A New Day

Peter said to them, “Repent, and be baptized, everyone of you, in the
name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins, and you will receive
the gift of the Holy Spirit.
 Acts 2:38
I grew up going to church.
I knew growing up what paths I needed to take that would lead me to the waters and receive the Holy Spirits’ blessing.
It was almost as if it was second nature.
We go to church, we study the Bible, at age 12 we get baptized.
I have been baptized now for about 22 years. (shoot my age was given away).
There are points in my life where I have honestly felt I should be re-baptized for the sins I committed. That Old life that I no longer have where I constantly did things I knew I shouldn’t have are long gone. I repented for those actions.
I am grateful that my upbringings did bring me to where I am today.
Despite going off course, despite battling depression, battling illness, battling my greatest fears I knew that the solution would come as soon as I got back down on my knees, asked for forgiveness and repented. I knew my life would change the moment I put Christ back in my life.
The Holy Spirit manifests in us in several different ways. I know because after baptism the Spirit flowed and the blessings came.
As i got older and strayed away, so did my blessings.
I knew God knew that i still believed in him, I just didn’t practice.
I stopped praying, but still relied heavily on God.
He has gotten me out of so many obstacles that it was hard to ignore that he still had my back even though I was angry, I was hurt, I felt cursed, I was ungrateful really.
I went through what I went through to learn from it.
I went through what I went through to rekindle my relationship.
I went through what i went through to be able to talk about it.
I written about this before; but my children, according to science I wasn’t’ supposed to have them.
God said, I am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end I will decide what my child will have.
So said, so done, both my pregnancies were prophetic to me, both of them were also revealed to me while I was pregnant (and unknowingly pregnant) by reading the Bible.
God Is good.
I repented.
I wish I could re-baptize but I know I have been forgiven and have received the blessings of the Holy spirit.
Another thing that has changed in my life is my husband. (no I am still married to the same man, or am I?).
My husband recently baptized.
My husband has grown spiritually.
My husband is a man I am proud to call my own.
His selfless heart.
His giving nature.
His gentle kindness.
His reasoning to finally joining me to church.
His personal decision on baptism.
I am proud of him.
He is not the same man I met 14 years ago.
He is though a better man, because we can now grow together as husband and wife and in our spiritual journey as God had intended it to be.
We are both different.
My faith is not the same as it was when I met him .
We are not the same as we were yesterday.
Today is a new day, and God allowed this new day to come to pass.
Today is a new day and the Holy Spirit guides our every move.
We have been baptized in water, Baptized in Spirit and have repented for our sins.
God is in control.
Father God I thank you for another day. I thank you for this opportunity to live my life in your walk. I thank you for your forgiveness, for your mercy, for your love and your blessings. Thank you for your sustenance and your guidance. Thank you. I want to continue each day as a new clean slate to do your marvels. I ask that you continue to guide me, to continue to show love and compassion. Dear Lord I love you and will continue to give you praise and glorify your name. Thank you for today, for today I am a different person that I was yesterday. Amen
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Adulterous Woman

The Adulterous Woman
John 8:2-12
2And early in the morning he came again into the temple, and all the people came unto him; and he sat down, and taught them.
3And the scribes and the Pharisees bring a woman taken in adultery; and having set her in the midst,
4they say unto him, Teacher, this woman hath been taken in adultery, in the very act.
5Now in the law Moses commanded us to stone such: what then sayest thou of her?
6And this they said, trying him, that they might have whereof to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground.
7But when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.
8And again he stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground.
9And they, when they heard it, went out one by one, beginning from the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman, where she was, in the midst.
10And Jesus lifted up himself, and said unto her, Woman, where are they? did no man condemn thee?
11And she said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said, Neither do I condemn thee: go thy way; from henceforth sin no more.
12Again therefore Jesus spake unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in the darkness, but shall have the light of life.
There have been moments in my life where I felt I was in the same place as the Adulterous Woman. Center stage, with someone who can condemn me or pardon me, while my accusers stood around with stones in their hands. Wondering will my Judge allow my execution to happen, wondering how I will be sentenced. Wondering How will I ever come out of this.
Jesus taught forgiveness. He stated “He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone.” …. Dude…he just redeemed me. That would have been my first thought the moment I realized I was still alive.
My sins of my past have been forgiven.
Though I have felt shunned, and as if I were being judged just like this Adulterous woman was judged.
People are quick to Judge one another without authority to do so. People are quick to condemn others for their actions without looking at their own actions. People are quick to forget the essence of Christianity which is forgiveness.
I recently read a Novel that brought this Adulterous woman to life. In many sense of the word, I felt I am the Adulterous Woman. The Book I read I had no idea she was the adulterous woman that the bible briefly mentions until the scene unfolded. I cried so much. I related to the character of this book just as much as I relate to this biblical passage. Not that I am or was an adulteress, but that notion of being judged, condemned, pardoned and forgiven.
Father God I thank you for the path I took, for the lessons that came out of it and for the love and forgiveness you have provided me. I have at many times felt that I could relate to this Adulterous woman, for judgment comes so easy on those whom fail to realize their own sins and afflictions. I will not judge them, nor will I ever, for your loving forging grace has shown me not to. You will deal with all of us upon judgement day and we will all have to answer for our sins. I thank you for your continued support and guidance. I ask for strength so that I may not fall in to the habit of being judge knowing that feeling of being condemned. I thank you again for my salvation, love and for forgiving me of all my sins. Amen

Discussion on Inadequacy with a 5 year old

Image result for inspirational  images to be qualifiedToday’s morning devotion ended with a nice dialogue with my 5 year old.The name of the devotion “INADEQUACY AS A BLESSING”.

The reading started with the following scripture:  2 Corinthians 3:-6 | NIV

Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, like some people, letters of recommendation to you or from you? 2 You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everyone. 3 You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.4 Such confidence we have through Christ before God. 5 Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. 6 He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
The devotion in essence continued on explaining how the holy spirits for us even when we are feeling inadequate with our capabilities. Several biblical figures were named. (Paul, the disciples, Moses, David, And Gideon). We are reminded how these men despite at first not being able became able due to the Holy Spirit to proceed with God’s will. We tend to be our own road blocks.
First quest that arose was, “Mom, what is inadequacy?”

When I began explaining, I realized God had prepared our bible study for me to be able to answer my son’s questions. The devotion, the subject, the biblical figures and even the question which arose was discussed last night.
I told my son feeling inadequate is when God tells us to do something, and we get scared (fear), we think and tell ourselves we can’t do it (doubt), we see all our failures and question God how am I able to do this task?

My son responded, “oh, so it’s just us telling ourselves we can’t do it, but God says we can?”
My response: yes my dear.
Next question from my son: how does that power to make us not inadequate for the task?
I told him, by opening your heart, ears and mind, doing so we will be able to hear God, let the Holy Spirit in and follow his will.
His next question: do I have to cut my heart open to have it open for him?

No darling, you need to want it, need to be open minded, cast away doubt, not be scared, and when you start feeling that tinkle, your goosebumps set in, that fire from within, you will know.
A year ago my son sang a song at a children’s service. He sang a medley of songs, one of my child hood favorites. At the end of his song, he tells me mom, I felt something stir, is that the feeling you get when God hugs you?

I told him yes.
My son asked how did these people (Paul, the disciples, Moses, David, And Gideon)mentioned became able to do Gods will.
I reiterated what the devotion stated “…. our inadequacy enables God to demonstrate the great things He can do with so little….”

“….Remember that Moses and David were mere shepherds, and Gideon was least among Israel’s men….yet the Lord accomplished amazing feats through them.”
“Our inadequacy can turn out to be a blessing by driving us into a stronger relationship with God. We can say with Paul, “I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me” (2 Cor. 12:9).”
The disciples were specifically instructed wait until you receive the Holy Spirit, then you will travel all over and speak of my will.
Acts 1:4-8 | NIV

On one occasion, while he was eating with them, he gave them this command: “Do not leave Jerusalem, but wait for the gift my Father promised, which you have heard me speak about. 5 For John baptized with[A] water, but in a few days you will be baptized with[B] the Holy Spirit.”6 Then they gathered around him and asked him, “Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?”7 He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. 8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
This devotion from In touch ministries hit not only a discussion that took place last night, but a blog post I wrote about a few months back describing how God qualifies the unqualified. Many, and I mean many men and women throughout the Bible were deemed unqualified or inadequate. The God qualified them, the Holy Spirit manifested and made them adequate.
Such an amazing God we serve. To give us knowledge on things we know nothing of. To be able to lead the way, prepare our journey, to drop bread crumbs for us to find our way.
What a way to restore ones faith, giving me the power to realize with you before, I have nothing to loose, when I’m weak, you make me strong, where I lack, you will provide.

Father I thank you today for preparing me for this dialogue with my son. For dropping the bread crumbs I needed to explain to him that despite our doubt, fears and reservations, when you call on us to do something, only when we open up, not submit to these doubts, that all the inadequacies we once had, will be gone. Thank you for always instilling in my son that he can do all things in Christ. There is no can’t, we can, we must be willing and able.

Today I ask that you help me with my daily inadequacies so that I can be closer with you and do your will.

I pray for the person reading this. We are not perfect, we are human, but know, yes you reading this, release yourself form those doubts, fears and reservations. Open your eyes, ears, heart and mind to God. He will provide and make you adequate for the task at hand.

Amen.