Heal me

”There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.“. Proverbs 23:18 NIV

You can pray all you want for someone’s life, but they too need to ask for redemption and change. You can pray. But instead of praying for a change in them as for in change in you.

Today I am asking the lord to just change me. Fix me. Work in me. For I pray for his well being I feel I am at an impasse and I am done. I am not perfect. I am not holier than thou. I am flawed and imperfect just like everyone else. Do I need to be reminded of my flaws as if you are perfect? That’s what I want to tell him sometimes. But I bite my tongue and instead ask the lord for deliverance.

I am not in a healthy relationship. It has gotten worse as the years pass. So much has happened. So much swept under the rug because we pretend socially that all is good. Yet some know things are off because of our limited interactions. We can separate our feelings and coexist cohabitat and even work along side each other for the greater good. Yet in private and awkward silence and discomfort fills the room.

After doing research and hearing stories of others I realize more and more the situation I am in is unhealthy and even under the lines of DV.

Intimate partner violence can occur in many different forms. To give credit where credit is due I will cite as I write,Some of the information below is from :https://www.womenagainstabuse.org/education-resources/learn-about-abuse/types-of-domestic-violence

Types of abuse from women against abuse website

The most common of abuse is physical:

• Hitting, slapping, punching, kicking

• Burning

• Strangulation

• Damaging personal property

• Refusing medical care and/or controlling medication

• Coercing partner into substance abuse

• Use of weapons

Emotional abuse occurs when an intimate partner seeks to control his/her loved one by:

• Name calling, insulting

• Blaming the partner for everything

• Extreme jealousy

• Intimidation

• Shaming, humiliating

• Isolation

• Controlling what the partner does and where the partner goes

• Stalking

Sexual abuse is not about sex. It is about power, and includes any sexual behavior performed without a partner’s consent. Examples include:

• Forcing a partner to have sex with other people (human trafficking)

• Pursuing sexual activity when the victim is not fully conscious or is afraid to say no

• Hurting partner physically during sex

• Coercing partner to have sex without protection / sabotaging birth control

TECHNOLOGICAL ABUSE

This form of abuse includes the use of technology to control and stalk a partner. Technological abuse can happen to people of all ages, but it is more common among teenagers who use technology and social media in interact in a manner often unmonitored by adults. Examples include:

• Hacking into a partner’s email and personal accounts

• Using tracking devices in a partner’s cell phone to monitor their location, phone calls and messages

• Monitoring interactions via social media

• Demanding to know partner’s passwords

Click here to learn how to protect yourself from technological abuse (provided by the National Network to End Domestic Violence).

FINANCIAL ABUSE

Any behavior that maintains power and control over finances constitutes financial abuse. Examples include causing a partner to lose their job through direct and indirect means, such as:

• Inflicting physical harm or injury that would prevent the person from attending work

• Harassing partner at their workplace

• Controlling financial assets and effectively putting partner on an allowance

• Damaging a partner’s credit score

ABUSE BY IMMIGRATION STATUS

There are specific tactics of abuse that may be used against immigrant partners, including:

• Destroying immigration papers

• Restricting partner from learning English

• Threatening to hurt partner’s family in their home country

• Threatening to have partner deported

It is important to remember that in the U.S. undocumented immigrants have rights and protections, and that in the case of an emergency, contacting the police should be a priority.

Now why did I list these various forms of abuse? I have experienced and also partaken in some of these. It’s the case of when the abused becomes the abuser and the abused again.

I am guilty of snooping in my spouses email and phone in the past. (Tech abuse) I am guilty of it and have even asked for forgiveness for it. (For snooping) yet in my snooping I discovered betrayal, infidelity and lies.

I discovered sexting between my husband and SEVERAl women throughout the years and even currently. I have discovered his omissions of whereabouts and even lying about where he gets certain things so “I don’t get mad”. He has lied about certain relationships and friendships. Then blames me for all he does.

It’s my fault he strayed

It’s my fault he is addicted to pornography.

It’s my fault he sends and receives sexual content from several women on a daily basis.

It is my fault he is in Reddit daily reading adult content and watching adult content.

It’s my fault he has a subscription to only fans

It’s my fault he lies to me.

It’s my fault he raped me while I slept, stating I while I was asleep sent mixed signals so he helped himself.

On a few other occasions he relieved himself while I was asleep he knew I was asleep, I realized what was going on and pretended to sleep and when he finished had the nerve to say oh I guess she didn’t enjoy it since she still asleep. Then when I questioned him he lied to me.

It is my fault he disrespected my sisters house and relieved himself using her undergarments in her place while she was not there.

It is my fault our marriage is falling apart because of lack of communication.

It’s my fault he goes through moments where he don’t speak to me and then act like nothing and when I don’t feel like communicating it’s me it’s always me.

I am insecure.

I am untrustworthy

I am unlovable.

I am intolerable.

I am lazy

I am uncaring.

No I don’t want to have sex with my husband. He has defiled our marriage in multiple occasions even as I write this today.

When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.

Maya Angelou

I saw signs early on about who he was but I was so smitten I ignored all the signs.

First thing he did was alienate me from all my friends and all my family. It was to the point where I literally had no one and was surrounded by his circle.

Second thing he did was move me away from everyone. I am on a good day a half hour away but via public transportation and

hour to an hour and a half.

The first time he was unfaithful I had a feeling. I snooped. I was accused of being controlling, manipulating, invading his privacy, jealous and worst of all I had to apologize. 4 physical and emotional relationships later and thousands of sexual online encounters and exchanges later, and thousands of dollars spent on adult content later, I am still at fault.

He recently rekindled a relationship with one of the women who destroyed our marriage and I’m supposed to be ok with that

He claims to have ended it but I honestly don’t believe him.

In our marriage he never chose me.

He chose himself, his needs and anyone else not me.

His mom never liked me, she would try to argue with me and I would sit silent not to disrespect her. She would go off on him and tell him I am rude and he would fight with me about it.

One night he had an episode when he was sick and I called the ambulance to get him help, a neighbor came and intervened and did what the paramadics advised not to do….to this day she claims she did not enter the car after advised not to. He believes her. I made an ultimatum her or me. He chose her. Why I say he chose her, every week she cooks for him, every week she calls him to do things for her. Every week she calls and texts him and he answers.

I’ve asked porn or me.

Porn wins

His cigarettes or me….. his cigarettes won until he got sick and because he got sick he gave them up.

I always chose him.

I’ve had 4 operations none he stood by side.

He dropped me off and picked me up.

One time I had surgery…. I was admitted for having complications, granted my surgery happened around the time he was planning his friends funeral….but his living wife was having complications. He chose to still go to the funeral while I was in the hospital having complications.

He has abandoned me as a spouse on so many fronts but it’s always my fault.

I read the following passage:

”Rescue me, Lord, from evildoers; protect me from the violent, who devise evil plans in their hearts and stir up war every day. They make their tongues as sharp as a serpent’s; the poison of vipers is on their lips. Keep me safe, Lord, from the hands of the wicked; protect me from the violent, who devise ways to trip my feet. The arrogant have hidden a snare for me; they have spread out the cords of their net and have set traps for me along my path. I say to the Lord, “You are my God.” Hear, Lord, my cry for mercy. Sovereign Lord, my strong deliverer, you shield my head in the day of battle. Do not grant the wicked their desires, Lord; do not let their plans succeed. Those who surround me proudly rear their heads; may the mischief of their lips engulf them. May burning coals fall on them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. May slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down the violent. I know that the Lord secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. Surely the righteous will praise your name, and the upright will live in your presence.“

Psalms 140:1-13 NIV

So I pray lord you are my God, help me, heal me, hear my cries, I cannot take the hot and cold flashes and the disrespect from my spouse. Fix me. Heal me lord.

I also read;

”Help me, Lord my God; save me according to your unfailing love. Let them know that it is your hand, that you, Lord, have done it. While they curse, may you bless; may those who attack me be put to shame, but may your servant rejoice. May my accusers be clothed with disgrace and wrapped in shame as in a cloak. With my mouth I will greatly extol the Lord; in the great throng of worshipers I will praise him. For he stands at the right hand of the needy, to save their lives from those who would condemn them.“

Psalms 109:26-31 NIV

I used to think that abusers were those scary-looking people in prison mug shots whose cold, blank stares send a chill down your spine.

The man I met was kind. He was empathetic. He knew family meant all to me. He isn’t the man I married or the man next to me in my bed today.

The thought that he would manipulate me the way he does was inconceivable to me. No way, not me. Not him. Not us. 

What I didn’t realize is that my experience is textbook in many ways.

I minimized the verbal, emotional assaults, calling them everything and anything but abuse.

I was not a victim, and he was not an abuser. Not I, for I have a strong personality and character how could I let myself get into this?

I believed I could love him into wellness. But until you call it what it is, you’re going to call it what it’s not. I did just that

If you’re anything remotely like me, you may be doing the same thing, saying things like, “We have a communication problem,” “We need to learn how to resolve conflict better,” or “We’re just going through a stressful time.” These are just a few of the erroneous phrases I used to minimize the abuse I was enduring—and ones I commonly hear when learning about others whom have experienced abuse from their intimate partners.

I don’t intend to advise you on whether or not to remain in your relationship. You alone can decide that. I myself am still married legally to my abuser. I am trying to navigate my next steps. Asking God to guide me and lead me.

I do want to share with you that you can heal—and not just heal but heal well. I hope to fully heal, I have faith that I can heal and not just heal but fully heal well.

Healing well is the precursor to living free. As a woman of deep faith, I believe we were created for freedom.

Abuse in marriage is the kryptonite to freedom.

Abuse, regardless of how it manifests itself, will destroy the trust and, in the end, can destroy the relationship.

Mine is destroyed beyond my own comprehension.

More importantly, it can destroy you, and you matter.

This double life we live, this dynamic duo in front of others yet behind closed doors…. A whole other story. As I said he was kind. He is kind. He’s helpful and hands on, I am just thankful he has yet lay hands on me other than to have his way.

There is life after abuse. I have heard testimonies of women striving after abuse. I aspire to one, when I get the courage and strength I need to get up and do. In the meantime I place it all at the feet of Jesus. I open my eyes and realized so much recently. I will try to seek help before it’s too late.

I did recently rekindle a friendship from my childhood. That friendship evolved to something more. The friend is of the opposite sex. He has been my confidant my shoulder to cry on my escape and he has become my everything to keep me sane for my kids sake. My husband knows I told him. He even suggested we have an open marriage so he can continue doing what he’s doing guilt free and allow me to move onward if I chose to with my new confidant. A way I look at it to shift the blame on me for our failed marriage for my emotional affair. My first emotional affair in 20 years I have been with my spouse. I don’t have many friends any more. I was forced to alienate myself from everyone. Now that I have decided not to do that it’s an issue. I still keep people at an arms length because of my spouse I have trust issues with absolutely everyone …. Even my confidant. I’ll confide but so much. But he too experienced betrayals and infidelity. So we lean on our shared pain. I didn’t hide my friendship. At first I sort of did, but then admitted it because why hide it, I am not like my husband. I will not hide my friendships or relationships or my whereabouts.

I am in a lot of pain. I have a lot going on in my life. My youngest has some health issues that I seem to be the only one that cares about. My mother is going through some health issues that he doesn’t even bother to inquire about. My special needs adult sister relies on me guiding her. The same sister he disrespected by the way. He is none the wiser of the amount of stress I have in my plate and that’s not even including my own health issues and my battling of depression. I realized I expected a husband who would to quote greys anatomy would “pick me, love me, choose me.” And in the same disappointment of the protagonist I was not picked nor will I ever be.

So I have to make some decisions but I need the guidance of God.

So do you.

Somethings to think about:

Do you believe it’s possible for you to heal well from the pain you have experienced in your relationship? Why or why not?

I believe it’s possible and I will one day heal.

Do you believe you are worthy of finding healing? Why or why not?

I believe I am a child of God and he deems me worthy of healing.

Begin writing your story. You might include details about how you met, what attracted you to him, when your relationship changed or had warning signs, or times when you realized he was abusive.

How has The Secret hurt you? If you have children, how has it hurt them, too?

This secret hurts me so much, it affects my children, ever so often they ask me if we will divorce and how they do not want this. So for now while they are young I stay in this pattern of abuse because I don’t know how to get out of it

How has living in an abusive relationship affected your other relationships?

I still keep people at arms length and have RBF because I keep people away and push them away not to let anyone in.

Who could you tell your secret to?

My beloved friend and he only knows half of it. But My God knows the full story though I pray I don’t always pray about my story I know God knows but I also know he wants me to tell him, so now realizing it, I even keep God in a distance with certain things when I should be inviting him in more to fix this with me, for me.

”There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.“

Proverbs 23:18 NIV

Father God I love you! I thank you for everything. LORD you know my story you know my pain you know my struggles you know the battles I am facing. Though I present to you always the ones that pertain to others first I rarely ask you for mine.

I still ask you for your guidance and healing for my mom, I still ask you for guidance and healing for my sister. I still ask for guidance and healing for my sons. Today I need you to intercede and guide me and heal me. I want to be happy. I want to feel loved and appreciated. I want to be chosen and not some after thought. I want to be someone’s number two after you. I want to be loved. I want to be respected. I don’t want to be manipulated any more. I don’t want to be scared. I want to be able to trust. I want to let you in more. I want to be happy. Lord help me, heal me guide me in the ways I know you can and let your will be done with me.

Amen

Holy Saturday

Harrowing of Hell

Holy Saturday

““Sir,” they said, “we remember that while he was still alive that deceiver said, ‘After three days I will rise again.’ So give the order for the tomb to be made secure until the third day. Otherwise, his disciples may come and steal the body and tell the people that he has been raised from the dead. This last deception will be worse than the first.” “Take a guard,” Pilate answered. “Go, make the tomb as secure as you know how.””

Matthew 27:63-65 NIV

The day after, a day like today, The disciples were in mourning. Unlike them, today I am not in mourning for the death of Christ. It is like he warned at the Last supper; “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.””John 13:7 NIV. Today we understand why he went through what he went through. Today we understand how much he loved us. Today we understand he paid the price so we can have eternal life. So today I don’t mourn, I rejoice in his words and honor the traditions of the passover by not just talking of the events that led the Hebrew our Egypt like what is usually done, but I rejoice in talking about the events that happened on the Holy Week, for those events saved us all. Today is day of somber reflection as we contemplate the world of darkness that would exist without the hope of Christ’s resurrection. I am sure back then today was a day they too reflected.

Back then the disciples were mourning. While they mourned at the palace something interesting was being discussed.

“The next day, the one after Preparation Day, the chief priests and the Pharisees went to Pilate. “Sir,” they said, “we remember that while he was still alive that deceiver said, ‘After three days I will rise again.’ So give the order for the tomb to be made secure until the third day. Otherwise, his disciples may come and steal the body and tell the people that he has been raised from the dead. This last deception will be worse than the first.” “Take a guard,” Pilate answered. “Go, make the tomb as secure as you know how.” So they went and made the tomb secure by putting a seal on the stone and posting the guard.”

Matthew 27:62-66 NIV

A guard was posted to stand watch at the tomb where Jesus was laid to rest. A guard was posted to ensure that the disciples don’t steal his body or that anything would happen. What I find interestingly enough is that the chief priests and the pharisees paid more attention to what Jesus said than we realize. Jesus warned he would return on the 3rd day.

Remember to that upon the arrest of Jesus the disciples fled. The left, many went into hiding. Scared of the unknown and their fate. “Then everyone deserted him and fled.”

Mark 14:50 NIV.

The day between Christ’s crucifixion and His resurrection would have been a time of grief and shock as the stunned disciples tried to understand the murder of Jesus, the betrayal of Judas, and the dashing of their hopes. Their faith, little did they know was being tested during this pivotal moment. We can’t judge them for that. We are Human, we are flawed. How many times do we face trials and it’s not until we have finished facing them that we realize our faith was being tested. They were going experiencing just that.

Let us rejoice that today, we don’t doubt or question the Holy Saturday for we know that our redeemer lives. Those of us whom live in countries where we don’t need to hide our faith like other christians do can rejoice and celebrate without fears of condemnation or being arrested. Let us all take this moment to pray for our brothers and sisters living in countries where even today in 2021 where being a christian, for praising God, for following his teaching they are subject to persecution. For they understand way more than we do, what the disciples were experiencing on this day. Let us pray God gives them strength to carry on their mission on those lands.

When Jesus arrived to Jerusalem he went to the temple a few days prior to his crucifixion. When he saw that they made a mockery of the house of God he was mad, flipped tables, and told everyone to get out.

“The Jews then responded to him, “What sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?” Jesus answered them, “Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days.” They replied, “It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?” But the temple he had spoken of was his body. After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.”

John 2:18-22 NIV

The disciples forgot what Jesus said. Yet the priests and the pharisees did not. They took to heart what he said though they didn’t believe he was who everyone said he was. They didn’t believe he had the authority of God. They didn’t believe.

While the disciples worried over their fate…. they were laying low, hidden, out of sight out mind until all the hysteria dies down. Let this pass and settle then I will be lucky and be able to get out of Jerusalem alive, unnoticed. For the record this is my opinion of what I think they were thinking.

this same time, the priests and pharisees were concerned of this man coming back like he said. They did witness him perform miracles though they questioned him and doubted him every step of the way. They were concerned…. yet they couldn’t do much… it was the Sabbath after all. So like mentioned earlier the went over to Pilate for him to assign a guard to be on watch.

Yet what did Jesus do?

Roman Catholic, Eastern Orthodox and most mainline Protestant churches teach that Jesus descended to the realm of the dead on Holy Saturday to save righteous souls, such as the Hebrew patriarchs, who died before his crucifixion.

The Catechism of the Catholic Church calls the descent “the last phase of Jesus’ messianic mission,” during which he “opened heaven’s gates for the just who had gone before him.”

An ancient homily included in the Catholic readings for Holy Saturday says a “great silence” stilled the earth while Jesus searched for Adam, “our first father, as for a lost sheep.”

Often called “the harrowing of hell,” the dramatic image of Jesus breaking down the doors of Hades has proved almost irresistible to artists, from the painter Hieronymus Bosch to the poet Dante to countless Eastern Orthodox iconographers.

First-century Jews generally believed that all souls went to a dreary and silent underworld called Sheol after death. To emphasize that Jesus had truly died, and his resurrection was no trick of the tomb, the apostles likely would have insisted that he, too, had sojourned in Sheol, said Robert Krieg, a theology professor at the University of Notre Dame.

“It helps bring home the point that Jesus’ resurrection was not a resuscitation,” Krieg said.

But the Bible divulges little about the interlude between Jesus’ death and resurrection. Churches that teach he descended to the realm of the dead most often cite 1 Peter 3:18-20.

Yet I will add a few more verses.

“For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit. After being made alive, he went and made proclamation to the imprisoned spirits— to those who were disobedient long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built. In it only a few people, eight in all, were saved through water, and this water symbolizes baptism that now saves you also—not the removal of dirt from the body but the pledge of a clear conscience toward God. It saves you by the resurrection of Jesus Christ, who has gone into heaven and is at God’s right hand—with angels, authorities and powers in submission to him.”. 1 Peter 3:18-22 NIV

Christ was put to death as a human, but made alive by the Spirit,” Peter writes. “And it was by the Spirit that he went to preach to the spirits in prison.” The incarcerated souls, Peter cryptically adds, were those who were “disobedient” during the time of Noah, the ark-maker.

What could this possibly mean? How could Jesus “descend into hell?” And what did He do while He was there?

Traditionally, the church has understood this to mean that after His death on the cross, Jesus went into the underworld and proclaimed the message of salvation to those who had died before His birth. This belief has been called “the harrowing of hell.”

There are a couple of Scriptures that may allude to such a harrowing, both in the first letter of Peter: which I just cited.

Peter goes on to tell us that “the gospel was proclaimed even to the dead, so that, though they had been judged in the flesh as everyone is judged, they might live in the Spirit as God does” (1 Peter 4:6).

While these verses can be interpreted in a number of ways, they seem to say that in some way, Jesus offered redemption to people beyond the grave. He has all the power and authority to even do such a thing.

“The Son of God was revealed for this purpose,” John tells us, “to destroy the works of the devil” (1 John 3:8). And the main “work” of the devil is precisely this – creating alienation between people and God, and between one person and another.

This is how Jesus destroyed the work of the devil – by allowing Satan to crush Him spiritually!

Just as Jesus absorbed all the evil on his physical body, taking on our sins and by dying on the cross, He also absorbed all of the spiritual evil by “descending into hell.” But neither death nor hell could hold Him, and in this we rejoice.

Let me say this again: Neither Death Nor Hell could Hold Him Down!!!

Furthermore, the harrowing of hell isn’t a one-time deal. Jesus continues to go into whatever hells He finds, drawing people out of them.

“It was not once long ago that He did it,” C.S. Lewis writes of the harrowing of hell. “Time does not work that way once ye have left the Earth. All moments that have been or shall be were, or are, present in the moment of His descending. There is no spirit in prison to Whom He did not preach” (The Great Divorce, 139-140).

This is great news indeed! If Jesus has preached to all the spirits in prison, this means that everyone will hear the gospel and have the chance to respond to it.

Find comfort in knowing that whatever hells we may find ourselves in, Jesus is there waiting for us – and He has the power to pull us out.

Yes He loves us, He made sacrifices for us, he continues to show Mercy & Love to us whom are not worthy of this.

So today let us not spend this day in mourning Let is rejoice, because come tomorrow, We shall Celebrate the greatness of his resurrection Power!!

Holy Friday

On this day.:..

On this day, with just one kiss on the cheek he was betrayed.

“but Jesus asked him, “Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?” Luke‬ ‭22:48‬ ‭NIV‬‬

He was betrayed for 30 shekles (pieces of silver), which was the equivalent to two days pay.

The soldiers arrested him….there were plenty of witnesses to see this moment. There were priests, there were officers, The temple Guards, the elders and his disciples. They all saw what was going on.

Then Jesus said to the chief priests, the officers of the temple guard, and the elders, who had come for him, “Am I leading a rebellion, that you have come with swords and clubs? Every day I was with you in the temple courts, and you did not lay a hand on me. But this is your hour—when darkness reigns.””
‭‭Luke‬ ‭22:52-53‬ ‭NIV‬‬

He was taken away by the soldiers and was tried and treated like a criminal. As forewarned Peter denied him 3 times.

Jesús was mocked, insulted and spat on by the guards while in custody.

“They blindfolded him and demanded, “Prophesy! Who hit you?” And they said many other insulting things to him.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭22:64-65‬ ‭NIV‬‬

He was questioned Before Pilate & Herod. Jesus knew though no matter what they said, what they questioned him, his fate, his sentence was already pre destined

““If you are the Messiah,” they said, “tell us.” Jesus answered, “If I tell you, you will not believe me, and if I asked you, you would not answer. But from now on, the Son of Man will be seated at the right hand of the mighty God.””
‭‭Luke‬ ‭22:67-69‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Pilate found no guilt, no reason to pursue any charges, yet the chief priests kept on accusing Jesus of various things. Yet Pilate upon questioning realized Herod had jurisdiction over the fate on the man before him, whom he felt was not guilty of any crimes.

“Then Pilate announced to the chief priests and the crowd, “I find no basis for a charge against this man.”
On hearing this, Pilate asked if the man was a Galilean. When he learned that Jesus was under Herod’s jurisdiction, he sent him to Herod, who was also in Jerusalem at that time.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭23:4, 6-7‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Then they mocked and ridiculed him once again.

“Then Herod and his soldiers ridiculed and mocked him. Dressing him in an elegant robe, they sent him back to Pilate.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭23:11‬ ‭NIV‬‬

So the Pilate once again found no bases for their charges against him.

“Pilate called together the chief priests, the rulers and the people, and said to them, “You brought me this man as one who was inciting the people to rebellion. I have examined him in your presence and have found no basis for your charges against him.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭23:13-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Pilate pleased 3 times to the people regarding the charges against Jesus. Pilate wanted to release him. Yet the crowd preferred to release a criminal vs Free Jesus.

“Neither has Herod, for he sent him back to us; as you can see, he has done nothing to deserve death. Therefore, I will punish him and then release him.”
But the whole crowd shouted, “Away with this man! Release Barabbas to us!”
Wanting to release Jesus, Pilate appealed to them again. But they kept shouting, “Crucify him! Crucify him!” For the third time he spoke to them: “Why? What crime has this man committed? I have found in him no grounds for the death penalty. Therefore I will have him punished and then release him.”
So Pilate decided to grant their demand. He released the man who had been thrown into prison for insurrection and murder, the one they asked for, and surrendered Jesus to their will.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭23:15-16, 18, 20-22, 24-25‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Imagine being in a trial, the Judge finds you not guilty of any wrong doing. Yet due to the provincial regions of your upbringings, you fall under the legal jurisprudence of another Judge. Then that Judge doesn’t know what to do, so he goes on and asks the jurors your peers what they want and they want you to suffer so that Judge outnumbered by the majority rule of your peers condemns you when another Judge would’ve let you walk. Imagine being convicted for a crime you didn’t commit. Imagine facing time while being innocent. Jesus didn’t have to imagine it. He lived it. He was tried and persecuted and condemned so that you and I can join him and the father in paradise. The innocence Project today would’ve taken up a case like this. They would’ve found a way to plea, petition for another hearing to overturn any changes of Judges and any Conviction. We would’ve seen protests, sit ins, hashtags taking over social media…..You would’ve seen grassroots efforts to help am innocent man.
I didn’t mention this earlier but during his arrest there was a little scuffle between the disciples and there soldiers and one of the disciples cut off a piece of the ear of the soldier. Jesus healed that soldier right before his arrest. I can imagine some of these disciples, the ones who didn’t go into hiding or denying him, I am sure like the innocence project they were reorganizing trying to build a case to save him. Yet the events of the day, of today, happened so fast. These events didn’t happen today, where the ACLU would’ve stepped in. This happened over 2000 years ago, to fulfill a prophecy. All the events happened so fast. He went from praying, to being arrested, to being mocked, to being persecuted and tried, to being condemned & finally to die. For a crime you committed. A sin you committed and because the Pharisees and the Saduceas did not acknowledge the fulfillment of the prophecies of thr Messiah before them.

He was beat, he was spat on, he was mocked, he was whipped, he has to bear his cross…. correction…. he bore our cross since he paid for your sins, my sins and the sins of mankind.

Jesús was compassionate, he was kind, he was dying and he pleaded to God for us.

Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”. Luke‬ ‭23:34‬ ‭NIV‬‬

They didn’t know who they were mocking, they didn’t know nor did they understand. He pleaded for them, just like he prayed for his disciples and Judas just the night before; right before Judas betrayed him. Before Peter denied him, before everyone scattered to save themselves in the midst of all the chaos.

Beside Jesus were two other men, men whom were guilty of real crimes. One man on a cross to his right, another man hung on a cross to his left. A murderer and a thief. One of them, the their, realized that he was the Messiah asked to make space for him in heaven. He saw in his final moments who was this man being condemned before him. He put his faith in this man, right before his final moments & he was redeemed.

Jesús in his final moments redeemed this man. “Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.””
‭‭Luke‬ ‭23:43‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Aside from being a redeemer, aside for praying for those whom harmed him. He was compassionate He wanted to protect his mom. John was his beloved disciple, John he knew would take care of his mother as if she was his own.

“When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to her, “Woman, here is your son,” and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.” From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.”
‭‭John‬ ‭19:26-27‬ ‭NIV‬‬

In that moment; on the cross; despite the crowd before him, he has never felt more alone. We feel his pain, we feel how alone he felt with his words. Listen to the cries that Jesus cried;

Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” ).”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭27:46‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Why have you forsaken me?
Eli, Eli, Lema Sabachthani? How many of us have asked this question when we face hardships?
It is in this moment where we see the humanness of Jesus. Where he feels what we feel. Here he relates to us. Our pains, our sorrows, our fears and when we face solitude. Why have you forsaken me when I have done all that you told me to do? I have loved, lived a humble life, I have performed miracles. Why do you in my most hardest moments leave me here to suffer alone? We have all been there. So has Jesus.

After this Jesus said something that many may not understand but with all that he faced that day.
, “I am thirsty.””
‭‭John‬ ‭19:28‬ ‭NIV‬‬
He knew it was almost time, but he was still in the flesh, he was parched. So he asked for something to drink. He needed to quench his thirst for his final words. He still in the flesh, was loosing blood, was sweaty, was tired after all he had been through today, but he just needed a little bit of something to drink, just to have thr energy to say his final two words.

After he quenched his thirst he said it was done. It was time, it was finished.
“It is finished.”
‭‭John‬ ‭19:30‬ ‭NIV‬‬

He knew the prophecy, what he was called and sent to earth to do, what he was destined for…. to be the sacrificial lamb for all of humanity was finally here and done. It Is finished!

And in his final knowing it was finished with the little bit of energy he had left he shouted once more…. not in angst against God, but instead in committing himself to God.

“Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.” When he had said this, he breathed his last.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭23:46‬ ‭NIV‬‬

It was at that moment, where he breathed his last breath. It was that moment where his spirit was released. It was at that final moment, where his blood that was spilled redeemed us all. It was at that moment…. Where you and I obtain salvation through Christ. It was at that moment that the prophecy was fulfilled.

Today give thanks and praise to God.
Give thanks for the sacrificial lamb.
Give thanks for he suffered, Jesus suffered for all of us. Jesus felt our pain, our sins became his sins. God had Mercy. God forgave us. His son paid the price.

Today, Remember how he suffered, remember how he was beat. Remember how he was spat on. Remember how he paid for a crime he did not commit. He was a man free of sin. He paid the price for us. So that we too can have everlasting life. He came became incarnate, felt what we feel. He understands us and our psyche. He accepted this task which God Willed. So we can have a seat at the table. As I wipe away the tears from my cheeks I can’t help but give thanks for all that he has done.

Thank you Abba Padre.
I live to worship you, with a heart filled with gratitude for all you have done for me during my lifetime, what has yet to be fulfilled during my lifetime and for what you did before my lifetime so I can have salvation.

You have taught me over all my years….

You have taught me over all my years…. October Wisdom Challenge Day 31

“Wisdom belongs to the aged, and understanding to the old.” Job 12:12 NLT

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider of all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I thankful for all the things you have taught me in all my years. As I reflect on my life, my life choices, I can pinpoint areas where your hand moved even when I thought you were being dormant. I can pinpoint the turning point and the lessons learned from each struggle, each test and tribulation. I can also pinpoint the times I have turned my back, rejected your guidance, shut off your warnings which led me to stumble. Yet while I stumbled…. You were still there making sure I got back up. Making sure I learned….and then I can pinpoint each embrace you embraced my life with. You have taught me to share more of my testimonies and experiences, and share less of the details while going through them. For sharing with the wrong people can only lead to more harm than good. You taught me who to turn to in my times of necessities, in my anguish and in my pain. You have also taught me to rejoice in you and continue glorifying you regardless of what is going on. I have made many mistakes. Many and all which I have come before you about. You have taught to me keep smiling, keep fighting, keep searching, keep mociona forward regardless of what I face. Each time you remind me that the great I am is always here. Most importantly your love has never ceased. You have taught me a great of many things even forgiveness. Yet there are things I still have not forgiven myself for. I know for you have taught me that apart of the healing and part of the growing includes forgiving myself. We weigh down ourselves with our thoughts and our guilt. When I shouldn’t for I know you have redeemed me. I am still a work in progress. I am a daughter of a King who is wiser beyond comprehension. I have learned much from your wisdom, grace and words and I do know that I have much more to learn. Today I pray for my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. I know we have all respectively in our own walks have learned from what you have taught us throughout the years. I ask that as we continue to age, as we continue in our walks, may we continue to seek your wisdom, your grace, your love and your mercy. May we continue to see, where we didn’t see before. May we be able to testify of your greatness even in the midst of our suffering. May we be able to lift your name in praises regardless of the obstacles. May we Raise a Halelelujah with everything inside of us….. even when we feel we have nothing to give. May we continue to find strength in you, guidance in you, provisions in you and wisdom through you. Let your hand cover us and continue to give us the love and protection you offer. Fill me with your wisdom oh lord!

Amén

Help Me Choose the right Path…

Help Me Choose the right Path… October Wisdom Challenge Day 30

“A wise person chooses the right road; a fool takes the wrong one.”

Ecclesiastes 10:2 NLT

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider of all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I just want you to Help me. Help me lord Choose the right path. Help me choose the right path in my personal choices, help me choose the right path in my spiritual walk, help me choose the right path in my home and all that I do. King Solomon was right about who we are when we make our choices. A wise person chooses the right road, the righteous road, the road most pleasing to God. A fool takes the wrong road, the popular road, misguided by others, misguided because they didn’t pray over their situation, their paths or their options. Last night my pastor said something that resonated and I can link with this prayer. We don’t often enough pray about our choices. We don’t often enough come to you with the decisions we need to máke in our lives. A wise person will seek you lord for guidance and direction and even answers. I too have made decisions without consulting you; yet I have made others, that because of your guidance brought me to a better place than I previously was. So today I pray over my family, my loved ones, my friends, my pastors, my church, and anyone reading this… May you seek the Lord with everything presented before you, regardless of how big or how small, and before you choose ask the Lord to Help you choose the right path. Help you chose a path that will not only bless you, but glorify his name. A path filled with his anointing and guidance. A path which will not only edify your life, but will make you wiser than before.

Amén.

Fill me with your understanding …

Fill me with your understanding … October Wisdom Challenge Day 29

“Many will be purified, cleansed, and refined by these trials. But the wicked will continue in their wickedness, and none of them will understand. Only those who are wise will know what it means.”. Daniel 12:10 NLT

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider of all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I just want you to fill me with your understanding. We are living in the beginning of the end of times. All the signs are reflecting that your great hour is approaching. Many are passing through trials and tribulations. Many will overcome them, many will be made anew by them, cleansed and even purified by their experiences. Others though will continue in their ways which are not pleasing in your sight. Today many are being awakened and seeing what is going on and drawing closer to you. Others are still blinded unwise and not realizing what is going on is of the supernatural warfare going on. There are forces far greater than comprehension stirring up strife, tension, hatred and animosity…. even amongst the churches. Lord let us be wise with our words, let us be wise with our expressions, let us your children not stir up hatred, for hatred is a sin, let us not stir up more animosity nor tension in the very tense time we are living in. I ask that you provide my family, my friends, my loved ones, my pastors, my church, this nation and all your churches to be filled with your wisdom and understanding. Lord I pray for this nation as we fast approach the elections. Tensions are at an all time high. Lord I placed my vote and you know why I voted the way I did. You know my heart and you know how passionately I feel about certain issues. Yet regardless of the outcome I will accept what you have ordained. I pray that many of your children speaking out on the issues and even the politics refrain from spreading hate. My heart hurts when I see the hatred from within. I have seen your children boldly decree hatred Lord and for them I pray. For Hatred is not something we should be promoting. Everyone is entitled to their opinions and I will always respect that; but lord give us all the understanding to reflect and not spread hate. Everyone has their reasons to why they are voting which way. Lord you know the hearts of every person in this nation. Hate seems to be extremely rampant in this nation….Lord I ask that help us all love one another as you have called us to do so that LOVE can overpower the HATE. America get on your knees and pray because no matter who wins many will be mad. Pray for this nation. Pray for the hearts of the people. Pray for understanding for I feel regardless who wins there wills be a huge upset. Pray, pray, pray and may God give us the understanding we need to accept the things we cannot change.

Amén.

How can I please the Lord today …

How can I please the Lord today … October Wisdom Challenge Day 28

“To the person who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.” Ecclesiastes 2:26 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider of all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I just want to focus on pleasing you. I want to focus on giving you all thanks and praises for all the things you do in my life. I want to honor you for you truly give me happiness. I want to continue to seek your guidance and wisdom so I can continue walking in your ways. I just want to please the lord, and ask that you continue to guide me in a path which is pleasing to you. I just want to be in a path which honors you. I just want to be on a path where I can glorify you for the many blessings your have given me and my home. Today I ask that my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors all remain on a path which is pleasing to you. I pray that we remain on a path where we can rejoice and glorify your holy name. I pray that we continue to seek you with a pure heart and be examples for others. I pray we as imperfect as we can still make you happy. Give us the strength to ward off sin, give us the strength to ward off temptation. Give us the strength to ward off doubt. Give us the strength to ward off the deception and tricks of the enemy. Give us the strength and wisdom to make wise choices so we can stand firm in you, rejoice in you and do only things that are pleasing to you.

Amén

Instruct my steps today

Instruct my steps today … October Wisdom Challenge Day 27

“The law of the Lord is perfect, refreshing the soul. The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple.”. Psalms 19:7 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider of all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask you to help me by instructing my steps. Your law is perfect, your words are refreshing to my soul. You and your statues are trustworthy, make me this simple minded person more wise. Today I invoke your presence, I invoke your spirit. Look at my family, my loved ones, my friends, my church, my pastors and guide and instruct our steps. Revive our souls dear lord with the instructions of our steps. Revive our souls oh lord with your guidance. Revive our souls oh lord with your presence. Revive our souls oh lord with your mercy. Revive our souls oh lord with your love. Revive our souls oh lord with your healing hands. Today I have a special request, There are people I love who are sick right. is , there are people I love who have huge burdens on their plates due to taking care of their loved ones who are suffering a from of illnesses. There are people I love right now who are grieving, and are about to say their final goodbyes to the flesh of their loved ones. There are people I love

who are about to travel today and I ask you cover and protect them as they head to their destination, when they reach their destination and join their return. There are people I love who are battling fears, anxiety & depressing. There are people I love who right now are battling mental illness. There are people I love who are in situations they need your help to get out of. There are people right now dear lord in a lot of pain, unbearable pain, deep rooted agonizing pain. Today I invoke your presence to these people who’s Names I did not mention but lord you know who they are. Lord I ask you to guide their steps, give them the instructions and guidance they need, the word and support they need as they are in the midst of this process, this battle, this season in their lives. There are too many to name, but lord even any one reading this who fall in any of these categories, Lord let this prayer resonate in their lives so they too can find the instruction they need to guide their steps to nourish their souls. Bring forth healing, bring forth strength, bring forth guidance, bring fort love, bring forth mercy, bring forth grace and let them see that you are still working. That you are not silent, so that when their process or season ends, your name can be glorified.

Amén

Keep me from EVIL

Keep me from EVIL … October Wisdom Challenge Day 25

“And he said to the human race, “The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom, and to shun evil is understanding.””

Job 28:28 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask to help me shun off Evil. Today is National day of Prayer and Fasting. Lord I know this scripture was not chosen for today as mere coincidence for your timing is oh so perfect. When you inspired this challenge you know this word would appear on this day and the many of us doing this prayer challenge will be resonating in your word and fasting today. So today with all the political corruption we are facing in both sides of the fence, with all the corruption and lack of humility we are seeing in our nations. Today I ask not just for my self, my family, my friends, my loved ones, my pastors and my church, but also for every inhabitant on this planet… Lord today I ask that you guide us all away from evil. May we all shun evil and it’s understanding. May we all bow down at your feet and humble ourselves before you not only to seek atonement, not only to seek forgiveness for any wrong doings or thoughts, but to seek and invoke your presence like never before. I come before you today invoking then holy spirit; to wash over us, to wash over our families to wash over this nation and world. I am invoking your holy spirit to move among us, to give us the understanding, wisdom and knowledge we need to go about our walks. I am invoking your presence to deliver us from this pandemic oh Lord, I am invoking your presence to bring forth healing to anyone who is injured, sick or in need of emotional healing as well. I am invoking your presence to help us right the wrongs in our lives, starting with me. I am invoking your presence to rid this word of the pestilence that has arisen. I am invoking your presence to send a revival for lord we need it. I am invoking today a move of your presence dear lord. I am invoking today for your spirit to come down and cover this land, this planet. Lord today I am invoking your presence my lord to fill me lord, with your. For you fill every void I need to be filled in my life. For you have done and continue to do great things in my life. You have been nothing but truly a loving father looking over his child Lord. I will never be able to fully thank you for how merciful you have been. I see you working and I see you moving in my home with my children. Lord you know my silent pleas and my prayers I don’t share Lord, though I do not see some of them answered I know you are still working because of how you have worked in my life this far. I know you are working because of what you have revealed to me in dreams this far. I know you are working because you have given warnings lord…. and I take heed to those warnings. My God no one is greater than you. Once again today on this day of national fasting and prayer today I ask that your spirit manifests in a way that we have not seen in a long time. Thank Abba Padre

Amén.

Forgive my words Oh Lord

Forgive my words Oh Lord … October Wisdom Challenge Day 24

“The heart of the wise inclines to the right, but the heart of the fool to the left.”. Ecclesiastes 10:2 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask you to Forgive me for my words. There have been times my words have made incline to the left and say foolish things or even things not just in your eyes. Yet the remainder of the time I incline to the right, and my words are wise and just in your eyes. Some days I slip and when I speak a foul ball is hit. I am not perfect. Yet I strive to right my ways and lean more and incline more towards your directions. I like this chapter in Ecclesiastes; when King solomon wrote this and those from Ecclesiastes 7-12 with a purpose; the purpose is to have the Wisdom for living a joyful life. Solomon shares that wisdom with us so we can learn from our past, our mistakes, our sins, even our words. How every thought, word and action can direct your path on this road you are traveling on. What Solomon tells us is the same that God tells us, the same that Jesus tells us & the same that My favorite poet tells us. “Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay. In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.” Do you incline right or incline left? Lord I know I was set apart, and my mouth would be what would get me in trouble. Yet lord here I am taking the road less travelled by; inclining to the right, so you can forgive me for my words, and my faults and especially my sins. So I can fully continue my journey with you. Today I ask to forgive the words of my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. Forgive Whatever it is in their lives that has them inclining to one direction or another, today I ask that with your guidance, wisdom and strength they too can start off their morning inclining to the right. The times we are living are surely a test of the times. We can not be lukewarm. Amen

Your ways are not my ways .

Your ways are not my ways … October Wisdom Challenge Day 23

“Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out!” Romans 11:33 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask you to teach me to be more in tune with your ways. For your ways are not my ways since your ways are rich, pure and whole. My ways at times are filled with doubt, with despair and fear. May ways are riddled in sin; yet in a path to seek more of you, your wholeness, your ways and your purity. To have an ounce of your wisdom and depth of your knowledge is still much more than us mortals can withstand. Yet is not riches that I seek; I seek your guidance so I can walk my walk with you as wholesome as posible. I seek you to help me withstand the desires of the flesh. I seek you to cast away the doubts, despair and fears. I seek to you above all things because you are the answers to all my questions. Your ways might not be my ways, but each day i yearn to continue to seek you, so that your ways can be embraced and a part of my ways. Father God today I ask that you take me, my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. You know the ways of our respective walks and our hearts, and you know our ways are not your way. Yet here I am pleading for all of our respective behalf’s that you illuminate our ways which need more adjusting so that are ways are not aligned to your ways. That whatever is causing a drain, a distraction, a tamper in our walks, may you steer us away do that we can walk more aligned in your ways. Help us all work on ourselves so that even though your ways are not our ways; but that in our self reflections, in our embrace with you, in our re-alignment of our selves that our ways can be more like yours.

Amén

Teach me to grow in my grief.

Teach me to grow in my grief… October Wisdom Challenge Day 22

“For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.”. Ecclesiastes 1:18 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask you to teach me to grow in my grief. There are various forms of grief. Grieving the death of a loved one, grieving and end to a relationship, grieving an end to a situation, etc. It is in these various stages of grief where we learn our true self. It is in the midst of these various losses where can seek you more but also get the strength we need for the next chapter. Dealing with grief is not easy. There is pain, their is heartbreak, there is sorrow. Yet as your word says joy comes in the morning. When we overcome our grief and realize the strength within ourselves. Today some may be grieving, the loss of a loved one, These past few months have been filled with news of losses since covid. Yet we pour out our pains to you dear lord to supply the strength, the wisdom and knowledge needed in this process. Today I extend this prayer to anyone feeling any form of grief. May you intercede on their behalf and give strength, comfort, love and resiliency during this difficult time.

Amén

Fill me with the Spirit of Wisdom …

Fill me with the Spirit of Wisdom … October Wisdom Challenge Day 21

“I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.” Ephesians 1:17 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask for the spirit of your wisdom. I invoke your presence and your spirit to fill me with the wisdom and revelation I need. I invoke your presence and your spirit of wisdom to bring forth the wisdom and revelation I need to know you better. To be able to discern what is around me better. I submit myself to you so that your majesty and blessings can downpour. Lord we are facing difficult times, times of turmoil of persecution, times of immortality and immense corruption. I plead to you and invoke that your spirit of wisdom can resonate with my family, my friends and their families, those I love and their families, my church and their families as well as our pastors. Let the spirit of your wisdom guide us with each step.

Amén

Fill me with the Spirit of Wisdom …

Fill me with the Spirit of Wisdom … October Wisdom Challenge Day 21

“I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.” Ephesians 1:17 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask for the spirit of your wisdom. I invoke your presence and your spirit to fill me with the wisdom and revelation I need. I invoke your presence and your spirit of wisdom to bring forth the wisdom and revelation I need to know you better. To be able to discern what is around me better. I submit myself to you so that your majesty and blessings can downpour. Lord we are facing difficult times, times of turmoil of persecution, times of immortality and immense corruption. I plead to you and invoke that your spirit of wisdom can resonate with my family, my friends and their families, those I love and their families, my church and their families as well as our pastors. Let the spirit of your wisdom guide us with each step.

Amén

I praise you Lord …

I praise you Lord … October Wisdom Challenge Day 20

“I thank and praise you, God of my ancestors: You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you, you have made known to us the dream of the king.” Daniel 2:23 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I praise you Lord. I will shout your name, glorify your name and give you thanks. I thank you for my ancestors who make me who I am. I thank you for the wisdom and power you have given me. I thank you for the times you have used me via the dreams, the dreams I have shared with others about what you have placed in my heart. Lord I thank you for trusting in me with those dreams. Today I am also blessed and relieved with the confirmation of this word and today’s lesson. Today I will be teaching about Daniel. Today you being me back to Daniel. There are no coincidences in this matter. Today we will praise you regardless of the obstacles we face. I ask that my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and even my pastors dear lord remain under your covering and protection. May you continue to guide them and provide for all their needs and provisions they say you continue to do with me. I ask that they to praise you without ceasing. I ask that they too find the strength to praise you in their storms. I to ask that they find the strength they need to praise you regardless is any obstacles, pain, torment, circumstances and fear. That they are reminded that you are a mighty God. That even when we are thrown into the lions den, that we shall fear not, we shall continue to praise you, that you will still be there by our side. Lord thank you also for this word this morning just gave me another perspective of my lesson. May word you just resonated in me be a blessing to my littles later. May they too hold on the story we will be discussing and the projecting we will be working on reminding them how great you are in all circumstances…. to teach and remind our littles the importance of remaining firm in our prayers. To remind them nothing can stop an unstoppable God. Not even a hungry lion. Not even someone filled with greed and malice, not even someone who is mean. Thank you Jesus for always working. For always hearing the many silent prayers and praises I exalt to you. Thank you for this strength you have given me to stand up and face my day, my challenges, my lions while I am sitting in the middle of my den.

Amén.

Help me understand your ways .

Help me understand your ways … October Wisdom Challenge Day 19

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.” Isaiah 40:28 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you help me understand your ways lord. You are the lord most high and everlasting. You are the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end, your understanding is beyond our comprehension. Lord all I ask is for a fraction of your understanding. Enough for my carnal mind to sustain. Today I once again thank you, thank you for all you have done, thank you for your word, thank you for your blessings, thank you for your guidance, thank you for allowing your presence to be felt. Lord you are good and your mercy endures, your wisdom endures, your love endures. Today I ask that you provide me, my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors the ability to understand your ways. We are all respectively facing challenges where we need your guidance, your wisdom and understanding. We are all finding ways to seek you more… so we can gain my strength through you in our respective circumstances. Today I ask that you illuminate our paths with understanding as we continue to submit our trust in you. I ask that not only we understand but accept the things you have is understand. Once again I thank you for all you have done, all you continue to do and ask that you continue to bless, guide, protect, show mercy, love and cover us with your blood.

Amén

Help me understand your ways .

Help me understand your ways … October Wisdom Challenge Day 19

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.” Isaiah 40:28 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you help me understand your ways lord. You are the lord most high and everlasting. You are the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end, your understanding is beyond our comprehension. Lord all I ask is for a fraction of your understanding. Enough for my carnal mind to sustain. Today I once again thank you, thank you for all you have done, thank you for your word, thank you for your blessings, thank you for your guidance, thank you for allowing your presence to be felt. Lord you are good and your mercy endures, your wisdom endures, your love endures. Today I ask that you provide me, my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors the ability to understand your ways. We are all respectively facing challenges where we need your guidance, your wisdom and understanding. We are all finding ways to seek you more… so we can gain my strength through you in our respective circumstances. Today I ask that you illuminate our paths with understanding as we continue to submit our trust in you. I ask that not only we understand but accept the things you have is understand. Once again I thank you for all you have done, all you continue to do and ask that you continue to bless, guide, protect, show mercy, love and cover us with your blood.

Amén

Teach me today oh Lord

Teach me today oh Lord… October Wisdom Challenge Day 18

“All this also comes from the Lord Almighty, whose plan is wonderful, whose wisdom is magnificent.” Isaiah 28:29 NIV

Today I want to open up and make a slight confession. I made some choices in my recent past which now Has me in a bind emotionally. Yet those choices came because of some other external factors. I have a lot on my plate and I know it. I love all those around me and the last thing I want to do is cause anyone any harm. I am also tired of the pain I am feeling, the pain that led me to the decision that led me to this bind. I told someone this weekend (well the only person I opened up and had a conversation with) that I can’t do this any more the situation I was facing at home. Yet there are reasons I am still there in that situation. I don’t know how long I can truly hold on. On camera things are peachy and perfect. behind the lens is a whole other ball game. A whole other world. I need the strength and confidence to do what I need to do. I had a onset of a panic attack yesterday and thank God I was not alone. I thank God I was with the person I was with at the time I felt that onset coming along. Who knows what would’ve happened when we would’ve parted ways had that person not been there and kept asking what I wanted to do. That persons presence helped calm me. So this morning I repent of any of my decisions and self wrong doing. Today I also ask for forgiveness. Today I ask for guidance to face my pain, my heartache, my situation, my own insecurities, my strength to come for I am weak. I feel trapped, I feel alone, I feel I am swimming upstream yet sitting in the same spot swimming idle. I feel I have no where to go due to the current market. I need the Lords guidance. I need his wisdom.

my prayer:

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that teach me today Lord. May your word today provide the wisdom and guidance I need with all that I am facing. May your spirit overflow today and guide me and teach me what I need. May your wisdom guide me and resonate in me. Lord you know all things. All ones pain, ones thoughts, ones worries, ones fears, what strikes ones anxieties and panic. Lord teach me. Guide me, for I trust all I need today you will give me. Today I ask you look into the hearts and situations being faced by my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. May your word today teach them, guide them, give them strength or the wisdom they need, to proceed with anything they are facing. May today we find peace and comfort in you. May your love and mercy over flow and cover all of us in your embrace. Please protect those mentioned, continue to guide us, to give us strength, to give us health and healing and to keep us covered in your blood. Once again I submit myself to you, I repent of all my sins. I repent of any pain. I repent of any wrong doings. I repent of any bad thoughts. I seek your forgiveness for any offenses made, knowingly and unknowingly. For today I want to be fully embraced in your presence dear lord. I want your wisdom and understanding & most importantly your guidance to over flow. You know the answers I need, are much more needed than the answers I want. You know the questions in my heart lord….You Know… more than anyone anywhere lord…. you Know. Today I fully submit myself to you, to seek your answers for my questions, the ones I have only shared with you.

Amén

Where am I lacking wisdom…

Where am I lacking wisdom… October Wisdom Challenge Day 17

“But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.” James 3:17 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you help me in the areas where I lack wisdom. Lord like socrates I knows I am not wise. Socrates always claimed that he did not know anything. Wisdom is a sort of recognition of your own ignorance, thus Socrates knows that he is not wise; therefore he has a type of wisdom. James speaks of two types of wisdoms, the wisdoms of what we know, and the wisdom that comes from heaven. Both James and Socrates knew that they are no where near as wise as they could be. I too know I am not wise, my wisdom is gained from my experience my limited knowledge here in my flesh. Yet lord today I ask that you supply me with the wisdom I need. Continue to bless, heal protect and guide my family, my friends, my church, my pastors and my loved ones. Also I ask that you give us the wisdom we need in the areas we lack.

Amén

Lend me your thoughts…

Lend me your thoughts… October Wisdom Challenge Day 16

““For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.” Isaiah 55:8 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you lend me your thoughts My God so I can walk this walk if mine thinking more like you, reasoning more like you, understanding and comprehending more like you. My thoughts I am sure are not your thoughts. My thoughts are filled with worries, my thoughts are filled with possibilities, my thoughts when troubled are negative, my thoughts are not always pleasing to the lord. My ways lord are not your ways either. There are things I do that I know I do not fully put in your hands, and it leads me to stray from what you want done. Teach me lord to think like you. So that my thoughts, my ways, my walk and my understanding are more intune with you. Lord I am by far not perfect, and I know that is ok, you have accepted me for who I am. Yet I know you appreciate that I seek you for growth, so though I am not perfect, though I know the struggle I go through, and the areas I need to work on in my life. You know I turn to you, instead of the vices of my past. In my past i literally drowned in my sorrows, today I consume your word for strength. My thoughts have changed, so have my ways. Yet lord I know they can change more. Lord today I ask that you continue to cover me, my family, my loved ones, my friends, my church and my pastors. You know us all collectively and individually. You know our struggles, our fears, our thoughts, our ways and our hearts. You know where each of us respectively need more work. Our thoughts may not always be pleasing in certain circumstances, our ways in handling things might not be either. Yet today aside from asking you to cover us in your love, protection, mercy, healing and grace, I also ask you that you help us with our thoughts and our ways. May our thoughts be more like yours. May our actions and our ways be more like yours. For we know our thoughts and our ways are not like yours. Yet today someone may be struggling with a thought, a feeling, a decision they are about to make. This presence I have right now is mighty and strong. They may or may not read this; but today I ask you to intercede on behalf of someone struggling with their thoughts and their way. I ask you to intercede and guide us all to think more like you. Let us not let the enemy cloud our judgment with his chatter. Let us not give the enemy an opening to take us astray. Let us tune out these chatters and focus on what is before you, who is in you and who is with you. Let us focus on letting the lord guide us, our actions and our thoughts.

Amén

Teach me your ways oh Lord…

Teach me your ways oh Lord… October Wisdom Challenge Day 15

“Wisdom is a shelter as money is a shelter, but the advantage of knowledge is this: Wisdom preserves those who have it.” Ecclesiastes 7:12 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you Lend Teach me more of your ways My God so I can walk in your path and continue to grow in your spirit and word. I want to be embraced with the wisdom you offer and provide. I want to be sheltered by your wisdom to protect me from any thoughts and wrong doings. I want to be preserved by your wisdom and it be reflected with all that I do so your name can be Glorified. Continue to teach me your words and your ways so I can holdfast and hold tight the wisdom you are teaching me. Today I pray for my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my Pastors. May we all seek your words more; may we learn from the words you place before us, may these words you offer give us the wisdom we need, may we all find shelter and comfort in the daily doses of wisdom you offer and once again seek more of this wisdom. Each day is a lesson we learn from, continue to teach us in the ways you want us to walk in our walks with you so we can one day join you living in all eternity with you. I pray for any of those mentioned, give us all the wisdom we need not only during our walk, not only during our good days, but even in the midst of pain, heartbreak, and the storms. May anyone in pain find wisdom and comfort in your words. May solace and peace be found in your words. May understanding and even appreciation in the midst of it all be found in your words. i extend this prayer to the family of my loved ones in Mourning. May in the midst of this period of grief, you supply them the strength, the understanding, the wisdom, the words, and the peace they need to get through this difficult chapter.

Amén

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Lend me your wisdom

Lend me your wisdom… October Wisdom Challenge Day 14

“For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.” 1 Corinthians 1:25 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you Lend me your wisdom.

I can admit I am foolish, I am weak and your are not only wiser but stronger than me. Today I ask that those foolish moments, those moments where I am weak and do not make the right decisions. That in those moments you lend me your wisdom, you lend me your strength to not be foolish and unwise. There are many of us like that, where there are certain things we are still foolish and weak in our lives. So today I ask, that you take me, my family, my loved ones, my friends, my pastors and my church dear lord and thoroughly look into our hearts, our minds, our lives, our strengths and our weaknesses. Lend us your strength and lend us your wisdom to not be foolish in areas we tend to still be weak and foolish.

Amén

Some changes I need to make in me life … October Wisdom Challenge Day 11

Some changes I need to make in me life … October Wisdom Challenge Day 11

“Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.” James 3:13 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I My prayers will focus on humility and understanding which comes from your wisdom . Give me, my family, my loved ones, my church, my friends and my pastors humility and understanding . Give us the humility and understanding we need to live during the times we are living in. Give us the humility and wisdom that will help us grow in our spiritual walk. Give us the humility and understanding that we need while in the flesh to not stray from your path. Give us the humility and understanding we need to council our youth. Give us the humility and understanding we need to face our daily struggles, our daily battles our daily process. You know my heart, you know my situation, you know what my heart cries out to you. There are some changes I need to make in my life. There are some changes I need to make to for various reasons. There are changes I need to make to grow spiritually. There are changes I need to make for myself and we’ll bring. There are changes we all need to make dear lord personally & spiritually. Today for myself I ask that you give me the humility and understanding to be able to take the steps needed to make the changes I need to make, to give me the courage and confidence to take the steps I have to make. To give me the humility and understanding to deal with the changes I need to make. I also ask and plea that for my family, my friends, my loved ones, my pastors and my church that you guide them all with as well with any changes they too need to make, that you provide the resources, the strength, the courage, the humility and understanding in anything they are facing to make whatever changes they need to make in their respective lives. You know what each person is going through and as I invoke the spirit this morning I ask you to intercede on all of our behalf’s and give us what we need to make the changes we need to make. Thank you once again for all you do, all you have done, all you have provided and continue to provide.

Amén

Prayers for Wisdom … October Wisdom Challenge Day 10

Prayers for Wisdom … October Wisdom Challenge Day 10

“Wisdom makes one wise person more powerful than ten rulers in a city.” Ecclesiastes 7:19 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I My prayers will focus on Wisdom. Give me, my family, my loved ones, my church, my friends and my pastors Wisdom. Give us the wisdom we need to live during the times we are living in. Give us the wisdom that will help us grow in our spiritual walk. Give us the wisdom that we need while in the flesh to not stray from your path. Give us the wisdom we need to council our youth. Give us the wisdom we need when we vote for the leaders of this nation. Give us the wisdom we need in all areas of our lives. Now i am going to extend this prayer to the leaders of our nations. Lord our leaders world wide need your guidance. They are in a place where you can see the hatred spewing from them when they talk. Many leaders their hearts have hardened and have lost sight of what it means to truly be a public servant because of greed, because of corruption and because of the power trip they are on. Many leaders have turned away from you. Many leaders have used you as a way to gain support of specific groups. Many leaders have forgotten to help the people they aspired to help. As our elections continue. Whether voting early, whether voting via mail, whether voting in person, give the people of this nation the wisdom to make the right choice. Now I know you know who the winner will be across every election despite the polls projections, despite theories of man. You have chosen a winner. A winner for these various positions to be filled. I trust in your judgment. I pray dear lord that whomever the new leaders are that your pour out wisdom to them, may they receive this wisdom with open hearts. May they help steer this nation to a better direction than where we are currently at. May Bigotry, Hatred, xenophobia, racism, sexism and discrimination end from the top. Many of our are leaders are filled with this isms; these isms which are enticing violence. Whom are encouraging and enticing Violence and uprisings like never before and persecuting some whom are standing up. Give them the wisdom lord not to entice such actions with their words or action. To aspire to mend the brokenness of this nation. We need a leader lord who can bridge the gap and actually lead, we need a leader who will not tear this nation down. Yet Lord regardless what happens in election night; I will accept your will and decree and continue to pray for our people, people facing persecution, people living in fear, people being oppressed, people being innocently killed, and people being judged by this whom have no reason judging for our judgment day is approaching. I thank you lord for all that you have done and continue to do for me and my loved ones; I thank you lord for the provisions you have give and continue to give. I thank you lord for the lessons you taught me. I thank you lord for all you do.

Amén

Open my eyes to any deception … October Wisdom Challenge Day 9

Open my eyes to any deception … October Wisdom Challenge Day 9

“And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.”. 2 Corinthians 3:18 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you guide me by opening my eyes to the deception around me. My carnal eyes cannot see what my spiritual eyes can see. Sometimes we let ourselves be swayed by what we see around us, but I know we need to look deeper. So I ask, take my eyes dear lord, my eyes which in the flesh could barely see…. for in the flesh I am blind. Take my eyes and make them knew. Take my eyes and make them see in the spirit. Take my eyes and let me see what these carnal eyes cannot see. Today I ask that the eyes of my family, my loved ones, my friends, my church and my pastors are corrected, may we be able to see with the spiritual lens. May we take off our carnal glasses and put on your glasses to see what the holy spirit wants us to see. I also I ask that you continue to guide and protect my family, my loved ones, my friends, my church and my pastors May we remain covered under your wings, under your blood, with the protection of your angels, surrounded by your love, mercy and grace. May we be vessel’s of spiritual growth to others while we too continue to grow. Lord I ask that those in pain, those troubled, those with a physical need and those with a spiritual need needing healing or even a breaking my lord that you go ahead and let us intercede on their behalf this morning so that you can manifest and help them in their need. May their eyes be opened and realize that the Lord of host continued to provide at all times. May all of our eyes be opened not to be deceived and together and even respectively we shall glorify your name for your guidance, your love & the provisions you provide fulfilling your will, while guiding us.

Amén.

Give me the right words to handle … October Wisdom Challenge Day 8

Give me the right words to handle … October Wisdom Challenge Day 8

“For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict.” Luke 21:15 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. Today I ask that you guide by giving me the right words. Give me the right words for tonight. Give me the right words to address certain situation provide me with the words needed the way you provided the words to Moses. Moses himself was afraid, Moses stuttered, Moses didn’t think he would be capable of such a task because of his speech impediment. Yet you qualified him and he fulfilled his portion of your mission. You provided him words and his brother Aaron to do what you needed him to do. You provided Solomon with all his words, for his words come from the wisdom you gave him. Today I submit to you and ask you in all I do, even in situations I need to be extra cautious of what is said. Today I ask you to please give me the words I need. Today I am asking you Lord to look out for my family, my friends, my loved ones, my pastor and my church. Take these people I have mentioned and keep them covered under your protection, your mercy, your wings, I ask you continue to provide them with their necessities. I ask you keep them healthy and safe. I ask that in any circumstance they face, that they turn to you so you can fill their mouths with the words you deem right. Guide them in every situation with the right words, with the right attitude, with a humble heart. May they continue to seek your love and peace, and may that love and peace be reflected in them.

Amén

“Does not wisdom call out? Does not understanding raise her voice? At the highest point along the way, where the paths meet, she takes her stand; beside the gate leading into the city, at the entrance, she cries aloud: “To you, O people, I call out; I raise my voice to all mankind. You who are simple, gain prudence; you who are foolish, set your hearts on it. Listen, for I have trustworthy things to say; I open my lips to speak what is right. My mouth speaks what is true, for my lips detest wickedness. All the words of my mouth are just; none of them is crooked or perverse. To the discerning all of them are right; they are upright to those who have found knowledge. Choose my instruction instead of silver, knowledge rather than choice gold, for wisdom is more precious than rubies, and nothing you desire can compare with her. “I, wisdom, dwell together with prudence; I possess knowledge and discretion. To fear the Lord is to hate evil; I hate pride and arrogance, evil behavior and perverse speech. Counsel and sound judgment are mine; I have insight, I have power. By me kings reign and rulers issue decrees that are just; by me princes govern, and nobles—all who rule on earth. I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me. With me are riches and honor, enduring wealth and prosperity. My fruit is better than fine gold; what I yield surpasses choice silver. I walk in the way of righteousness, along the paths of justice, bestowing a rich inheritance on those who love me and making their treasuries full. “The Lord brought me forth as the first of his works, before his deeds of old; I was formed long ages ago, at the very beginning, when the world came to be. When there were no watery depths, I was given birth, when there were no springs overflowing with water; before the mountains were settled in place, before the hills, I was given birth, before he made the world or its fields or any of the dust of the earth. I was there when he set the heavens in place, when he marked out the horizon on the face of the deep, when he established the clouds above and fixed securely the fountains of the deep, when he gave the sea its boundary so the waters would not overstep his command, and when he marked out the foundations of the earth. Then I was constantly at his side. I was filled with delight day after day, rejoicing always in his presence, rejoicing in his whole world and delighting in mankind. “Now then, my children, listen to me; blessed are those who keep my ways. Listen to my instruction and be wise; do not disregard it. Blessed are those who listen to me, watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway. For those who find me find life and receive favor from the Lord. But those who fail to find me harm themselves; all who hate me love death.””
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭8:1-36‬ ‭NIV‬‬
https://www.bible.com/111/pro.8.1-36.niv

Help me to understand …. October Wisdom Challenge Day 7

Help me to understand …. October Wisdom Challenge Day 7

“God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore.”1 Kings 4:29 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. I ask for forgiveness; please forgive me for my past. Today I ask that you guide me to understand with your guidance. Help me understand your works, your love, your mercy, your greatness, your word, your spirit, your doings. I am human and when things happen I am guilty of crying But why God. Just like John the baptist questioned why am I baptizing the messiah. Sometimes I am like thomas and there I things I doubt and i need physical proof for. Gideon in his natural state balked at the words and the call when Israel was in trouble. Just like many of us, and I am guilty of He wondered, if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us? When God asked Moses to deliver the hebrews, Moses wrestled with this thought of what if they don’t believe me or listen to me? Jonah ran, when he was supposed to go to Nineveh, he didn’t feel worthy enough with all the emotions he felt towards them to be merciful, he didn’t understand Gods plan. How many of us can relate, we run from solutions, instead of amending them. We let our emotions take the better part of us. Jonah didn’t understand the bigger picture, neither did John, Peter, Gideon, Moses nor I. God your plan, your work is far greater than my comprehension. Help me to understand Like Solomon understood. King Solomon was the wisest man in Biblical and secular history. A man I love studying on both sides of my studies. A man who God said he could have absolutely anything and it would be his, he choose Wisdom. He chose wisely. I am seeking your wisdom. I am seeking your guidance, wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore. Lord I know I have at several times cried out and questioned, today’ I understand and accept what I faced in my past, for it brought me here back to you and back where I belong. In stead of but Why? I scream BUT MY God…. because MY GOD can make the impossible possible. instead of running, hiding, doubting, seeking proof I submit myself to you. Today I pray that my family, my loved ones, my friends, my church and my pastors. That no matter the circumstances they face, that they receive the wisdom and understanding needed to face their circumstances. That instead of crying out buy why God that they cry out But My God!!! But My God is mighty and powerful and get us all through this. May we continue to submit ourselves at his feet regardless of our situations.

Amén

October Wisdom Challenge Day 6 Fill me with grace oh Lord….

October Wisdom Challenge Day 6 Fill me with grace oh Lord….

“Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.” Colossians 4:5-6 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. I ask for forgiveness; please forgive me for my past. Today I ask that you guide me to be wise in all my interactions with people. Let your words flow from within these conversations. Let my words be your words, may my words be filled with grace. May you supply the words to help mend a broken heart, soothe a crying soul, provide hope for someone in despair. Let the words you provide comfort someone in need of your comfort. Fill me with grace but with your words and wisdom to help someone in need. Fill me with words and wisdom to also help myself to walk a better walk in your path and in your sight. Have mercy on me for I too am flawed. I am far from perfect, but I come to you in my most vulnerable and humble state for you to always guide me and remind me of what I need to be reminded of. I pray we can all be vessels to fulfill your will today, tomorrow and always. I pray for my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. May they too be filled with your grace. May they too be provided words and wisdoms to those whom they speak with so their answers can be answered with your word. May they too be guided and reminded of your glory to share in their encounters. May the splendor of your grace shine through us all today, tomorrow and always.

Amén

October Wisdom Challenge Day 5 Forgive me for my past

October Wisdom Challenge Day 5 Forgive me for my past

“Do not say, “Why were the old days better than these?” For it is not wise to ask such questions.” Ecclesiastes 7:10 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. I ask for forgiveness; please forgive me for my past. My past like the past of many is filled with questionable choices and actions. My past does not define me. My past is something I have learned from. My past may have had amazing moments, but where they ever truly better than the present?

Today’s verse warns about reminiscing of the past, especially a wicked past, especially a dark past, especially a past where God was not in ones life because you left him out. Today I reflect on today’s verse. I reflect on my current situation. I reflect on the things I need to work on in myself. I reflect yes on the memories of the old me. A me that has long died. A me that I no longer recognize. A me I no longer know. So much has changed throughout the years. So many different factors to consider. My days are different than the old. I cannot truly say they were better; because I know what was missing during those days. Though I lived, I experienced amazing things, there was a void in my life then, a void I no longer have. So when Solomon says it is not wise to ask these questions of the old day better than these, it’s because things were different in ones past than they are in ones present. Today I pray if anyone is feeling afflicted of ones past and ones present. Remember of what you have today that you didn’t have then. Remember of his mercy and grace. Remember It may have seemed better; but the path your on; despite the challenges yields a better reward. Today i put all my circumstances all my thoughts in Gods hands, I ask God to guide those reminiscing on the days of old because they feel better than today. May God guide you, illuminate your path, and remind you what is best has yet to come.

Amén

October Wisdom Challenge Day 4 Thank you Jesus

October Wisdom Challenge Day 4 Thank you Jesus

“It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.” 1 Corinthians 1:30 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. You provide wisdom, understanding and guidance in your word. For that and for all that you have provided and done for me I exalt your name and give you Thanks. King Solomon provided us your words in proverbs 4. He wrote these words to give us wisdom and understanding and guidance. He reminds us to embrace and cherish wisdom, for the wisdom you provide will love and protect. So God I turn to you to for the wisdom and understanding that can only come from you. God I come to you for guidance. I turn to you to help me right my wrongs. So I lean on to you with all my heart. I ask you to guide and provide wisdom, protect my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. May you guide us all with all the wisdom we need to continue walking in your path. May you provide us understanding so that we are able to fully discern and understand all that you want us to understand. Our minds are feeble, easily corruptible. Protect us Lord so that our minds are free from corruption. Thank you Lord for all you have done, all you continue to do, and all we have yet seen you do for those days have yet to arrive. I love you lord with all my heart. Once again I ask for your forgiveness for any sins committed. I submit myself to you and thank you for your Love.

Amén

“Listen, my sons, to a father’s instruction; pay attention and gain understanding. I give you sound learning, so do not forsake my teaching. For I too was a son to my father, still tender, and cherished by my mother. Then he taught me, and he said to me, “Take hold of my words with all your heart; keep my commands, and you will live. Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or turn away from them. Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you. The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding. Cherish her, and she will exalt you; embrace her, and she will honor you. She will give you a garland to grace your head and present you with a glorious crown.” Listen, my son, accept what I say, and the years of your life will be many. I instruct you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life. Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evildoers. Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn from it and go on your way. For they cannot rest until they do evil; they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble. They eat the bread of wickedness and drink the wine of violence. The path of the righteous is like the morning sun, shining ever brighter till the full light of day. But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness; they do not know what makes them stumble. My son, pay attention to what I say; turn your ear to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to one’s whole body. Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Keep your mouth free of perversity; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you. Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways. Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭4:1-27‬ ‭NIV‬‬
https://www.bible.com/111/pro.4.1-27.niv

October Wisdom Challenge Day 3 Give me Wisdom in the area of….

October Wisdom Challenge Day 3 Give me Wisdom in the area of….

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”James 1:5 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Today I repent for all my sins, for all my missteps and any wrong I have done knowingly and unknowingly. You provide wisdom. Give me o Lord wisdom in the area of my family and home. Lord we can always use wisdom to discern the dealings of home. Lord give me the wisdom to help my family. Lord give me the wisdom to guide and provide for my kids. Lord give me the wisdom to explain things clear and concise when they ask questions. Give me the words, give me the strength give me the wisdom needed for my day to day dealings. Lord I am flawed, I am imperfect and I rely on you for the wisdom I need. Lord King Solomon mentioned in prob 3 to trust in you with all my heart and understanding. So I lean on to you with all my heart. I ask you to guide and provide wisdom, protect my family, my friends, my loved ones, my church and my pastors. May you guide us all with all the wisdom we need to continue walking in your path.

Amén

October Wisdom Challenge Day 2 Open my eyes to opportunity….

October Wisdom Challenge Day 2 Open my eyes to opportunity….

“Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.” Ephesians 5:15-16 NIV

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Your provide wisdom. You provide understanding. Lord day after day you provide opportunities. Opportunities to right our wrongs, opportunities to seek you. opportunities to pray. You give us opportunities to repent. Opportunities in abundance is what you give. Many claim to be wise in this worlds but have proven unwise. Many take for granted the opportunities you give. Many abuse the opportunities that you give. No longer should we sit idle, as we see what is going on around us. As we see the signs of the times. As we see you moving and speaking. Open my eyes spiritually to see the opportunities you have laid before me. Open my eyes spiritually dear lord to be able to discern which path to take. Open my ears spiritually to be able to hear the wisdom that you have been pouring out. I will do as King Solomon days in proverbs 2. I will accept your words and command dear lord, i will store up your wisdom, for you are our shield. For you guard and steer us into the right path. Today i ask you to open the eyes of my family, friends, loved ones, church and pastors. Let us all be able to see the opportunities before us, let us all not only be protected, guided, and healed by you but may your wisdom transcend in us. Let your wisdom guide us in our walk.

Amén

“My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding— indeed, if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. For the Lord gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. He holds success in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones. Then you will understand what is right and just and fair—every good path. For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul. Discretion will protect you, and understanding will guard you. Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men, from men whose words are perverse, who have left the straight paths to walk in dark ways, who delight in doing wrong and rejoice in the perverseness of evil, whose paths are crooked and who are devious in their ways. Wisdom will save you also from the adulterous woman, from the wayward woman with her seductive words, who has left the partner of her youth and ignored the covenant she made before God. Surely her house leads down to death and her paths to the spirits of the dead. None who go to her return or attain the paths of life. Thus you will walk in the ways of the good and keep to the paths of the righteous. For the upright will live in the land, and the blameless will remain in it; but the wicked will be cut off from the land, and the unfaithful will be torn from it.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭2:1-22‬ ‭NIV‬‬

October Wisdom Challenge Day 1 Let my words be….

October Wisdom Challenge Day 1 Let my words be….

“The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom, and their tongues speak what is just.” Psalms 37:30 NIV

How many of us if were asked By God what we wanted, knowing we could truly ask for anything and get it at that given moment, would’ve taken the path Solomon did and asked for Wisdom?

Let’s be honest? I probably would’ve asked for a home, near a warmer climate, close enough yet far enough from a beach, more money or just enough to survive my life time, a place where I can provide for my kids and also invest to become my own boss.

Many like me would’ve asked for material things, things that would give us temporary happiness. Solomon was smart. He asked for wisdom. With Wisdom he knew all else would fall into place. He knew God’s wisdoms is far greater than anything else we could ever dream of. He knew … with God’s wisdom all else would fall into place. So like Solomon let us ask for the wisdom needed to face anything we are dealing with.

my prayer:

Lord thank you for all that you have done and provided. Lord this months challenge is a combo study of The wisdom in proverbs. Lord you are a provider for all our needs. Your provide wisdom. You provide understanding. Lord just like you helped Moses when he couldn’t get the words together you guided him with the holy spirit and used Aaron to help him. Proverbs 1 lord is full of wisdom; which you have given to your servant Solomon. He had an opportunity to ask for absolutely anything, he could’ve asked for more riches, more land, more wives and concubines, more of whatever his heart desired. Instead, he asked for Wisdom. This month I too ask for Wisdom, wisdom for my personal life, wisdom for my spiritual life, wisdom for my loved ones and family. May you provide my church and pastors wisdom….and even this Nation. We are living in times where everything is a mockery. We are living in times where people are not taking things seriously. Lord today aside from health, protection and guidance to those mentioned I ask for Wisdom. Give us the wisdom we need to move this nation forward and fulfill your will. Give us the wisdom needed when we make decisions. Give us the wisdom we need for every area of our lives.

Amén

Awareness – day 1

Currently I am reading another devotional series.

This is a 7 day devotional entitled: Seeking Wisdom‘.  If you want to read the full devotional click on the link. If not just wait daily for the next 7 days I will post their devotional with my own reflection pieces and prayers. I try my best to always include a prayer at the end of each post. I do so because prayer is just so important in ones walk. It is our direct line of connection to God.

Put away from you crooked speech, and put devious talk far from you. Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you. Ponder the path of your feet; then all your ways will be sure.”

Proverbs 4:24-26 ESV

 

This scripture is associated with the devotional. Before we get in to the message from the devotional, let’s look at the scripture. What do you take from this verse? What do you see. We need to be mindful of what we say, what come out of our mouths and how we say certain things is what I get from the first part of this verse. Then in the second part where the proverb tells us to look forward and look straight, is a reminder to me that no matter what we have been through in our lives we need to keep moving forward. The last part of this verse to me speaks volumes of how we walk in our walk. Think about what your doing, where you are going, why you are going that way, all the while looking straight ahead and moving forward. It’s the only way to surely know where one is going.

Did I loose you? Have you ever said or done something you regretted? We all have. This verse is gentle reminder that we need to be mindful in what we say and do, and how to keep focused, aware and know our surroundings and where we plan on going. My mistakes of my past, well that’s where they are in my past. As I walk my walk I need to be diligent in my actions, my speech, my everything not because of who is watching but because of My desire and passion to join God when my time comes. My words, my actions and my heart need to my in sync with the same goal. Living a just and holy as possible life so I can be with my creator. I need to focus On my destination, while looking forward to arriving to my destination, all the while reminding my self of where i came from, what i have done, what i never want to repeat so I can stay focused on looking ahead, walking forward.

We need to be aware!

This brings me to the devotional I read.

 

Day 1 Mala Ministries:

 

Awareness

In the pursuit of fame and in the search for significance, the material world consumes our pursuits and fatigues our desires. Every morning, people wake up and evaluate their past hope and their present situation, creating a mortal comparison that leaves them feeling more empty than full. The question you may have this morning is why your own efforts leave you wanting more. The answer is in the word of God, before the world of God. He who created the heavens and the earth sought it wise to make Him the only end of all pursuit.

A. W. Tozer once said that God never hurries. There are no deadlines against which He must work. Only to know this is to quiet our spirits and relax our nerves. Today, as you plan for the week ahead, reflect on the word of God and cherish through prayer the search for His wisdom; this is the correct use of the knowledge He gave you. To be an agent of wisdom, you must not exhaust yourself by seeking a new definition of His will; rather, enjoy yourself by showing a new demonstration of His will.

Pablo Cassals was a world famous cello player, and at the height of his fame, was asked why he kept practicing. His response was that he thought he was making daily progress. Genius has been described as the ability to focus on the task at hand. Becoming aware of your strengths and limitations is only possible through a deep awareness of God and His purpose for your life. David, the shepherd king of Israel, said: “I am constantly aware of your unfailing love. Awareness of this unending love is the beginning of wisdom.”

To be aware requires focus, and to be focused requires awareness. As you meditate today, ask God to help you become aware of His majesty. Your mind will open to possibilities and probabilities that you never even dreamed about. May your eyes be closed to all that distracts and your heart open to the abundance of His provision, which will set you on a new course.

My closing:

What a beautiful devotional about awareness. Just as this proverb reminded us. We need to be aware and focused. We need to always ask God for assistance, open to the possibilities to come. Your eyes need to be focused to the final goal. Reject distractions and anyone or anything that is leading you to deter back. No matter what happened in your past, when you trust in God, he will set you on the path you need to go to receive his glory and blessings.

Stay focused, stay aware, keep looking forward, remember where you want to go, remember and be mindful to what can take you off course, don’t fall in to temptation nor distraction, keep your eyes looking forward, trust in God and stay on your path with God.

Father God I thank you for another day, another opportunity to glorify you. I thank you for the air I breathe, for my ears that can hear, my eyes which can see, and all my senses which allow me to be aware of your majestic glory. I know my lord I am. It perfect. I have sinned before, I will no longer live in my past. Help me lord to keep my past just there so I can focus on you my lord and my walk with you. Help me lord to be aware of my surroundings, actions and words. Help me remain focused on looking ahead dear Lord so that I do not stray from your Path. I pray for whoever is reading this who needs this guidance in their lives. Lord I am asking that allow me to intercede for them in prayer, may these words, this prayer touch their hearts, their eyes, their ears, their soul so they too can be aware, look ahead, and continue their walk with you. In the name of the father, the son and the Holy Spirit Amen.

 

Wisdom

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“But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.” – (James 3:17)

We are exploring different types of wisdom in this verse.

We all have the wisdom gained from heard of experience. We have the wisdom’s gained from advanced academic education and schooling. We all have our stories, our journeys, our experiences which we feel define whom we are and how much knowledge we acquire in our cyclic life. We have all evolved through the years and our wisdom reflects our mental evolution.

This chapter describes a different kind of wisdom.

It describes a “Wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.”

The wisdom described in this verse is the wisdom that comes through God, through his word, through the Holy Spirit. The wisdom from above is pure, is peaceable, is gentle, is reasonable, is full of mercy, filled with good fruits, is unwavering and without hypocrisy.

We can all attain that wisdom. We can be wise based on our experiences, but nothing is greater than gaining that pure wisdom from above.

Father God, Lord of Mercy, Lord of love, today I ask you to fill me up with your word and your wisdom. Today started out with a hiccup dear lord. Despite the carnal wisdom, to no avail my hands are tied and bound and I am at your mercy. I submit myself to you and ask you for the wisdom needed to proceed. I ask you for the wisdom to face the challenge before me. For only your wisdom can heal my circumstance and take me to the next step I need to take. I submit my pain, my worry, my fears, my doubts, my concerns to you. Please provide the wisdom needed to move forward. Amen.