the sins that I know that I have committed, I repent of the sins that I don’t know of.  If there is any sin that I don’t know of, that I am unaware of, dear lord please bring it to my mind that I may repent of that sin as well.  Please forgive me Oh Lord of any pride, rebellion, vanity, jealousy, judging, distrust, prejudice, dishonesty, theft, greed, spiritual adultery or fornication, or any spiritual murder.In the name of the Father, Son, & Holy Spirit Amen.

 

Here is the Salvation Poem from the show Superbook which I watch with my kids to help them learn certain themes in the Bible:

The Salvation Poem
©
Jesus, You died upon a cross
And rose again to save the lost
Forgive me now of all my sin
Come be my Savior, Lord, and Friend
Change my life and make it new
And help me, Lord, to live for You
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A New Day

Peter said to them, “Repent, and be baptized, everyone of you, in the
name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins, and you will receive
the gift of the Holy Spirit.
 Acts 2:38
I grew up going to church.
I knew growing up what paths I needed to take that would lead me to the waters and receive the Holy Spirits’ blessing.
It was almost as if it was second nature.
We go to church, we study the Bible, at age 12 we get baptized.
I have been baptized now for about 22 years. (shoot my age was given away).
There are points in my life where I have honestly felt I should be re-baptized for the sins I committed. That Old life that I no longer have where I constantly did things I knew I shouldn’t have are long gone. I repented for those actions.
I am grateful that my upbringings did bring me to where I am today.
Despite going off course, despite battling depression, battling illness, battling my greatest fears I knew that the solution would come as soon as I got back down on my knees, asked for forgiveness and repented. I knew my life would change the moment I put Christ back in my life.
The Holy Spirit manifests in us in several different ways. I know because after baptism the Spirit flowed and the blessings came.
As i got older and strayed away, so did my blessings.
I knew God knew that i still believed in him, I just didn’t practice.
I stopped praying, but still relied heavily on God.
He has gotten me out of so many obstacles that it was hard to ignore that he still had my back even though I was angry, I was hurt, I felt cursed, I was ungrateful really.
I went through what I went through to learn from it.
I went through what I went through to rekindle my relationship.
I went through what i went through to be able to talk about it.
I written about this before; but my children, according to science I wasn’t’ supposed to have them.
God said, I am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end I will decide what my child will have.
So said, so done, both my pregnancies were prophetic to me, both of them were also revealed to me while I was pregnant (and unknowingly pregnant) by reading the Bible.
God Is good.
I repented.
I wish I could re-baptize but I know I have been forgiven and have received the blessings of the Holy spirit.
Another thing that has changed in my life is my husband. (no I am still married to the same man, or am I?).
My husband recently baptized.
My husband has grown spiritually.
My husband is a man I am proud to call my own.
His selfless heart.
His giving nature.
His gentle kindness.
His reasoning to finally joining me to church.
His personal decision on baptism.
I am proud of him.
He is not the same man I met 14 years ago.
He is though a better man, because we can now grow together as husband and wife and in our spiritual journey as God had intended it to be.
We are both different.
My faith is not the same as it was when I met him .
We are not the same as we were yesterday.
Today is a new day, and God allowed this new day to come to pass.
Today is a new day and the Holy Spirit guides our every move.
We have been baptized in water, Baptized in Spirit and have repented for our sins.
God is in control.
Father God I thank you for another day. I thank you for this opportunity to live my life in your walk. I thank you for your forgiveness, for your mercy, for your love and your blessings. Thank you for your sustenance and your guidance. Thank you. I want to continue each day as a new clean slate to do your marvels. I ask that you continue to guide me, to continue to show love and compassion. Dear Lord I love you and will continue to give you praise and glorify your name. Thank you for today, for today I am a different person that I was yesterday. Amen

When God is silent 

When God is silent.
What does one do when we make a plea to God and he is silent?
Psalm 83:1

O God, do not remain quiet; Do not be silent and, O God, do not be still.
Do you fret and wonder if he is answering your prayer? Does doubt set in? Nerves? Do you Trust in your creator?
There are times that the reason we can’t hear isn’t because he is silent, but because we are not paying attention. some times he does answer the prayers. He is just silent.
So what are you going to do about it?

You want to hear your creator? Feel his presence? Know he is with you? Be able to get direction and solace in the midst of the silence.
Take a step back.

Take a look at your reflection.

Stare at the man and / or woman in the mirror.

Could you see your imperfections the way your creator can?

No.

We can try, first thing focus.

Recenter your priority.

Recenter your focus.

Recenter yourself with him in the center of your universe.

Have you confessed your sin to your creator?
Psalm 66:18 says, “If I had not confessed the sin in my heart, my Lord would not have listened” (New Living Translation).
We need to dig deep, no deeper in oneself.

Ask yourself:

Is my plea wrong? Is it favorable to you?

Is there something I did wrong?

Something I need to do?

(Yes sometimes we have to do a little work).

Are my motives pure?

Have I shown my love and faithfulness to my creator?

Our God is a jealous God, did I proclaim love for someone else more than God?

Should I repent?

Isn’t it wrong?

It’s ok let’s repent.

Accept that sometimes his silence can lead to the answer you are looking for…. or the answer he would rather give you.

Pray.

Praise him.

Submit.

Be patient.

Be silent.

Listen.
Silence can be a sign of intimacy and trust. He gave you the answer without saying so. Trusting in you, for the faith you have in him. Already providing the remedy before you even realized it, because you were sulking in not being able to hear him or get a direct answer.
Odd?

No of course not.

Ever had such an intimate bond with someone that just by looking at each other, you knew what the other was thinking.

A mere glance….silent in the same room yet being able to grasp a whole conversation. To be on the same wave length with another being.

Understanding every thought in that persons head without uttering a single word.

This is how our relationship with God ought to be. In the midst of the silence to be able to say thank you lord – I got the message.

I will heed your silent response. For in the midst of that silence more was done than you could ever realize.
Father I ask you today, in the midst of the silence, help me become more intimate with you. Help me become one with you. Help me understand my purpose in your plan in the midst of the silence. Help me hear you, in the midst of the silence. Help me connect with you, be on the same wave length as you. To be able to be in a silent room and know exactly what you have intended me to do. Amen