​ How to Keep Our New Heart Pure, Loving, and Soft toward the Lord

How to Keep Our New Heart Pure, Loving, and Soft toward the Lord
The link below is for an article i read with the title of this post. I want to give this organization all the credit hence why their link is below. As i read this scripture and article I knew I had to share what they wrote.
July 09 2017 (I know today’s not the 9th, but this is when I saw this post and I saved it to further analyze it, reflect and savior the message before sharing).  My commentary will be in bold.
Ezekiel 36:26New International Version (NIV)
26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
My husband once told me I was heartless, I was cold I was stubborn. My response to him was, man had made me heartless, man had made me cold…. I was born stubborn. My past experiences made me put up my guards with a fortified fence. I used to wear my heart on my sleeve. I was used, abused and ignored, only to be called upon when in need of something.
The article I referenced stated(which hit home in so many ways):
Before we were saved our heart was hard and cold toward God. We wanted many
things, even sinful things, but not God. We felt little affection for Him and had no interest in the things of God.
This first intro paragraph hit home, hard. Got me thinking of the times my husband said I was cold and heartless. He didn’t know the girl I once was, he met the family oriented girl who put her families needs above her own, he met the girl who’s been through betrayal, by friends and what at the time I felt by God. He met a girl who believed in charities but no longer had the will to fight or help. He met a girl who always believed in God but had gone silent and stopped praying. He had met a girl who has become stone cold, upset and turned her back on everyone whom has offended her, used her and showed they didn’t care. If they ever read this, they may not even realize it’s them I’m talking about. These people are so self absorbed that nothing matters but me. I can’t live like that, or associate with self absorbed individuals …. so I walked away…. a lot of things combined led to me going cold. My flame, that fire I once had was no longer igniting. I can resonate with this post…. let me continue with what the author says.
But God wants to have an affectionate relationship with us. So when we were born again, God not only forgave us and cleansed us of our sins, He also did something in our heart. Ezekiel 36:26 says,
“I will also give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you; and I will take away the heart of stone out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh.”
God renewed our heart of stone and made it soft, “a heart of flesh.” Now
our new heart loves God and is inclined toward Him and responsive to
Him. With this new heart, God wants us to enjoy all He is in a
relationship of love.
Since we all received a new heart when we were saved, why is this loving
heart evident in the lives of some but barely detectable in others? How
can some of our hearts seem to have become cold and hard, like they were
before? How can we keep our heart in its new soft and loving condition?
Yes this is a question I constantly face and struggle with. How can we keep our heart in its new soft and loving condition? Why is my loving heart detectable with some and not others? Why am i cold and hard to some, yet warm and bubbly with others. Why no matter how hard I try, I always kee my guards up?
The article continues:
Medical science tells us that for our physical heart to be healthy, we need to
exercise, even vigorously. But exercise doesn’t come naturally or easily
to most of us. Consider what it takes just to put on our athletic shoes
and go for a run. Even while we’re running, we have to exert ourselves
to keep going and not quit. And exercise isn’t a once for all matter; we
have to do it over and over again. But working out regularly isn’t
optional if we want a healthy heart.
Similarly, if we want our new heart to be kept in newness, that is, to be kept
loving, soft, and responsive toward the Lord, then regular, continued
spiritual exercise is needed. This is what makes the difference between
whether our new heart remains in newness or goes back to its old
Ha! if we are basing this on how health our heart is, then here her goes my answer, the most exercise I get is walking from my house to train, and from the train back.
The article continues with some very good suggestions:
So what is this regular exercise for our new heart? Since our heart is composed of our conscience, mind, emotion, and will, the “workout” our heart needs involves four parts.
1. Exercising our mind to turn our heart back to the Lord
Second Corinthians 3:16 says, “Whenever their heart turns to the Lord, the
veil is taken away.” Everything begins with turning our heart to the
Lord. When we were saved, we first repented and received Christ to begin
our Christian life. To repent means to turn, to have a change of mind
and direction. We realized we were sinful, and we turned to God.
But even after we’re saved, we still need to keep turning. Our minds are
easily distracted and can cause our hearts to turn away from the Lord.
Whatever turns us away from the Lord becomes a “veil” to us, keeping us
from seeing Him. Similarly, Matthew 5:8 says,
“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.”
To be pure means to be unmixed with anything else. When we’re turned away from the
Lord, our heart is impure toward Him. Our focus is split between the
Lord and something else. We have two goals in mind, two aims
our heart longs after, and we can no longer see clearly. Our future, our
career, even our work for the Lord can begin to compete with God in our
heart and occupy our mind.
So we need to exercise our heart by praying, “Lord, I turn to you right
now.” In fact, in the course of a single day we need to turn repeatedly
to the Lord. For instance, we might be thinking about a certain thing
and suddenly find we’re away from the Lord, so we need to turn. Later,
we might see a billboard that sticks in our head, and we have to turn
again. Then we begin to have negative thoughts about someone close to
us, and we have to turn yet again.
Again and again, when we realize we’re turned away from the Lord, we need to
turn our heart back to Him. It takes regular exercise. When we turn our
heart from all other things back to the Lord, we’re made single and pure
again, and the veils are taken away. This is a daily workout we all
2. Exercising our emotion to love the Lord
For us to have an affectionate relationship with the Lord, we need to
exercise the emotions of our heart to love Him. We may not think we’re
that capable of loving the Lord, but we can remember, He gave us a new
heart specifically to love Him! And according to Romans 5:5, His love
has been poured out in our hearts. He even told us in John 15:9, “Abide in My love.” Our heart is ready to love the Lord; we just need to start exercising it.
One way we can daily give our heart a “love workout” is by telling the Lord out loud
that we love Him. What an enjoyable workout! Just as a spouses want to
hear these words from each other, the Lord wants us to tell Him, “I love
You”—the more often, the better. How wonderful it would be if we were
to begin and end each day with, “Lord Jesus, I love you!” We can even
say it all throughout the day.
Telling the Lord we love Him not only makes Him happy, it also helps to nurture
our own love for Him. Exercising our heart this way keeps us in the
sweetness of His love and refreshes our love for Him. We enjoy Him and
sense His nearness.
We can also exercise our heart to love the Lord by singing to Him. As we
sing to Him, our heart warms and we love Him afresh. For example, we can
try singing a song like this. (You can hear the tune here.)
Give yourself to love the Lord.
No other way is so prevailing
And no other way, no other way is so safe.
Give yourself to love the Lord.
No other way is so rich,
And so full, oh so full, of enjoyment.
Each morning we must rise up and say to Him,
“Lord Jesus, I love You.”
Give yourself to love the Lord.
Do not care for anything else;
Just love Him! Do not care!
Give yourself to love the Lord!
We are not our own, Lord;
All we have we give to You.
Lord Jesus! Lord Jesus!
Lord Jesus, we love You!
3. Exercising our will to obey the Lord
We also keep our heart new by exercising our will to be obedient and
submissive to the Lord. We do this by saying “Yes” and “Amen” to the
Lord when He speaks to us in our daily life.
Perhaps the Lord speaks to us, “Don’t go to that place.” If we ignore His
speaking and go anyway, we disobey Him. Repeatedly disobeying God
hardens our heart toward Him. But if we go along with Him and say, “Yes,
Lord, I won’t go there,” we obey Him. This may be difficult, but when
we obey Him, our heart is kept soft and submissive. We enjoy Him and He
becomes so real to us, not in theory, but in our actual experience.
4. Exercising our conscience by confessing our sins
We exercise our conscience by confessing our sins to the Lord. Confessing isn’t saying, “Lord, I won’t do that again.” It’s saying, “Lord, I agree with you, that was a
sin. I sinned. I was wrong. Forgive me.” Confessing is simply agreeing with God when His light shines on something.
We shouldn’t be afraid to confess, nor should we try to hide our sinful
selves from the Lord. A strong believer is a confessing believer. We may
have years of unconfessed sins on our conscience, clogging our
spiritual blood vessels and resulting in poor circulation; we’re
“sickly,” that is, spiritually weak and lacking in God’s life.
Accumulated sins on our conscience can make us insensitive to our
conscience, causing us to lose the proper feeling toward sin. Our heart
becomes hardened, callous toward sin and unfeeling toward the Lord.
But confessing clears everything away; God forgives us and the blood of
Jesus cleanses us. We’re restored to fellowship and enjoy the flow of
God’s life in us again. Because our conscience is clear, our heart is
untroubled and peaceful, and we can have unhindered fellowship with the
Lord. We desperately need this regular exercise of confessing our
offenses to the Lord.
Paying a price to exercise
The thought that we can live any way we like, do whatever we want, and
still experience Christ as our life is harmful to our Christian life.
The experience of Christ is something precious; it has a price. In
Revelation 3:18, the Lord counseled the church in Laodicea, “Buy from
To buy something means to pay a price for it. It’s a spiritual reality
that to gain the precious experiences of Christ, a price must be paid.
Our own wishes, desires, and decisions are the price we pay when we
exercise our heart to keep it in newness. But by daily exercise, our new
heart is kept pure, loving, right, and submissive. When our heart is in
this condition, all the riches of Christ are ours to experience. And
the more we go on, the more we realize the price we pay is actually a
bargain for the unsearchable Christ we enjoy in return!
If you want to learn more about our heart, take a look at these additional posts: What Is the Heart in the Bible? and What Does It Mean to Love God with All Your Heart?
Father God I thank you for sending this message. As usual the timing was perfect. I feel love for some, and loved by some. I am warm and fuzzy to some and cold and hard to others. I need your help to keep turning, to keep your veil, to keep my heart warm and soft at all times, regardless. Lord I thank you yet again for this message which reached my inbox. I know I needed to share this, I know i needed to read this. Help me utilize the tools you have presented before me to be a better person. Amen.

God Got this.

Ecclesiastes 5:1-7
5 [a] Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. To draw near to listen is better than to offer the sacrifice of fools, for they do not know that they are doing evil. 2 [b] Be not rash with your mouth, nor let your heart be hasty to utter a word before God, for God is in heaven and you are on earth. Therefore let your words be few. 3 For a dream comes with much business, and a fool’s voice with many words.
4 When you vow a vow to God, do not delay paying it, for he has no pleasure in fools. Pay what you vow. 5 It is better that you should not vow than that you should vow and not pay.6 Let not your mouth lead you[c] into sin, and do not say before the messenger[d] that it was a mistake. Why should God be angry at your voice and destroy the work of your hands?7 For when dreams increase and words grow many, there is vanity;[e] but[f] God is the one you must fear.
I am not going to lie, I went to church doubtful with the upcoming event for next week.
When the idea for the event came up, everyone was litt, everyone was down.
When push came to shove, the people whom insisted we needed to do this backed down….they were not upfront….
I am not going to lie, I was upset with the news that someone dared suggest we reschedule after the event was planned and booked for and many were already making plans to pay on this specific day.
I am not going to lie I was upset that you wait until this day to tell me under the veil of someone else.
I am not going to lie I was upset.
Then the pastor read this verse to start the service.
Then that’s when it all changed for me.
Yes I was bothered, but no I was no longer upset.
God answered me.
God calmed me.
He said They are listening to this same message as you and this message is to be heard by all of you.
Then end of service, the pastors wife approached me about one of the individuals.
Honestly, I don’t trust that the person would be true to their word.
I will trust you until you flake, that’s just how I am.
What I did learn was God is in control.
I do not have to trust you.
I just have to trust in God.
What was interesting about this opening scripture as well is what happened to me when I went to bed the same night..
verse 7 says “For when dreams increase and words grow many, there is vanity;[e] but[f] God is the one you must fear.”.
I woke up this morning with a dream about the venue.
My dream kept reiterating to trust in teh Lord.
That He will provide.
I dreamnt of the venue.
I dreamnt of the turnout.
It was better than anticipated.
God Provided.
I have nothing to worry about.
You got this.
Father God, I am sorry for worrying. It was only natural for me to do so. You know the intentions behind this event and it is for all your Glory. Thank you for reminding me to trust you! Thank you for reminding me that You got this handled. I am just playing a role for your great deed.
I am grateful for being able to listen when you speak. I am grateful for you teaching me to listen when you show me a vision or a dream. I am able to forgive the trespasses for I know you have spoken to their hearts, just as you have spoken to mine. I thank you Amen.


Ecclesiastes 5:1-7
5 [a] Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. To draw near to listen is better than to offer the sacrifice of fools, for they do not know that they are doing evil. 2 [b] Be not rash with your mouth, nor let your heart be hasty to utter a word before God, for God is in heaven and you are on earth. Therefore let your words be few. 3 For a dream comes with much business, and a fool’s voice with many words.
4 When you vow a vow to God, do not delay paying it, for he has no pleasure in fools. Pay what you vow. 5 It is better that you should not vow than that you should vow and not pay.6 Let not your mouth lead you[c] into sin, and do not say before the messenger[d] that it was a mistake. Why should God be angry at your voice and destroy the work of your hands?7 For when dreams increase and words grow many, there is vanity;[e] but[f] God is the one you must fear.
I am not going to lie, I went to church doubtful with the upcoming event for next week.
When the idea for the event came up, everyone was litt, everyone was down.
When push came to shove, the people whom insisted we needed to do this backed down….they were not upfront….
I am not going to lie, I was upset with the news that someone dared suggest we reschedule after the event was planned and booked for and many were already making plans to pay on this specific day.
I am not going to lie I was upset that you wait until this day to tell me under the veil of someone else.
I am not going to lie I was upset.
Then the pastor read this verse to start the service.
Then that’s when it all changed for me.
Yes I was bothered, but no I was no longer upset.
God answered me.
God calmed me.
He said They are listening to this same message as you and this message is to be heard by all of you.
Then end of service, the pastors wife approached me about one of the individuals.
Honestly, I don’t trust that the person would be true to their word.
I will trust you until you flake, that’s just how I am.
What I did learn was God is in control.
I do not have to trust you.
I just have to trust in God.
What was inter sting about this opening scripture as well is what happened to me when I went to bed the same night..
verse 7 says “For when dreams increase and words grow many, there is vanity;[e] but[f] God is the one you must fear.”.
I woke up this morning with a dream about the venue.
My dream kept reiterating to trust in the Lord.
That He will provide.
I dreamed of the venue.
I dreamed of the turnout.
It was better than anticipated.
God Provided.
I have nothing to worry about.
You got this.
Father God, I am sorry for worrying. It was only natural for me to do so. You know the intentions behind this event and it is for all your Glory. Thank you for reminding me to trust you! Thank you for reminding me that You got this handled. I am just playing a role for your great deed.
I am grateful for being able to listen when you speak. I am grateful for you teaching me to listen when you show me a vision or a dream. I am able to forgive the trespasses for I know you have spoken to their hearts, just as you have spoken to mine. I thank you Amen.


Emmanuel—God with Us
We are so blessed because of Emmanuel (God is with us).
Emmanuel, Imanuel, Emanuel, Manuel in hebrew means God is with us. Immanuel not only says that God is with us but it expresses the wonder of the incarnation, that God “became flesh and made his dwelling among us”.
God is among us.
his presence is always with us all the time.
What an amazing blessing to know that God is with us.
Matthew 1:23 “’Behold, the virgin shall be with child and shall bear a son, and they shall call His name Emmanuel’ (which is translated, God with us).”
The bible refers to Jesus with 5 different names:
5 Names of Jesus in the New Testament and What They Mean; can be found in the link below.
Of these five names of Jesus in the new testament, one specifically is Emmanuel, which means God with us.
Isaiah 7:14. speaks of the naming of the naming of the virgin child as Emmanuel “Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.”
In the Recovery Version of the Bible, note 2 for Emmanuel explains its meaning:
“Jesus was the name given by God, whereas Emmanuel, meaning God with us, was the name by which man called Him. Jesus the Savior is God with us. He is God, and He is also God incarnated to dwell among us (John 1:14). He is not only God but God with us.”
Jesus is our God incarnated. The blessings of him being our Emanuel is not only for the Jews but the gentiles, the Samaritans and all whom believe in him. He died to accomplish eternal redemption for all. WE all have opportunity to join him in heaven. Best yet, he shows how he is with us.
We are blessed to have him always be with us.
We are blessed to never walk alone.
We are blessed for he knows what it feels to be in the flesh.
We are blessed because he loves us.
No matter where you go, no matter what you do, no matter what people say, no matter what life throws at you….God is always with us.
Thank you Father for being with us. Thank you father for fulfilling the prophesies. Thank you father for your love and always taking care of me. Thank our father for being merciful. Love you always. Amen.

​ if you have faith ….

if you have faith ….
“And Jesus answered them, “Truly I say to you, if you have faith (a firm relying trust) and do not doubt, you will not
only do what has been done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this
mountain, ‘Be taken up and cast into the sea,’ it will be done.””
(Matthew 21:21, AMPC)
Faith and staying true to one’s faith is a constant conversation.
IN the midst of any trials it is easy to loose faith.
I should know.
Mine took an extended leave of absence.
We must have faith and be firm in our faith.
We cannot doubt, as I once doubted.
We will never overcome our obstacles if we let fear over come us.
We all go through it.
We all have moments where our problems are overwhelming.
we all have moments where we want to throw in the towel and give up.
It’s during these times that we need to maintain a close relationship with God.
It is those moments that our faith needs to remain firm, so that we can cast out our problems.
Whatever you do, do not get discouraged.
Ask for him.
A brother, a sister, a friend, pastoral leadership, etc…. do not go through your struggles alone.
Every situation is different but god can make this situation turn in your favor.
Thank you father for the lessons you’ve taught me.
thank you for my strength, thank you for your guidance.
I have full faith that you have all the control in all the circumstances.
I may have been stubborn and mad, and weak at times, but you showed me that you got this.
Thank you for your favors, for turning around situations that seemed bleak. Thank you for the amazing work you do in my life. Amen

Strength, from weakness.

“And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.’…”
(2 Corinthians 12:9)
Strength, from weakness.
You know, Paul said it is when we are weak, he makes us strong. Here we are reminded that no matter what we are facing in our lives, when we feel we are at a point of no return, when we feel weak, if we confide in him, his strength will be enough to make it all worthwhile.
God can handle any challenge we face.
I know I constantly talk about hardships, its because we all go through them.
Its in our hardship that we need to trust in him, but not only that, when things are going great; praise him, glorify him, so he can always provide the strength you need when feeling weak.
One of the my most weakest moments in my life was child birth.
My oldest son was enroute.
We were in the delivery room.
I pushed, pushed and pushed.
He kept going back up.
It was like he did not want to come out in to this world (I kind of don’t blame him).
After about an hour of pushing, I felt weak.
My mom said a little prayer.
I found some strength.
Together my mom and my husband grabbed my legs, as I pushed, they pushed inward.
Poof the baby arrived.
I felt so drained, so weak, physically, emotionally, mentally weak.
This is a natural process that millions of women did before me and millions more will continue to do so after me.
I felt weak, it was through that weakness, with my mothers comforting words, God provided not only the physical strength from within, but exterior strength using my mom and spouse.
We need to always trust that God will handle all our circumstances and he will find a solution.
We also have to do our part in faith, with trust, to get towards that victory.
We have to pray, we have to believe,
and we have to press through to victory.
No matter what you are facing know his grace is sufficent to provide the strength.
Have faith, because when you are weak, he will provide the strength you need to cary on.
Father I thank you for the strength you continously provide. There are times I feel down and out. There are times I feel I will not make it. My faith in you has shown me that you have been able to provide, when I thought I would never. In my weakness, your provided strength. Your grace, your love, and you have always been sufficient for me. Thank you. Amen.

God’s Satisfaction and Rest

God’s Satisfaction and Rest
“After God has what He desires, He rests. What then brought rest to God? What
was it that gave Him such satisfaction? During the six days of creation
there were light, air, grass, herbs, and trees; there were the sun, the
moon, and the stars; there were fish, birds, cattle, creeping things,
and beasts. But in all these God did not find rest. Finally there was
man, and God rested from all His work.”
The excerpt from above can be found at the link above. I saw this post and I was intrigued by it. It took God 6 days to create the heavens and the earth. It wasn’t until the seventh day that he rested.
Days 1-5 he made light, the heavens, the earth, the oceans, the animals, vegetation and I am sure he must’ve been tired after all that, but he looked, he still didn’t feel satisfied. He spoke everything from creation into existence. Then he decided to take a seat and handcraft man. He hand craft man. He did not say let there be man and there was man, he didn’t say let there be a woman and proof eve showed up. Everything else from this point of the 5 days of creation were created by mouth. Light boom 🌞there comes the son, boom the moon 🌕🌖🌗🌘🌚🌔🌓🌒🌛🌜there goes the moon, I need earth :🌎🌍🌏, I need heavens ☁️☁️☁️🌈 I need plant life and vegetarians 🌻🌼🌸🌺🌹🌱🌿🌴🌲🌾🍄🍁 animals: 🐎🐫🐘🐩🐾🐲🐋🐬🐟🐠🦈🦀🦑🐢🕷🦋🐛🐞🐴🦆just like that everything appeared.
With man he sat down, he thought specifically how he would design us.
He molded us with his very own hands. He breathed life into us. He took his time: it was a lot of work to make man. Yet he did. I see why he rested on the 7th day. He designed us in his image. Even when he made Eve, he performed surgery, extracted Adams rib and created Eve.
He was satisfied with his creation and then he rested.
He rested after completing us.
I am very grateful for our lord and savior. I thank him everyday.
Everyday that I wake up is a blessing.
Everyday I see my children are a blessing. Every moment I spend with my children are blessings.
My family immediate and relatives are my blessings.
Waking up, standing up, breathing, loving, living, all that sounds simple but is a blessing.. be thankful, be grateful and praise him.

​ Light in the Darkness

Light in the Darkness
“When darkness overtakes him, light will come bursting in…”
(Psalm 112:4, TLB)
God is light.
In our darkest hours, many of turn to Christ fo help, why?
We seek his light to help us during our difficult times.
his light, when we allow him to pierces through all darkness and brightens it all.
When we go through difficult times it is important to lean on one another for support. It is important that we do not find ourselves in darkness. It is important we do not let the trials and tribulations take over us. It’s easy for that to happen, easy to get lost within the darkness.
I know first hand.
Everyone goes through difficult times, even the dutiful and the faithful. We were forewarned that following his way will come with persecution and hardships. It’s during these difficult and dark times that we need to remember we are not alone. God will forevermore be with us.
When I was just 18, about to begin my life, about to start school, still innocent, still pure, though I was aware of my carnal surroundings and a bit open minded, in many ways I was still very naive and in the dark to worldly affairs. It was easy to get lured despite being forewarned. It was easy to spiral in to a dark abyss, it wasn’t because of my lack of faith, it was because of my lack of trust.
Despite growing up in a church where everyone was pretty much family some way shape or form (the pastors are my brothers godparents….which makes us all family), I had trust issues. I had trust issues in church (I rarely opened up about my personal life). I had trust issues at home (tell a relative what’s going on and the whole family knows, even relatives you haven’t seen since you were in diapers….typical Latin household eh). I had trust issues outside in the world. I had that stone cold Steve Austin philosophy D.T.A. (Don’t trust anybody).
My biggest regret that I can openly discuss today, because looking back I was foolish, is that I should’ve opened up and discussed my issues. I never told my pastoral leadership, whom could’ve counseled me, prayed with me (though I do not doubt for a split second that my pastor has ever ceased to pray for me), I never told my fellow peers in church, whom could’ve helped me via their fellowship, words and prayers before I began to spiral, I never told my parents whom could’ve held my hands during this painful time. I never told my best friend…that is until she confessed she had a similar issue (five years later).
When I sat in that exam room and was told nope sorry, your chances of starting a family is like picking a needle in a haystack, my whole life was turned upside down.
I wasn’t sexually actively.
I was aware of my sensuality And sexuality.
I wasn’t engaging in anything.
I was just starting life.
I was just beginning to “find myself”
I was already being told my future would be without any off springs.
I was dating someone at the time…. who I had no idea where we were headed.
We weren’t even intimate.
We flirted.
We talked.
Sure we kissed.
We held hands.
We would see the sunset together.
We had a great time just being friends getting to know each other.
After my appointment I started pleading why God?
Instead of reaching out to loved ones and those who would genuinely be there for me, I turned to the arms of this older man I was dating and getting to know.
We drank, he smoked, while I inhaled his contact high.
We drank, we fornicated.
I drowned my worries.
He had no idea why I gave myself to him.
He had no idea I stopped caring.
He had no idea I was spiraling and internally in a very dark place.
I needed a burst of light in my life.
That burst came.
He sent me my husband who taught me to trust.
I then wanted To be a new.
I asked god for forgiveness.
I also had to forgive myself for my thinking and my behavior.
His light did burst through.
I received my blessings.
Now I talk about it.
You may notice ever so often I’ll continue to talk about it.
My past, my story, my pain, can be of help to someone else.
Maybe my mistake will be used to help someone else spiral down like i did.
It is easy to let the flesh win.
It’s a constant battle we have when facing trials.
Don’t let darkness overcome you.
Remember he is the light, the only light you need to illuminate your path.
It may be difficult.
You may need to surround yourself with different people.
You may need to open up to the right people.
You may need to refocus on your relationship with Christ.
If your in a dark spot, know your light will shed.
His light will pour upon you.
Just open up a bit.
Father God I thank you for your timing. I thank you for the people you’ve put in my life. I thank you for illuminating me in my tribulations. I am eternally thankful for you. You have shown me that you will always be with me, even when I feel alone. I ask that your light remain in me, with me and around me, so I may never end up in that dark place again. Amen

He Will finish

He Will Finish
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”
(Philippians 1:6, NIV)
Two years ago my husband decided he was going to redo the back yard. Two weeks before my sons 4th birthday he decided to break apart some of the cement with anticipation of getting it finished.
::insert Spongebob narrator voice here::  Two years later……
Weeds now grow where the cement once stood…. the back yard looks like a jungle no matter how often we prune and clean up. The discussion of the backyard being completed still comes up. Then again being home owners, other things come up as well. I know we will eventually redo the back yard to make it a comfortable usable livable space. I just have to trust and be confident that we will get to it. Sometimes there are other things in the House that need immediate attention (the roof needed to be done, since we sprung a leak, windows and doors need to be redone to further insulate the house, the foundation needs work, we need to ensure our foundation is sturdy… that takes precedence over the yard, and the list goes on and on… and on).
::insert Spongebob narrator voice here::

Two years later…… still figuring out what next we need to tackle before completing what we stared.

So what does this have to do with this verse? With God?
God works.
God is the architect of our lives.
So you’ve been praying for something, a miracle, a loved one, a new job, a promotion, or whatever. Maybe you see other blessings and god answering some prayers but not the one your really want.
Do not fret nor be discouraged, he has started working on your from conception. He has the blueprints of your future.
Things just come up.
Sometimes our foundation gets a crack, and we need to fix it.
He will get to your blessing or answer that prayer, there’s just other works in you that he needs to accomplish first.
Without a strong foundation your house will collapse right?
Well just like without a strong foundation in God, you can spiritually collapse.
He will get there, let’s let him work on the bigger issues in your lives that have cracks, need some patchwork, and then he can answer your prayers.
Trust and believe what he has in store for us is bigger and better than what we could ever imagine.
God is always good to us.
Always loving.
Always there.
He has the blueprint.
We need to trust and have faith that he will get the job done.
He will finish what he has started with you.
Nothing is too much for our lord. There is nothing he can’t handle. Keep counting your blessings. Keep praising him. Keep walking in your walk with him. Keep praying. Keep faith and let him work on what needs to get taken cared of and let him work at his pace.
Father God I thank you for the works you’ve done in my life. You know my prayers and my petitions. I know I may have some cracks that need to be repaired before some of my prayers and petitions can be answered. I know I too need to do my part, pick up my slack and labor along with you. I thank you for being loving, patient and kind. I know you are working behind the scenes to ensure I become the product of your likeness. I trust fully in you that you will finish your work with me. I will try to be as patient as humanly possibly knowing full well there’s a lot of work to be done. I stand strong and form in your word, knowing that my victory, is your victory, and you will continue to get all the praise and glory. Amen

Firmly planted like a tree

He will be like a tree firmly planted by
streams of water, which yields its fruit in its season and its leaf does
not wither; and in whatever he does, he prospers.”
Psalms 1:3
Tree’s usually represent life, mystic majesty, power, strength and stability. When we look at trees, where they are plated and rooted makes a difference as to the fruits it will bear. Will the plant survive, will any fruits come out of it? Planting a tree by the water you have a source where the tree can not only be nourished, but the the soil will be nourished. Usually trees planted near the water are healthier, bear more fruits, strong, filled with life, etc.
We are like trees.
We are planted with word of God.
Our spirit is fed.
We grow stronger.
our source of Water is the Word of God.
it is what nourishes our soul.
it provides the essential vitamins and nourishment for the tree to bear fruits.
We are the trees.
The word, and our relationship with the spirit is what determines if we grow and proposer.
PROSPER in everything you do.
What does it mean to be a tree? What is
Father God I want to thank you for planting the seed of life in me. I want to thank you for not uprooting me. I want to thank you for your nourishment and sustenance to help me yield my fruits in your season. Thank you for not letting me wither, for being in me and with me in all I do so that through you I can prosper. Amen.
side notes:
Tree references in the bible
Jeremiah 17:8 ESV
is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and
does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious
in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.”
Psalm 1:3 ESV
is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers.
Job 14:7 ESV
there is hope for a tree, if it be cut down, that it will sprout again, and
that its shoots will not cease.
1 Chronicles 16:33 ESV
shall the trees of the forest sing for joy before the Lord, for he comes to
judge the earth.
Matthew 7:17 ESV
every healthy tree bears good fruit, but the diseased tree bears bad fruit.
Daniel 4:10-12 ESV
visions of my head as I lay in bed were these: I saw, and behold, a tree in the
midst of the earth, and its height was great. The tree grew and became strong,
and its top reached to heaven, and it was visible to the end of the whole
earth. Its leaves were beautiful and its fruit abundant, and in it was food for
all. The beasts of the field found shade under it, and the birds of the heavens
lived in its branches, and all flesh was fed from it.
Revelation 22:14 ESV
are those who wash their robes, so that they may have the right to the tree of
life and that they may enter the city by the gates.
Genesis 2:9 ESV
out of the ground the Lord God made to spring up every tree that is pleasant to
the sight and good for food. The tree of life was in the midst of the garden,
and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.
Proverbs 13:12 ESV
deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life.
10. Revelation 22:2 ESV
the middle of the street of the city; also, on either side of the river, the
tree of life with its twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit each month. The
leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations.
11. Psalm 52:8 ESV
I am like a green olive tree in the house of God. I trust in the steadfast love
of God forever and ever.
12. 1 Kings 19:5 ESV
he lay down and slept under a broom tree. And behold, an angel touched him and
said to him, “Arise and eat.”
13. Genesis 3:17 ESV
to Adam he said, “Because you have listened to the voice of your wife and have
eaten of the tree of which I commanded you, ‘You shall not eat of it,’ cursed
is the ground because of you; in pain you shall eat of it all the days of your
14. Genesis 3:3-6 ESV
God said, ‘You shall not eat of the fruit of the tree that is in the midst of
the garden, neither shall you touch it, lest you die.’” But the serpent said to
the woman, “You will not surely die. For God knows that when you eat of it your
eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.” So when
the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was a delight to the
eyes, and that the tree was to be desired to make one wise, she took of its
fruit and ate, and she also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he
15. Romans 11:16-27 ESV
the dough offered as firstfruits is holy, so is the whole lump, and if the root
is holy, so are the branches. But if some of the branches were broken off, and
you, although a wild olive shoot, were grafted in among the others and now
share in the nourishing root of the olive tree, do not be arrogant toward the
branches. If you are, remember it is not you who support the root, but the root
that supports you. Then you will say, “Branches were broken off so that I might
be grafted in.” That is true. They were broken off because of their unbelief,
but you stand fast through faith. So do not become proud, but fear. …
16. Proverbs 3:18 ESV
is a tree of life to those who lay hold of her; those who hold her fast are
called blessed.
17. Isaiah 65:22 ESV
shall not build and another inhabit; they shall not plant and another eat; for
like the days of a tree shall the days of my people be, and my chosen shall
long enjoy the work of their hands.
18. Genesis 2:17 ESV
of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day
that you eat of it you shall surely die.”
19. Luke 6:43-45 ESV
no good tree bears bad fruit, nor again does a bad tree bear good fruit, for
each tree is known by its own fruit. For figs are not gathered from
thornbushes, nor are grapes picked from a bramble bush. The good person out of
the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his
evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth
20. Genesis 3:22 ESV
the Lord God said, “Behold, the man has become like one of us in knowing good
and evil. Now, lest he reach out his hand and take also of the tree of life and
eat, and live forever—”
21. Luke 13:6-9 ESV
he told this parable: “A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard, and he
came seeking fruit on it and found none. And he said to the vinedresser, ‘Look,
for three years now I have come seeking fruit on this fig tree, and I find
none. Cut it down. Why should it use up the ground?’ And he answered him, ‘Sir,
let it alone this year also, until I dig around it and put on manure. Then if
it should bear fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it
22. Proverbs 11:30 ESV
fruit of the righteous is a tree of life, and whoever captures souls is wise.
23. Genesis 3:12 ESV
man said, “The woman whom you gave to be with me, she gave me fruit of the
tree, and I ate.”
24. Ezekiel 17:24 ESV
all the trees of the field shall know that I am the Lord; I bring low the high
tree, and make high the low tree, dry up the green tree, and make the dry tree
flourish. I am the Lord; I have spoken, and I will do it.”
25. Judges 9:8 ESV
trees once went out to anoint a king over them, and they said to the olive
tree, ‘Reign over us.’
26. Deuteronomy 20:19 ESV
you besiege a city for a long time, making war against it in order to take it,
you shall not destroy its trees by wielding an axe against them. You may eat
from them, but you shall not cut them down. Are the trees in the field human,
that they should be besieged by you?
27. Genesis 18:4 ESV
a little water be brought, and wash your feet, and rest yourselves under the
28. Genesis 3:24 ESV
drove out the man, and at the east of the garden of Eden he placed the cherubim
and a flaming sword that turned every way to guard the way to the tree of life.
29. Genesis 3:11 ESV
said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten of the tree of which I
commanded you not to eat?”
30. Isaiah 55:12-13 ESV
you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills
before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall
clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress; instead of
the brier shall come up the myrtle; and it shall make a name for the Lord, an
everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.”

The Pruning Process

The Pruning Process
“He cuts off every branch in me that bears no
fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will
be even more fruitful.”
(John 15:2, NIV)
At home, I have a Garden that my mother in law began.
When she moved out of our home and went to Florida she asked that I take care of her babies (not my husband and kids, but her plants).
So I told her I would give it a try.
I have always wanted to have a garden.
I have always wanted to grow crops on my own.
I figured how hard could it be.
Then I remembered I inherited my mother’s Black thumb, and not my grandmother’s green thumb.
Ay Chi chi!!!!
Her babies are OK, I just attempted several times ( I still do, because I have faith one day my thumb will be green) to add to her garden.
Well, one thing I have gotten good at has been pruning the rose bush and tending to the weeds (note to self, check the garden for weeds).
I carefully take my pruning scissors and clip of the extra long thorny stems, cut it short so the bush could only grow but so high.
Trimming just enough to get rid of whats not needed, while still keeping the branches that will bring bulbs which in turn will beautify the yard with Roses.
That’s what God does with us.
He prunes every asepct of our life.
He is the Gardener and we are the Rose Bush.
We have periods in our lives, like plants where we begin this whole pruning process.
You start pruning right before it is time to harvest your fruits.
Everything has a timing when you start pruning.
You never begin pruning a plant late in the season.
You never let the plant or Bush grow too high.
That’s what God does with us.
Everything in his timing.
His timing is precise.
He begins his pruning process.
so you may ask what does God prune in my life?
Well…Lets just say he prunes anything he needs to so that you may bear spiritual fruitfulness.
The Term prune means:
Trim (a tree, shrub, or bush) by cutting away dead or overgrown branches or stems, especially to encourage growth.
‘now is the time to prune roses’
no object ‘to limit growth, prune in summer’
1.1 Cut away (a branch or stem) from a tree, shrub, etc.
‘prune back the branches’
1.2 Reduce the extent of (something) by removing superfluous or unwanted parts.
‘the workforce was pruned’
1.3 Remove (superfluous or unwanted parts) from something.
‘Eliot deliberately pruned away details’
So god Cuts or removes things in our lives that can prevent us from bearing fruit of his blessings and anointing.
He moves people out of your lives strategically.
He gets rid of things that will give you temptation.
He ends relationships, which may potentially drive you astray.
A new job may show up.
A promotion.
A lateral move in a company.
Your boss may assign you to a different office or cubicle.
Your barber / hair dresser may not be available today.
Everything is for a reason.
There is no need to question it.
God knows what we need to grow with him spiritually.
We need to not understand why or what.
We just have to be faithful and trust in his timing.
His timing is always perfect.
When things change in your life.
When friendships end.
When transitions in general happen in your life.
Do not question it, accept it for what it is.
God is pruning the weeds, getting rid of the thorns so that you and I can bear fruit and blossom.
Thank you Lord for your perfect timing. thank you for holding the clippers, thank you for being my gardener.
Thank you for pruning my life so i can be filled with your blessings and grow spiritually.
Thank you for pruning my life so I can be a blessing for others.
I thank your for your gentle love and care with me.
I thank you for always trimming the right amount, even when i begin to wonder why.
I know you have the definitive answer and that you are only doing what is necessary for me to blossom.
I trust you father with my past, my present and my future.

Be Proud for your people.

I am very proud of my mentor.
I formally gave her a shout out on social media a few weeks back but I wanted to share this major accomplishment here. This is someone whom I have nothing but love for, respect and admire.
The only way I can think of showing how proud of her I am was by doing so the Brooklyn Way. WHOOP, WHOOP.
I have admired her since the first day I met her.
I remember, many, many years ago when I sat in her classroom as an undergrad. A new transfer student, sitting in a class of a Lawyer, her strong bold presence, she was welcoming and intimidating.
I was in awe of her aura.
Positive, vibes always poured out of her.
I was in awe of her fluidity in combining colloquialism with academia to make a point.
She kept it real.
She kept it positive.
I was in awe each time she spoke.
Hung on to every syllable.
I was in awe of her character.
I was in awe of her writing and teaching.
Even her Book, In Search of Bliss, (ya’ll need to read this https://www.amazon.com/Search-Bliss-J-L-Rainey/dp/0979805201/ref=sr_1_6?ie=UTF8&qid=1496256490&sr=8-6&keywords=J.+L+Rainey), I can’t even tell you how many times I have read and re-read this book.
Reverand, Congratulations on your Ordination.
I have been so moved, so inspired and so proud of you.
I have been watching the clips of the ordination on the cyber lounge, I have been overwhelmed with emotions.
I keep wiping the tears of Joy.
I felt the Lords Presence with watching the clips.
You are beyond blessed Jah.
I knew then, while sitting as an undergrad that you were destined for greateness.
Now here we are, 2017, and you are being used by God, By the Son, By the Holy spirit to continue to spread your positive vibes.
You have been called, you have been chosen to lead.
You have been chosen to inspire others to seek his will.
This is only the begining of the greatness you are going to do in doing the Lord’s work.
You are going to lead an amazing ministry Reverand Jah.
I can’t wait to see where her ministry goes.
Much love and blessings to her on this new chapter in your life.
I will continue to pray over her.

N’sync with God

N’sync with God
“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.”
(Proverbs 16:9, NIV)
We can make all the plans we want.
It is the lord whom decides what will come to light.
sometimes our plans, or the pathways we want to take to fulfill our plans are not aligned with God’s plans nor the path he has already deemed for us.
Every wanted something, you accomplish it, you get the results you wanted, then knowing how you achieved your goal, you went ahead and tried it again and the results were, well not as we planned.
This happened to Moses. In Exodus 17 v 1-7
Water From the Rock
1The whole Israelite community set out from the Desert of Sin, traveling from place to place as the Lord commanded. They camped at Rephidim, but there was no water for the people to drink.
2So they quarreled with Moses and said, “Give us water to drink.”
Moses replied, “Why do you quarrel with me? Why do you put the Lord to the test?”
3But the people were thirsty for water there, and they grumbled against
Moses. They said, “Why did you bring us up out of Egypt to make us and
our children and livestock die of thirst?”
4Then Moses cried out to the Lord, “What am I to do with these people? They are almost ready to stone me.”
5The Lord answered Moses, “Go out in front of the people. Take with you some of
the elders of Israel and take in your hand the staff with which you
struck the Nile, and go.
will stand there before you by the rock at Horeb. Strike the rock, and
water will come out of it for the people to drink.” So Moses did this in
the sight of the elders of Israel.
7And he called the place Massaha
and Meribahb
because the Israelites quarreled and because they tested the Lord saying, “Is the Lord among us or not?”
When they Hebrews needed water God specifically told him, strike the rock. He struck the rock, and water flowed. God told him to Strike the rock. There was another time where they needed water again. Moses knew he had already done so before…. his out come was slightly different.
The Water of Meribah Numbers 20 vs 8- 13
      8“Take the rod; and you and your brother Aaron assemble the congregation and
speak to the rock before their eyes, that it may yield its water. You
shall thus bring forth water for them out of the rock and let the
congregation and their beasts drink.”
9So Moses took the rod from before the LORD, just as He had commanded him;
10He and Aaron gathered the assembly together in front of the rock and Moses said to them, “Listen, you rebels, must we bring you water out of this rock?” 11 Then Moses raised his arm and struck the rock twice with his staff. Water gushed out, and the community and their livestock drank.
12 But the Lord said to Moses and Aaron, “Because you did not trust in me enough to honor me as holy in the sight of the Israelites, you will not bring this community into the land I give them.”
13 These were the waters of Meribah,[a] where the Israelites quarreled with the Lord and where he was proved holy among them.
This time, he said speak to the rock, not strike the rock. That was not God’s way, nor path to the water. “Because you did not trust me enough”. Moses and AAron did not trust enough for that given moment.
We do that all the time. We are a very pessimistic bunch. We question and second guess everything. We barely trust ourselves. Lack of trust in God is what deters outcomes to repeat.
He is very specific with every detail in everything we do.
God had a different plan to show how he can bring water from the Rocks.
The Goal may have been the same, the steps to achieve this was different.
The lesson we have here is that we need to stay awake, or be “woke”. We need to be open and be willing to receive our instructions. We need to be In Sync with God’s plan. A small tweak to the instruction, a small tweak to the performance, an extra little minor step, you may not view it as a minor step, but there is a reason for that extra step. That is what makes the difference in achieving the outcome.
As you go by your day, as you go by your routines, make sure you are in sync with God, make sure you are not doing things out of habit, because this is just how you have done it before. Listen to God, The Holy spirit will guide you. Follow his lead. Keep focus, remain in prayer. Stay in sync with the plans he has for you. Remember we all have goals, plans and dreams, these goals, plans and dreams may not be what God has in store, and if they are, achieving them may not be the way you expected to achieving them.
God I want to thank you for always leading me. I want to submit my mind, heart and soul to you. I want to stay connected to you to be able to see, hear and understand what you want me to do. I want to remain close to you, I want to be in sync with you in every step, action, breath I take. I want to achieve the goals you have in mind for me. Never living in the past, never taking the same steps, looking towards the new path with you. Looking forward to what you have planned for me. Amen.

Seed for me….

“…For God has appointed another seed for me…”
(Genesis 4:25, NKJV)
What does If mean he has another seed for me?
Are we planting a garden?
Will these seeds bear fruit to edible vegetation?
He said he has another seed for you.
In these chapter of Genesis, Cain killed Abel. Cain killed his brother. Could you imagine how tragic that must’ve been for Adam and Eve to know that their son killed their other son. They had faith and with that faith God planted a new seed, Seth.
What we see here is simple. We have times where things are in a disarray. Nothing is where it should. We feel like all is crumbling. Trial and tribulation after heartache and more trial and tribulations. It’s here when our faith and trust in God is fully tested. He planted a new seed in Eve. In Eve’s case her seed was a new offspring. A new life to bear fruit. To be of glory to God.
Sometimes when we are going through rough patches it’s Not the enemy tempting us. Sometimes God allows things to happens to test our faith in him, our trust in him. Sometimes our rough patches are self inflicted. Cains jealousy towards Abel caused his own depression and was the reason his bitterness got to him. He didn’t put it in Gods hand. He took actions on in his owns hands. Had Cain repented, admitted his wrong doings instead of denying them he too could’ve received a new seed.
His lack of faith caused his banishment.
Eve though trusted, her trust allowed her despite her heart break to be able to start a new with her new seed (Seth).
When we pass through obstacles we are given opportunities by God to seek him, to trust him. It will always go one of two ways. He will provide you the seeds you need, or you will continue down that spiral until you come to him trusting in him proving your faith in him.
Dear reader, when life gives your hurdles you can’t jump over, when you go through things you do not understand, when no matter how hard you try you feel that nothing is going right, know it is not the end. Know this is only the beginning. Get down, pray, trust in him, he will give you a new seed. Not only will he provide the seed, but he will provide the space where to plant, the soil and fertilizer to nourish the ground, the hoe, hose, shears, watering can and all the spiritual gardening tools you need to plant the seed and bear fruits.
You my dear are that seed.
I am that seed.
Let’s open our hearts, mind, eyes, ears and soul.
Let’s trust in God.
Have faith in God.
Your future is dependent on that seed.
Your blessings are the fruits of your labor.
Your gifts from God are the fruits of your labor.
Your past will remain where it is at.
Do not resonate in the should have, could have, would have’ instead focus on how God can use you for his glory.
Keep praying, keep believing, keep hoping because God is for you. Trust Him, have faith in him and embrace the good things He has in store for your future!
Thank you father for allowing me to see that you will always provide the seed I need to bear fruit. Thank you for allowing me the lessons to grow closer with you. Thank you for providing me the tools and resources needed to tend the seed so that we can bear fruit in your glory. I pray for you person reading this, may this provide you the tools needed to begin sowing the seed God has just given you. Amen.

​ Importance of testimony

Importance of testimony
“Remember the wondrous works that he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he uttered.”
(Psalm 105:5, ESV)
We are instructed in this psalm to testify. We are to remember the works, the miracles and judgments God has done. How best to do that than to testify on the blessings, miracles and wonders he has provided in your life.
We are to remember what he has done.
We are to share these memories so other can learn from them.
We are to remember and share so others can be inspired.
We are to remember and share so that others’ faith can grow.
We are to remember and share so that our faith can grow, sometimes we need that reminder.
Remember What He Has Done.
When I had lost all hope, I was in my own personal despair.
I had threw in the towel.
I had decided that its over.
He said no!
I have just begun.
At first I wasn’t sure he was talking to me.
He kept talking.
Kept showing signs and my miracle happened.
Ever so often I talk about it.
I’m doing so it reignites that fire within me.
Reignites my faith.
I give him praise and glorify his good deeds each time I remember.
Lord I thank you for the blessings you’ve given me. I thank you for allowing me to witness your works. Today as I remember the marvels you have blessed me with I glorify your holy name. It was you who made it all possible. You are good, mercifully and loving. Thank You for
loving me. Thanking you for your mercy, though I do not deserve it. Thank you for your. Blessings. Thank You for setting me free. Love you always. Grateful always, and always I will life your name in praise, love, admiration and gratitude. Amen

Immeasurable and unlimited greatness.

“And [so that you can know and understand] what is the immeasurable and unlimited and surpassing greatness of His power in and for us who believe…”
(Ephesians 1:19, AMPC)
Immeasurable and unlimited greatness.
Paul in his epistles to the Ephesians writes about in the days to come, with our faith and love to Christ we will see and receive blessings that are Immeasurable and unlimited. These gifts, miracles, blessings will surpass in greatness any blessing you received thus far.
You think you’ve been redeemed and have benefited from Gods anointing and blessings. Well my fellow brother, sister and reader let me tell you that we ain’t seen nothing yet.
To me my children were the greatest gift I have ever received. I know I have shared in previous posts about my struggles and my blessings, but for you whom just so happen to be visiting for the first time, let me fill you in. This word may in fact be for you.
I was told I couldn’t ever conceive, cancer cells were found, I was treated, defeated the cancer, despite the blessings of not having any more signs of any cancer cells in over 13 years…..(thank God for that blessing)… I was told I would never have kids. Scientific evidence were statistically against me. My own biology was against me. My tilted uterus did not help.
God told me it will happen.
My children were both prophesied to me.
So yea I feel my children is my greatest blessing.
I battled years of depression.
Battled fears of what if the cells regenerate.
Battled fears of what if I caught something else…. I was careless prior to getting married, using my depression as an excuse to be promiscuous and drown my worries away.
My promiscuity led to many miscarriages.
God said he loved me.
God said to trust him.
God said have faith.
At the time my faith, well it was on a hiatus.
I am not proud of the Hiatus.
Yet I turned back to God.
I rekindled our relationship.
I found my faith, again.
I always loved God.
I was angry.
I asked for forgiveness knowing he already forgave me.
I had to forgive myself for being a bratty stubborn child.
So yes at this moment my children are my greatest blessing.
Yet Paul says, in the days to come we will be able to understand… “what is the immeasurable and unlimited and surpassing greatness of His power in and for us who believe”.
We will be able do more.
More what?
We will be able to heal.
We will be able to bless others.
We will be able to cast our demons with a force unlike any other.
We will be able to anoint.
We will be able to fully embrace our true potential that God had intended for us prior to sin entering our lives.
We will be whole.
We will be anew.
We will receive this special gifts and blessings.
We will be living the way God had wanted us to.
I can’t even begin to imagine the greatness that will be accomplished in his great and holy name.
You feel your at the epicenter of your blessings….. well we ain’t seen nothing yet.
I ask you to keep faith fellow brother, fellow sister, fellow reader. I ask you to open your heart, mind, souls, ears, be willing to receive what God had planned. Today’s blessing may have been top 10, top 5 or top 3, but the best is yet to come.
Father God I thank you for my blessings and gifts that are immeasurable. The mere fact that I am able to write at this moment is a blessing in itself. It is for you which we love. I believe you created us with greatness to fulfill your works. We are eager and and willing to do your will. By faith, by my trust in you, by my love for you, I look forward to the immeasurable and unlimited and surpassing greatness of your power in and for us. I am ready when you are ready to use me. Amen.

Marital lessons

My husband and i were having a disagreement the other day. He began pressing my buttons. I was getting frustrated. I would come back day what I needed to say, educate him, and he would come back with a sarcastic remark. He does this from time to time to get a reaction out of me. He finds it funny. He knows I have a short fuse.
But I love my husband.
So this time around I decided I will not spazz out. I will be the bigger person. As much as he almost brought me to the point of wanting to give him some sweet chin music, and
put him in a sharp shooter. ( wrestling reference).
He continued.
So i decided to be quiet.
End the war of words. (No one was cussing, if that’s what your thinking).
The war of words is that battle to see who gets the last word in.
So I stay quiet.
Cross my arms in front of me.
I pouted. Yes I pouted like my two year old would.
As in pouting he keeps going, as he keeps going all I’m thinking, “i so want to give him the mandible claw. (Google mankind mandible claw WWE; Mick Foley mandible claw, mr socko wwe).
Again wrestling reference. ( let me explain I grew up watching wrestling).
As I’m enjoying the view of me presumptuously giving my husband whom I love dearly the mandible claw to shut him up, I hear my six year old giggling.
He found the whole thing amusing.
We all started laughing.
How ridiculous we must have looked.
We forgave one another as nothing ever happened.
Some things are not worth being mad about. Laughter is usually they medicine to offset anger. Sometimes what we are angry about are petty.
Sometimes the best solution really is to laugh it out.
We had our difference of opinions, we had our little Tiff, yet at the end of the whole 15 minutes of the whole situation, we spent 10 of them laughing.
God diffused the situation.
We both realized how foolish we were.
We went home.
We enjoyed our time as a family.
To be quiet honest, I don’t even remember what got us there. That shows me that subject was not even worthy, we had no reason to fuss, the mere fact that we both suddenly have a case of amnesia is merely reason enough for me to say, God it wasn’t worn it. It wasn’t even worth remembering. An insignificant moment disagreement, where the only thing we can remember is the laughing.
Love each other, live with one another in peace, Laugh more. Fight less.

His Thoughts

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a
future and a hope.”
(Jeremiah 29 11)
No matter what anyone thinks of you.
No matter what anyone says about you.
No matter if people claim you are destined for failure.
Have faith in knowing that none of that matters.
His thoughts of you is what matters.
All he wants is for us to have peaceful lives, he has plans to give us a future filled with hope not despair.
We have all been in situations where we were brought down emotionally by those we sought out council because in their eyes we were not worthy.
We didn’t meet a specific standard in their eyes.
Our abilities or talents were not up to par to their views of things.
We also judge ourseleves the way other’s judge us.
Man, I messed up pretty bad.
Man I regret what I did.
Many thre is no getting out of that.
Man there is no hope for me.
Geez, why? what now?
You begin to think your future is bleak.
You begin to live with that seed of doubt.
You begin to live with that seed of depression.
You begin to live with that sed of failure.
You proceed to live with that seed of self conviction.
What we need to realize is that our short comings, our mistakes are not powerful.
How others define you is not powerful.
These internal and external attributes we focus on does not define you for who you are.
God is up there, looking down at us wanting to give us a cocotaso (knock some sense in to you, in laymans term) and say, child listen.
I have plans for you which are greater than you can comprehend.
I need you to uproot those seeds of doubt, depression, failure and convitions.
I need you to let go of what was said to you.
All that is nothing, compared to the mighty things I can do with you.
All that is petty and Mediocre compared to what I see in you.
Your plans may have been ruined.
Your plans may have hit a snag or bump in the road.
God already has the answer with a back up plan, an alternative route, the gps is re-calculation, you just have to listen.
Open your eyes, humble your heart, open your ears so you can move forward with what God has instore for you.
What he see’s no one else can see.
What he has planned no one else has planned.
When you hear his voice, don’t be scared.
Tust in his guidance.
He will give you peace, love and hope for your future.
Father God I thank you for viewing me as your loving child. Thank you for accepting me and loving me despites my mistakes, despite my failures, despite my downfall. I ask, as I always do, to allow me to always hear your guidance and direction. To always be able to discern your vioce so I can follow your command. To allow me to uproot an seeds of negativity so that your will can be done. To be able to rebuke negativity entering my life. To not allow anyone’s opinion of their views of my personality to take away what you have instore for me. I am looking for peace, which only you can provide, with love, that only you can provide, with hope for the future you have promised me. I trust your holy name. Amen



Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer. Psalms 19:14
Our Words, Our heart, Our Thoughts should be aligned with what is acceptable in Christ.
Our words are powerful.
Our words can build up nations.
Our words can lead to riot and wars.
Our words can hurt harm and cripple someone who looks up to you.
Our words can build bridges.
Our words can provide comfort.
Our words can bring healing.
Our words can bring salvation.
Our words are not merely just words.
Our words can proclaim and prophesize your future and those you speak to.
Our word can bear seeds.
Our words can bring fruit positivity.
One has to meditate and ask for guidance from God for the words we speak.
Let our words, Our Thoughts and our hearts be acceptable to God.
GOD I pray for guidance, wisdom, knowledge and the ability to filter what come out of my mouth. I want to meditate in your word, so that your words can filter out of my mouth vs. my words. I want to have a pure heart, so that my heart, can be acceptable to you. Amen.

Recipe for Spiritual Growth

2 Peter 1:5-9 ESV
For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. For whoever lacks these qualities is so nearsighted that he is blind, having forgotten that he was cleansed from his former sins.


When Peter wrote his letters to the followers of Christ he wanted to show them support, encouragement and provide direction. A mentor so to speak.
New follows of Christ need that kind of assistance to guide and reassure them so they do not get distracted. He states “make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love.”


This right here was Peterson way of showing exactly what you need to spiritually grow and supplement ones faith.
One needs:

  • Virtue
  • Knowledge
  • Self control.
  • Steadfastness
  • godliness
  • Brotherly affection
  • And love.


Here is a historical backdrop as to what was going on at the time and why Peter felt the need to provide the recipe to grow in faith.


The churches of Asia Minor were struggling with the persecution and suffering, this is s addressed in the letters in first Peter. The churches also had strife and dissension within each other and ranks. He wanted to steer the church away from false teachings. He wanted to show the importance in learning the word. He wanted to show them the importance in proper knowledge of God.


He emphasizes spiritual growth. Growth in ones faith, growth in ones understanding. Growth in knowledge.


Peter wants the church to have spiritual maturity through the Word of God, to avert from false teaching and a right response to heretics in light of Christ’s promised second coming.


He addresses his readers to encourage them so they can follow his lead with the recipe he provided. He encouraged the seeking and acquiring true knowledge of God. He encouraged diligently living our lives in faith. He encouraged living in peace and being as pure as possible so when we face jesus upon his return to be judged for our actions and deeds, we can be viewed spotless, clean, blameless and without sin.


Look we all go through difficult times. We also see that at the foundation of the church and the ministries of Jesus’ followers, they too had trials and tribulations. They too faced hardships and persecutions. Peter hands us the encouragement and the recipe needed to grow spiritually.

So let’s take a close look at the meaning to this recipe he provided:


You get a spoonful of Virtue, a cup of Knowledge, two cups of Self control, 2 tablespoons of Steadfastness, a liter of godliness, a quart of Brotherly affection and a gallon of love. **With all recipe you tweak the measurements to taste.
Mix these ingredients well.
Let it set.
Viola! You have begun taking those first few steps to grow spiritually with God.

Father God I thank you for instructing the writers of the Bible. Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth. You have left us with the Basic Instructions for us to utilize, live a hearty, whole and pure life to your stading, before we perish earth and join you. I thank you for allowing prophet to provide the buidling blocks of our spiritual walk with you. I thank you for this recipe, for allowing this to be a a guide as to what characteristics we need, how we should behave, how we should be with one another, how to grow, how to not loose sight of the truth, how to not be misguided nor misled. I thank you for the blueprints. The hardest job of any instructional manual is paying attention and following along. I ask for the strength needed, especially during trouble times so that I can grow closer to you. Amen.

Let it go

“Then Jesus said, ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.'”
(Matthew 11:28, NLT)
God wants to carry on our burdens. He wants us to rest, in order to rest, be assured you have to let it go and give God your burdens.
“Let it GO, Let it go,
can’t hold me back anymore.”
Once you let go of your burdens, you suddenly feel anew, you feel refreshed, you can now rest assured that things will get better.
IT is easy to get caught up in the midst of your troubles, but when you let it go those sleepless nights you stressing are done with now with God taking over your burdens.
In order for this to happen you need trust, trust in him.
You need faith, faith that he will take control and that you will rest. You need faith that he will address your troubles so that you can be liberated and free.
God wants you to enjoy your life, he wants to take care of all your problems and concerns. Let it go, let it go to him. Don’t let fear hold you back anymore.
Today, I ask you to Let it go. Release your trouble to the Lord. Let him take charge and fill you with the peace and joy you so rightfully deserve. Receive his blessings. Receive his promises.
Father God today I humbly come before you to ask that you take away my pain, take away my worries, take away my burdens. I choose to let it go so I can be free.
I want to freely live in the walk of your way. I want to be able to rest in the way you see fit. I have total faith and trust in you my lord.
Thank You for Your goodness, grace, love, compassion, guidance and freeing me of my worldly troubles. Help me find ways to share Your goodness with those around me today, tomorrow and always. In the name of the father, in the name of the son and in the name of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Tourist Dance

As a native New Yorker I am used to the crowds, used to the sites, used to the visitors.  What I could never get used to is the sudden stops, the not paying attention, the collisions that almost happen.  We operate here on a whole other time schedule than the rest of the world it seems.  New Yorkers we are always on the go. So to help prevent the collisions with the tourists whom are not paying attention to their surroundings in awe and mesmerized by our beautiful city, we have a dance just for you.

Tourist Dance
The city that never sleeps.

Oh how I love thee.

The thought of leaving you makes me weep.

Your gentle and embracing vibes.

There’s so much to do here and so much to see.

From all over the word many come with their tribes.
Our streets are packed,

People everywhere.

And when they are here we are sure to act.

They are here and they are there.

Lord there’s people everywhere.
Us natives have this special dance.

So that walking we do not clash.

As soon as we see it within that first glance.

We get it started in a flash.

We zig,

We zag,

We do a little jig.

We zag,

We zig,

We do a so with some swag.
We dab left.

Sharp right.

We do it with so much zest.

We dab right.

We swing left.

We avoid you with all our might.
Our dance for you is one of a kind.

Our dance for your well being.

It’s because dear tourist you quickly become so blind.

You get absorbed in the sights you are no longer seeing.
We have families to get to.

We can’t wait on you.

The fast paced lives is our thing.

It is ingrained within

We have places to be,

People to see.

A bus, train, ferry or cab to catch.

We can’t sit back while you light a match.

We can’t sit back while your taking a glance.

It’s for you we have this dance.

So when we have to get to where we have to go,

In our fast past walks,

You do not get hot with a blow,

For your sudden stops.


Dedicated to those whom were taken too soon at Pulse and to the survivors whom were fortunate enough make it out alive.
Thud, Thump, thud.
My hearts song live.
Thud, thump, Thud.
My heart finds its beat.
Thud, thump, thud.
Love is all I have to give.
Thud, Thump, Thud.
The rhythm which pulsates through me is so sweet.
Thud, Thump, thud, bang.
A year ago today, many lives were taken.
Thud, Thump, bang, bang.
A year ago today, many fears were awaken.
Thud, Thump, bang, bang.
A year ago today many lives where shaken.
smash, crash, thud thump.
A year ago today, many hearts were broken.
Today survivors replay that horrible night.
Knowing full well that what was done was not right.
Lives destroyed.
Families in pain.
Many keep busy, they just want to avoid.
The memories of the stains.
Regardless of one’s belief.
Difference of opinions should not make it right.
To take someone Else’s life.
Purple, Pink, Orange, yellow, Green Blue.
Because of the Pride in their flag.
It is not up to you.
Purple, Pink, Orange, yellow, Green Blue.
To them, they are more true than you.
They are open and honest of whom they are.
accepted or not, they are people too.
Sine bright, shed love, shed peace for all.
Families of Pulse, my heart and prayers goes out to all of you.

Believe & Declare

“It is written: ‘I believed; therefore I have spoken.’ With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak.”
(2 Corinthians 4:13, NIV)
Believe and Declare in your heart that He will provide for you.
Believe and Declare that you will overcome the obstacles before you.
Believe and Declare that you will be healed.
Believe and Declare that the storm shall soon pass.
Believe and Declare it, with faith and trust in your creator for he has spoken these words to us, not just to say them to reassure us that when we truly believe, when we truly rely on him, when we believe and declare with faith, passion and the fire of the love of Christ, everything we declared will come to pass in his timing.
Despite my obstacles in my past.
Despite being told I would never be able to conceive and birth a child.
I believed and Declared that the sciences were wrong.
I believed and declared healing.
I believed and declared God would provide for my barren womb in his time, which he did.
I ask you today, to believe, with all your heart, declare it with every fiber in your being. If it is God’s will it shall be done.
Father God I thank you today for reminding me to always believe and declare victory in your name. Even when things are not going the way I want or expect, I declare and believe in your name that things will turn around. Father in the midst of difficult times I declare and believe we shall over come them. I pray for you reading this today. I do not know your circumstances nor yoru hardship, but with you together I believe and declare that you shall come through this. The time will pass and you will be rejoicing with God your victory. I pray that you can believe, so you can declare it in faith. Amen


I Am
“God replied to Moses, ‘I Am Who I Am…’”
(Exodus 3:14, NLT)
I Am, God replied to Moses he is I am. He is. He is everything you need.
In the midst of your sorry I AM your refuge.
In the midst of Joy, I AM the one who brought this blessing.
I am all you need. I am The alpha and the Omega.
I am the beginning and the End.
I am your salvation.
I am your hope.
I am your joy.
I am peace brought to you.
I am love.
I am in every breath you take.
I am your refuge.
I am your strength.
I am…. all you need and more.
Today, God wants you to know that he is the I AM in your life.
What do you need or want out of life? He is the great I AM and can provide you what you need and soo much more.
Dear Lord, Today I call upon you. I know you are the great I AM. I know you are my provider, I know you sustain me, I know you bring me peace, joy, love and so much more which I am incapable of understanding. I give myself to you. TO submit myself to do your will. To trust in you who is my all, to do your works and favors. I know have provided for me in the good times and especially in the bad. I will continue to rely on you and your guidance to move on my daily tasks in your glory.

​ The Beloved Proverbial Women.

Proverbs 31:10-31King James Version (KJV)
10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
14 She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.
18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.

The Beloved Proverbial Women.

Proverbs 31 describes what many consider the perfect dutiful women.
Sometimes we as women try to aspire to be this symbol of perfection and do as much as we can to fit the description.
Sometimes we as modern women try to aspire to be everything this proverbial woman is not.

What many fail to realize is being a proverbial woman does not mean being this perfect being.

It is about living life with purpose, diligence, forgiveness, and repentance.
There are attributes of this proverbial woman that we modern woman can apply to our lives to become this virtuous woman.

Many Modern women are like wait no way, I will never submit myself to become a submissive wife, I know this because I have said that myself.
Though I have been raised to be an independent woman, I know that I can submit my will to God and be blessed abundantly, for he will provide.

Here are a few examples as to how this Virtuous Woman’s characteristics can be aligned to the modern woman, where we too can be like this as possible.

A Virtuous Woman is faithful, she serves God with all her might, with all her heart, with all her mind, and her soul.
She has faith in her creator.
She seeks the will of God for her life and follows His ways.
example: Proverbs 31: 26, Proverbs 31: 29 – 31,
Matthew 22: 37 – Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’
John 14: 15 If you love me, keep my commands.
Psalm 119: 15 I meditate on your precepts and consider your ways.

A Virtuous Woman will respect her spouse, her marriage and her Union.
She will care for her husband.
She will be trust worthy and helpful in their union.
example: Proverbs 31: 11- 12, Proverbs 31: 23, Proverbs 31: 28,
1 Peter 3, Wives, in the same way submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives,
Ephesians 5, Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children 2 and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
Genesis2: 18 The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”

A Virtuous Woman nurtures and teaches her children.
a virtuous woman will teach all children, and love them, even if they are not her own.
She nurtures, with Christs love, wisdom, care and discipline.
she trains the children in the way.
example: Proverbs 31: 28, Proverbs 31: 26,
Proverbs 22: 6, Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.
Deuteronomy 6:2,so that you, your children and their children after them may fear the Lord your God as long as you live by keeping all his decrees and commands that I give you, and so that you may enjoy long life.
Luke 18: 16 But Jesus called the children to him and said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.

A Virtuous Woman will care for her health.
She will care for the health of her husband.
She will care for the health of her children and family.
she will provide meals to promote healthy living and nourishment.
example: Proverbs 31: 14 – 15, Proverbs 31: 17,
1 Corinthians 6:19, Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;
Genesis 1: 29, Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the
whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be
yours for food.
Daniel 1, – Daniel’s Training in Babylon
Leviticus 11 -Clean and Unclean Food

A Virtuous Woman serves.
She serves and loves her husband.
she serves and loves her family.
she serves and loves her community.
she serves with a warm loving spirit.
She has no problem doing charity work.
example: Proverbs 31: 12, Proverbs 31: 15, Proverbs 31: 20,
1 Corinthians 13: 13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

A Virtuous Woman knows how to budget herself and for the home ensuring the finances are in order.
She purchase the food, clothing for her family.
She makes sure bills are promptly paid.
example:Proverbs 31: 14, Proverbs 31: 16, Proverbs 31: 18,
1 Timothy 6: 10, For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.
Ephesians 5: 23, For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior.
Deuteronomy 14: 22, Be sure to set aside a tenth of all that your fields produce each year.
Numbers 18: 26 Speak to the Levites and say to them: ‘When you receive from the Israelites the tithe I give you as your inheritance, you must present a tenth of that tithe as the Lord’s offering

A Virtuous Woman is handy.
She works, can provide, can fix, repair.
She sings praises to God and does not complain.
example: Proverbs 31: 13, Proverbs 31: 16, Proverbs 31: 24, Proverbs 31:31,
Philippians 2: 14 Do everything without grumbling or arguing,

A Virtuous Woman is a homemaker.
She creates love and warmth in her home for her family.
She brings peace and love when she hosts company, ministering to those with her
example: Proverbs 31: 15, Proverbs 31: 20 – 22, Proverbs 31: 27,
Titus 2: 5, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to
be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of
1 Peter 4: 9, 9 Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling.
Hebrews 13: 2 Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it.

A Virtuous Woman knows how to use her time wisely.
Works hard and diligently to complete daily tasks (whether as a working woman or as a stay at home wife/mom.
She does not spend time doing things and sulking on those things that do not please the Lord.
Proverbs 31: 13, Proverbs 31: 19, Proverbs 31: 27,
Ecclesiastes 3, A Time for Everything
Proverbs 16: 9, A man’s heart plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps.
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

A Virtuous Woman is beautiful (not speaking of the carnal term).
She has beauty that comes from Christ, her inner beauty outshines the natural.
She is creative and uses this beauty in her life and the lives of her loved ones.
example: Proverbs 31: 10 Proverbs 31: 21 – 22, Proverbs 31: 24 -25,
Isaiah 61: 10, I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God.For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
1 Timothy 2: 9, I also want the women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety,
adorning themselves, not with elaborate hairstyles or gold or pearls or
expensive clothes,
1 Peter 3: 1 – 6 Wives, in the same way submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2 when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3 Your
beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate
hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. 5 For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to adorn themselves. They submitted themselves to their own husbands, 6 like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her lord. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.

We do not have to meet every single description, but we can see where we can apply some of her characteristic in to our own lives.

We can be that Proverbial Woman.
We do not have to fear the perfection which she is described as.
We do not have to fully aspire to be her, nor aspire not to be her.
We can learn from her, and apply whatever attribute one see’s fit for ones life.

Father God I thank you today for my loving family. For helping me manage my responsibilities as a wife and mother as well as daughter. Father I know I am not perfect, my imperfections are evident. I once detested to be compared to this Proverbial woman, I never wanted to submit to any man. What I failed to realize is how strong and Independent she really was. Despite my own imperfections, despite my own modern beliefs, I see some of her in me. I ask you lord to help me be my own virtuous woman as you deem fit. May all that I do be for your Glory. May all that I do for my family, be for your glory. May all that I do for my community be all for your Glory. I will submit myself to you and my roles as wife, to become my families own Proverbial Virtuous woman in your Glory.

Prestigious yet no prestige

Prestigious yet no prestige
I work for a prestigious organization which shall remain nameless. This organization is well known. This organization has great aspects to it. This organization I always aspired to some day join. There were expectations as an organization that have yet to be fulfilled. When I got hired there …. at first it was everything I had ever imagined it to be then….
The grass is not always greener on the other side.
Lies… lies…reneged promises. They dangle that carrot then they yank it away….. such a tease.
This organizations leadership needs guidance. They need prayers, they need education and understanding. Quick to find someone to blame in situations, quick not to investigate and research, quick to cross that ethical line of need be.
As an establishment I like the place. As an employee I’m starting to feel it’s time to go. My conscience, my moral beliefs and ethics are always on the line. My family are always up for discussion. I should not have to choose from being a good employee and being a good mom.
My right to privacy should be respected. Confidentiality had been breeched more than once. Loyalty is a myth. Bosses who defend their staff is a legend of days pasts.
I’ve been reflecting on whether to move on for quiet some time. To get back to my grassroots initiatives despite the drop in pay. To do something more meaningful to me. What I do at my “prestigious” organization is meaningful to the lives affected, the lives I help. However, I need something more rooted with a cause that aligns my heart where I can feel pure joy, despite the stress in what I do.
I once loved my job, I currently just tolerate it, passing time, waiting for when God says now is the time to go.
We as people buy into the hype of the name thinking due to its reputation it has to be worthwhile. Turns out it’s a big disappointment. My colleagues have similar feelings.
Why don’t you just leave?
Can we?
In this economy that we are living in?
A single income household cannot suffice with the demands of time for a family of 4.
Benefits, healthcare is what one needs to think about when you have children. Protect ones family and have their best interest.
Finding employment when the competition pool just keeps increasing. It’s hard finding work. You can apply, apply, apply and apply but that doesn’t guarantee a call from a prospective employee. This modern world is so digitized.
We have to teach our children the importance of networking so that they can increase their prospects of future employment. We have to teach our kids to do their best to ensure their resume and cover letters are superb, so that they can increase their chances of a call back, to be knowledgeable, personable and straight to the point during interviews so the interviewee can remember them among the candidate pool. We have to talk about our experiences so they can learn from them.
Oh this prestigious organization. Look where you left me.


Left me hopeless in ever believing that you were better.

Left me anxious to leave, no jet at the end of my shift.

This is like a pending bad break up from a relationship you had hoped and aspirations.

I once loved you.

Now I long to be free from your bondage.
Your name is prestigious, but there’s no prestige in working for you.
I no longer want to be in a relationship with you, counting on the days to be free from your oppression.

Shackles & Chains

Ever felt like you were trapped in a cell like Paul an Silas?Locked, trapped, shackled, surrounded by four walls?

Image result for paul and silas
We’ve all experienced moments where we felt at a loss. Trapped. Suffocated. Isolated.
We all face trials and tribulations, some are bigger than others, some can even leave you in a situation of imprisonment. (Please for your own sake don’t let it get to that point).
So how do we get out of it?

How do we face our trials? Our moments of isolation and imprisonment?
Do exactly what Paul and Silas did.

Have you not heard what happened?
While imprisoned they started praying and praising.

What good did that do you ask?

They were freed.

The earth shook, the doors opened, the walls crumbled and they were freed. The romans weren’t too pleased but that was the least of their concern.
During their imprisonment do you know what Paul and Silas did?

They prayed, they praised, they prayed, they praised and then they did it all again.

Then they were taken out of prison.

God got them out…. broke them free…. a biblical Prison Break.

The full story of the events mentioned can be found in Acts 16:16-40; verses 16-24 discuss the events that unfolded that got Paul and Silas in Jail.

Verse 25-About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. 26 Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everyone’s chains came loose.
Prayers and praising God during the good and the bad God can release the shackles that bound you, he can break those chains. In the case of Paul and Silas it was literal, he literally broke the chains and shackled and freed them from their bondage.
This shows that their is power in calling on the name of Jesus. There is power in praising God. There is power in keeping faith even when the odds are against you. There is power in the grand I am.
Father today I ask you to free me from this bondage. To break away the shackles and chains. God I ask you to shake the earth so your presence is felt. I am grateful for you dear lord. Grateful for the air I breathe, the life you’ve given me, the people in my life. I’m grateful and thankful for all the life lessons you’ve taught me along the way. Even when the odds it seemed were stacked against me, you showed me that no matter what I am here, with you, and you will surpass this. I Pray for you reading this. That God provides you with what you need to break the chains, break those shackles and free you from your bondage. Amen.


Sometimes I start rambling, writing, reflecting and then I forget about them.

Here is something I wrote a few months back.

A four letter word used without meaning.


A four letter word that encompasses so many feelings.


Where did it go?


Is it under my toes?


So quick to say but is it even real?


Is that really how you feel?


How did it fade away?


Was it ever here to stay?


How can you love and not love?


It was sent from high above


We are meant to love each other

Not let it drift away.

But here we are




Come back…. you’ve drifted too far.

Sacrificial Love

Sacrificial LoveJohn 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

Define friends? Someone you love and care for, have things in common with, enjoy company.
Would you lay your life for your friend?
3/15/15 was a very sad day for our family. My husband lost his best friend. His best friend died saving the life of Mans best friend, his dog.
“A Brooklyn man lost his life fighting to save his best friend.”
Several news outlets featured articles / segments with this caption and story.
Our lives were crushed.

Our hearts were crushed.

Our God son lost a Father.

Our children lost their God Father.

My sister lost her husband.

My husband and their friends lost their brother.

His mom and dad lost their son.
Despite our grief, despite our hearts Ruben as we celebrate his two year death anniversary, I know his act, his sacrificial act of love, will lead him to paradise with God.
My compai was always selfless.

He wore his heart in his sleeve.

He loved wholeheartedly.

He loved his family.

Loved his pets.

Loved his close friends.

Loved his son.

Loved his God children.

Loved his aunts and uncles.

Loved his cousins.

Loved his parents.

Loved to live life.

He loved above all.
Two years later it’s so hard.

It’s hard knowing your not seeing your son grow up.

It’s hard knowing that my husbands brother is no longer with us.

Sometimes I get mad, mad that your not here, mad at the choice you made, mad at the fact that you were just starting to settle down and truly live your life as a new parent, mad that the four of us were supposed to grow old together while our kids grow up as siblings.
As quickly as I get mad I know God had his reasoning.

God knew what he was doing.

Who am I to be mad.

You saved a life.

Many thought your foolish because the life you saved was a dogs.

Many considered you a hero because the life of a dog is just as valuable as yours.

Rudy Lives.

Your dog Rudy, whom you saved lives.

Rudy and Hailey live.

Both your dogs are doing well.

Both are filled with love.

Both are living life, happy, just as you would’ve wanted.

Your death was not in vain.
You are missed.

You are loved.

You proved that your love is greater than anyone has ever anticipated.

Sacrificial Love.

Your death was not in vain.
GAB, 6/12/80-3/15/15 sleep in peace.

‘Til the day we meet again.

Forward All Issues To Heaven

Psalms 46:10 NIV – He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;I will be exalted among the nations,I will be exalted in the earth.”
When you let God in everything falls into place.
When you let God take control, everything falls into place.
When you let God take the wheel, you end up at the destination you were meant and called to be.
When you let God take control over your thoughts, heart and word, everything you say will be worth a blessing unto and even someone else.
When you let God take over your pen and fingers (if typing), god takes control of your words.
Where am I going with this?

What am I talking about?
When something bothers you…

When something offends you…

When things are not going as intended for you….

When you feel like your drowning….

Stop and praise him.

Give him all the control.

Give him all the glory.

Take a step back and let him take over.
Let him take over your thoughts, words, actions, soul and mind.

Submit yourself to him.

He will get you through it, no matter how big or small the issue.

He will get you through.

He will even provide the appropriate scriptures for what you need.
There’s been times I get upset and want to lash out.

I open up a notepad and I start writing.

In my writing God reveals to me scenarios, actions and reactions, in my writing he reveals consequences.

In my writing I reflect and seek his word.

In my writing I go back edit my venting and next thing you know I have something that inspires me.

So I share it here and who knows, maybe it can help and inspire others.
As I write God refers me to the Bible.
Remember we are to praise both in good times and in bad.
We can’t leave the prayers, praise and worship only when times are bad.
We must look to him, seek him, submit to him, open your heart to him, when you do he will take control and bless you.
1 Peter 2:1-5 NIV “Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. 2 Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, 3 now that you have tasted that the Lord is good. 4 As you come to him, the living Stone—rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him— 5 you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house[D] to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ”

Father God I want to be filled with your presence. I want to walk my walk filled with you. I want to talk my talk glorifying you. I want to sing my songs and lamentations in honor of you. I want my words, my thoughts and actions to be filled with you. I want to open my heart so that you can inhabit it. I want to be fully dependent on you the way a newborn child depends on his mother for milk. I need your spiritual milk, your daily bread, drink from living water and hunger no more. I put my faith and trust in you and only you. Amen.


1 John 1:5-9New American Standard Bible (NASB)This is the message we have heard from Him and announce to you, that God is Light, and in Him there is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth; but if we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

What is guilt?

Guilt is the stain of sins on your conscience.

Do you have guilt?

Are you living off of a fear of past mistakes?

Trust in the lord and Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit can not only tell us when we did a wrong, but can guide us to a path towards redemption and a better walk.

Confess your sins to God, for he has forgiven you.

Psalm 32:5New American Standard Bible (NASB)

I acknowledged my sin to You,
And my iniquity I did not hide;
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord”;
And You forgave the guilt of my sin. Selah
Our biggest problem is that we are our own critics. We critique everything we do. We know we are flawed and look into each flaw. Profess you sins to God, he has forgiven you. He is the judges of all judges.
If your guilt is for a wrong doing, ask for forgiveness and forgive oneself. Forgive the offended, ask them for forgiveness. Ask God for forgiveness though he has already granted you forgiveness. Do not let guilt weigh you down and steal your blessing.
Father God, I pray for anyone reading this. Father God I know we are flawed, we are imperfect and impure. We are sinners. I ask for forgiveness for any wrong doings I may have committed. Release me from any guilt. Release anyone reading this from any guilt that is blocking your blessings to manifests in our lives. Thank you for forgiving us. Thank you for sacrifice. Thank you for liberating us. Amen.

Selective Listening and your Relationship.

“So why do you keep calling me ‘Lord, Lord!’ when you don’t do what I say?” (NLT) ( Luke 6:46 )
Do you know many of us have selective hearing.

Many among  us are unable to determine when God is speaking.

Many among us are confused.

Many among us listen, yet are selective.

Many among us call upon the Lord in times of need, but not in the good times.

Many call upon the Lord, but does not follow through with his directions.

Yet call upon him for help, expecting him to always answer, always find a solution without us ever doing our part.

Yer when prayers are not answered you question why? Why aren’t you helping me? Why me?  Well answer his question, ‘Why are you calling me….when you don’t do what I say…’

Ever had moments when you feel God is asking you to do something?

That is called conviction.

There are times he is picking up the phone, sending you a text, shooting you an email or knocking on that door so that you can do something that will not only glorify him, but help you in your situation, to give you a blessing, or for you to be a blessing on someone else.

Instead what do we do when he calls?

We run.



Miss that call.

Not open that door.

We run away.

What does running away do for you?

You probably just compromised yourself in that situation your trying to get out.

That help you needed is now gone.

That blessing you were going to receive   gone.

That blessing you could’ve been for someone else….. also gone.

We want the benefits of having a relationship with God, yet not obey when he extends a hand or calls. We want to have our cake and eat it too.

There are many whom  want the storms to pass, without doing our share.

We have to do some work. His works.

We have to pray.

We have to listen.

We have to do.

We can not conform to the times and be selective listeners when God calls.

When he reaches out, answer his call.

Answer his text.

Open that email.

Open that door.

Let him in.

Get to work.

It will all be worthwhile once you see the fruits of labor come to pass.

We need to maintain and build a relationship with God just like any other relationship in your life.

It’s not a give and take relationship it’s a give, help, listen, pray, do, praise, listen, glorify, pray, give, take, help, pray, read, listen, praise, do, glorify, do, act, listen, kneel, follow, lead, bless and be blessed kind of relationship. (I know I was repetitive in my word) my point is, sometimes you got start from the beginning, continue, repeat some things before you get what the Lord deems you need to get out of a situation.

Father God I thank you for always being there, you are my Emanuel for you are always with me. I ask you dear Lord to help me continue to keep the channels of communication open with you, so that I may always answer your call and do your will. I ask for guidance to always be able to know when it is you calling me. I ask for the ability to have the knowledge and understanding for any task you present before me so your will can be done. I pray that I can do my part, to maintain this relationship with you. To be close with you. To do your will. In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.


Tween’s, Teens and Millennial’s (myself included) are constantly using Hashtags (#) for everything.



We tend to post pictures of our loved ones and besties.
#bff #MyBestFriendIsBetterThanYours #MyBestie

Spaces between words no longer exists with the hastag movement.


What I often see a lot is the #BFF #BestFriends.

Now I don’t find that offensive in any way. I too have best friends, friends I love dearly, and occasionally when I post a picture on social media i also #bff to these pictures. (such a millennial lol – oh there I go LoL vs Laughing Out Loud).
I married a wonderful man, whom I consider my best friend. He is just truly amazing. Amazing Individual, Amazing Father, Amazing Husband, Amazing Son, Amazing son in law, Amazing member of our Church, Amazing brother in Christ and an Amazing Best Friend.
I also have my best friends whom I have had since child hood, best friends that no matter how many days go without us speaking, no matter how long we go without seeing each other, no matter where in the country they live (none of my best friends live near me…They have all continued their lives in other states, that is ok, because distance does not kill friendships, they are my besties despite distance). Yet I feel we are just close as we were when we lived near each other. Love friendships like this that can last the tests of times and distances.

My siblings are my best friends…we fight, we bicker, we get along…just like your average siblings. I love them and I consider them my best friends.

However my #BestFriendForever has been by my side from conception.
God the father, The Son and the Holy Spirit. The Divine Trinity has been by my side since day one, while undergoing mitosis and meiosis in the womb, when I was just a single cell, before becoming a full fetus/embryo.

The Holy Spirit has been with us from day one. The Holy Spirit is your true best friend forever. The trinity has been with us from the very beginning, while are cells are developing into bodies, God was apart of that process, ensuring that every aspect of you and I came to be as it is today. What kind of best friend would be with your during these early developments? A divine one. #HolySpiritBFF!!
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 New International Version (NIV) 19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies
From day one. the Holy Spirit is within us, the Holy Spirit, who is God, is within us, guiding us. Divine, holy, eternal, true, omnipresent, omnipotent, always and forever with us. #HolySpiritIsMyBFFemphasisOnForever.
John 14: 6 – But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.
The Holy Spirit guides and Helps us. The Holy Spirit teaches us. Our worldly best friends can help us, but none in the way God can. #HolySpiritIsMyBFF
Romans 5:5 “Hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”
When we are Weak, the Holy spirit lifts us, guides us, intercedes for us, searches our hearts, knows our thoughts, encourages us, for God’s will. The Holy Spirit has done for you and I more than any one of our Best friends in the flesh has.

#MyBestFriendTheHolySpiritIsBetterThanYours. (ok, maybe that was a bit much…we do not want to gloat…father forgive me, but you get the idea.)
Romans 8:26-27 “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.”
The Spirit counsels us with Wisdom, understanding and knowledge.
Isaiah 11:2 And the Spirit of the Lord shall rest upon him, the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, the Spirit of counsel and might, the Spirit of knowledge and the fear of the Lord.
Currently at my church we are in the midst of studying the Trinity, but particularly the role of the Holy Spirit. These classes of the Holy Spirit has inspired this post. If you didn’t know you will now know that the Holy Spirit is God. He is apart of the trinity. We do not have Gods, but a God.
The Holy Spirit is a divine aspect where you can feel God. A mediator. The trinity Is God our father, God the son, God the Holy Spirit. One God, three variations of God, yet the same one true God.
In these lessons, from where we have gotten to thus far we learned the personality of the Holy Spirit, we’ve learned the various names the Bible refers to the Holy Spirit (OT & NT). We learned the role the Holy Spirit places in our lives.
The main emphasis given throughout the lesson is building a relationship with God using the Holy Spirit. Just like in your friendships and relationships here, you have to build a relationship. You need to be open, honest, show love and affection, be close with the Holy Spirit. Treat God as your best friend… share with him. Have God be your #bff. That is possible. The Holy Spirit makes it possible.
Remember as mentioned before the Holy Spirit was there with you from day one. Don’t hold out, God knows you better than you do, but still maintain a relationship. The same way your closest friend knows with just one glance what you are thinking…. you still tell your friend everything.
God I thank you, I thank you for sending a piece of you to me. I thank the Holy Spirit for being that direct connection to you. For being my best friend from day one. For guiding me, enlightening me, pushing me, embracing me, toughening me, teaching me and loving me. Thank you for the outpouring love, for the miracles you have given in my life, and the miracles that have yet to come. I trust in you my lord, my true Best Friend forever. Amen.


Spiritual Crossroads 

Sometimes in life we reach a crossroad. We have to decide whether or not to go left, go right, go straight or go back and find another way. Personally I don’t like to go back. Regardless of what is going on, we should always move ahead. Move forward. Never backward. We want to progress not regress.
There are times where we come to a crossroads with relationships (friendships and romantic respectively). There are times where we come to a crossroads professionally, personally and even spiritually.
When you get to the crossroads, do you travel the road less traveled? Do you go on that freeway?

What you choose is very personal in your walk.

Just make sure that it is God centered.

Don’t make a rash decision.

Don’t rush.



Right now on how far you have come.

Reflect on where you want to go.




Now pray.


Let that sink in.


Now pray.

Meditate again.

Open your heart.

Take a deep breath.

Open your ears.



Open your eyes.

Open wide to be able to see.

Wait for his signal.

Watch for it.

If your not paying attention you are surely going to miss it.
Now your not going to get an answer right away. (Well who knows maybe you are… that’s all on God’s call).
While your waiting reflect.

Reflect on his word.

Reflect on his sustenance.

Reflect on how he is guiding you.

Pay close attention.
Before you know it your going to have to take a step towards the direction he wants you to take.
Be careful.

Don’t be mislead.

Don’t be dismayed.

Don’t get frustrated.

Patience is a virtue.

Own that virtue.

One wrong move and that road your going to traverse is the wrong one.

We don’t want that.

You don’t want that.

He doesn’t want that.
In order to either take this path you need to be ready.
Sometimes this path you have to wait for someone to arrive and take this step together.
Whether accompanied or not, you need to make sure he gave you the signs to move onward.
We need to take ownership of our actions and confess to God.

Sometimes we need to forgive offenses done to u , sometimes you need to ask for forgiveness.

Sometimes we just have to wait.

Always choose God, first.

Then decide where you will go (whether or not it’s together) and take that path.
Sometimes when your on your journey you may cross paths you’ve crossed before, you may even encounter people walking along their paths, and it merges to the same path your on, sometimes it’s for a short period sometimes it’s longer.
Sometimes you or that other person need each other to get through to the next crossroad.
In waiting your answer arrives.

In waiting the support you needed arrives.
Patience is a virtue.
God I thank you. I thank you for the paths I have taken to get to where I am today. The path was not the plateau I envisioned in following you. There were valleys I needed to walk, deserts I need to cross, mountains I needed to climb, there were times I fell, times I fell in a mudslide, felt that the earth shook from under my feet, yet listening to you via the Holy Spirit, we kept on walking. You showed me the way, you guided me to this point. There were times I needed an extra push, times I needed a hand to hold, times I needed a shepherd to lead the way, there were times you carried me. You carried me, and shower me I needed to walk that path. Thank you for guiding me as sojourned and approached my crossroads….spiritual cross roads…..I pray for your continued strength, I pray for your continued guidance, I pray for ears to open so that we can hear you, I pray for eyes to be able to see. To see the signs you put forth before me as I embark on this path towards the next crosswords. I pray for whoever is reading this, who is wondering about their journey, who is seeking guidance, who is at their crossroads waiting for you to direct them. I pray that the Holy Spirit manifests upon the reader so that they can stand up and take that next step towards the destination you have set forth. Lord I know for every decision we make there is a consequence, same as for every path we walk there are unknown variables to is mere mortals. Yet you oh lord, knows what to come and I pray that we trust in you, to prepare us for that next journey, regardless of the fact if we are just beginning our spiritual walk, or if we have travelled so long, that the path behind us now looks like a maze. In Jesus name, Amen.

Faithful and Ungrateful 

I was thinking about how the times are now and how much things have changed. Then I happened to see this image floating around social media.

Here is a modern day depiction of Jesus feeding the 5000 in 2017.
When Jesus fed the 5000, there were only two baskets with bread and fish. Two baskets to feed 5000 whom followed Jesus. Jesus prayed, he blessed the baskets and suddenly there was enough to feed 5000. Everyone at the time was beyond grateful. They were fed, were happy for this miracle for all were fed.

In the 2000+ years since this miracle you can see in this cartoon how much distrust we have in humanity, in one another, and even in ones faith.

How the enemy has infiltrated many of our thoughts. How we nitpick at everything.
Read the captions in the image and you see the following:

“I can’t eat that I’m vegan.”

“Has that fish been tested for mercury?”

“Is that bread gluten-free?”
This caption shows that in the midst of our struggles, while pleading for a miracle, we are being selective to the blessing we are to receive. It’s our way or the high way? Eat the fish or starve? Was there an expectation for a specific miracle?

Yes! That’s it! There’s usually an expectation.

Many of us accepts the miracles and answers we get from God when we are facing obstacles, struggles, trials and tribulations. Many of us see the struggle we are in and ask for a specific form of “miracle” or reprieve from the obstacle we are in. In doing so what we fail to realize is that, sometimes the answer we are looking for is not always the answer we want.

Sometimes to get through that obstacle we have to hear or do something we didn’t think or want to do.
If God were to be selective of our salvation the way we are selective in how we receive his blessings and answers, many of us wouldn’t be saved.
Picture God throwing tantrums like we do and saying:

“You didn’t kneel to pray, there goes your salvation”

“You didn’t pray enough, there goes your salvation”

“You didn’t fast enough, there goes your salvation”

God isn’t doing that.
Yes he wants us to pray.

Yes he wants us to kneel before his presence.

Yes he wants us to fast and make sacrifices for him.

He wants us to praise him

He wants us to Love him
Abide by his laws

Be kind to one another

Love one another

Help one another

But all in his glory.

Second guessing a miracle or a good act in faith, second guessing or being specific with an answer to help you face an obstacle is a problem.
How do we fix this problem?
We have to kneel down and pray. We need to realize that your way is not his way, and you need to accept that.
He is the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end, the creator of all things, the king of kings, one divine true Living God.
He knows your future.

He knows when your time on earth ends.

He had counted every hair on your body.

He is the answer to your obstacle.

He can give you the answer, take you out of that situation.

You need to trust in him.

Abide in him.
We are living scary times.

Times of xenophobia.

Times of homophobia.

Times of racism.

Times of discrimination.

Times of hatred.

Times of fear.

Times where to proclaim god is perceived as sin.
These times we are in can affect how we deal with our trials and tribulations. In order to overcome these trials in the midsts of the times we have things we need to do.
We need to listen to God.

We need to obey.

We need to hear.

We need to pray.

We need to fast.

We need to praise.

We need to trust.

We need to have faith.
In the midst of our struggles, obstacles, trials and tribulations we need to sometimes cross the valley of death, we need to face those challenges we do not want to face.

The ultimate reward will be worthwhile when we follow what God wants us to do and heed his advice vs being specific on how we want things. We can’t ask for a miracle and then want to omit certain aspects of the miracles.
Father I thank you. I thank you for allowing the obstacles, the trials and tribulations. Father these paths which include these hurdles I know are meant to teach me, to have my faith grow, to bring me closer to you. Father help me to listen more to you, so when you provide an answer, or when you bring forth a miracle that I accept all that you allow to answer the petition, to solve that obstacle. I ask for guidance during my tribulations my lord, for you to allow the Holy Spirit to manifest and guide me when I travel down roads not traveled, while I face challenges I do not want to face, while I have to do things I may not want to do. I know it takes work. I know I have to do my part. I do not want to nitpick my way to salvation dear Lord, nor do I want the easy way out. I do not want to be selective of my blessings. I want to learn, I want to grow and I want to be able to accept all that you provide me.


Knowing how to forgive. Saber Perdonar.

Knowing how to forgive.
We are always taught the concept of forgiveness since we are young.

Do something wrong, and we are taught to apologize and ask for forgiveness. Then we are taught to forgive and move on.

“Turn the other cheek” (Luke 6:29) sort of speak.
I find myself teaching my kids the same concept. Child 1 hits child 2, mommy intervenes. Go apologize to your sibling.

Child 1 goes apologizes, hugs then kisses child 2.

Child 2 usually says, it’s ok, I forgive you.

Then they continue on playing as if absolutely nothing ever happened.

As a parent it’s kind of a double edge sword like… phew you kissed, made up and went about your business but then at the same token dude, that’s it? (Yet grateful that, that’s it).
Why can’t we be as forgiving as children.

Why can’t we be as forgetful to the issues and carry on.
We have all been in predicaments where someone offends someone, or offends you, and person 1 apologizes, person 2 accepts the apology but someone doesn’t let go…. someone doesn’t move on.

How can one accept an apology, and let go the way kids do. Move on, continue life.
Why still be bitter?

Many times, people take things way too personal.
People can be way too toxic. People do not admit their wrong doings nor apologizes for them. Everything is so one sided. Everything is so “OmG when you did this and remember the time for that, ugh I was there for you, where you there for me?”
We all have that one friend that conveniently forgets how many times you’ve been there for them and not one time threw it back.

They conveniently forget the offenses they did to you, how they spoke to you, how you were disrespected as well, and only remember that one time you didn’t call.

I’m not all about dishing exactly what happened, Who it happened with, nor who did what for whom, I am not crossing that line, because then I would not have truly forgiven. This though is about forgiveness- knowing how to forgive.
I write this for two reasons.

I know someone who God had recently blessed. The nature of the blessing is not up for discussion since I’m just using this as an example. I congratulated that person, despite us not speaking for a while over a disagreement. I apologized for any transgressions i may have attributed and I have also forgiven. Whether or not the person forgave me, I have no idea, did the person feel the need to distance themselves, maybe. I hope I was forgiven. I forgave that person too.

Nonetheless, this person received an amazing blessing. Instead of being gracious about it the person simply ignores the fact I congratulated them, ignored the fact I spoke to them. [insert Jim Carey voice now] All-righty then.

I will not succumb to that. I will forgive, be proud of you and keep it going.
I am not going to be bitter and say oh I retract my statement, that’s very, eh not me. I want you to be blessed, and abundantly at that.

We haven’t spoken in weeks, well that’s a two way street, I reached out, the individual never reached back, so I’ll give that person space.

Sometimes we need space as part of the forgiveness process. Friend I forgive you. I will my keep distance, I don’t need toxicity in my life, the toxicity is not the friendship but the negative thoughts. I will not open those gates as I don’t want you to have toxicity in your life. Sometimes as part of forgiveness we need to accept that sometimes we are toxic to others even if we may or may not see it.

Some people are meant to be in our lives, some people are meant to be a lesson, some people are meant to take you to the next level, some are not meant to be in your life. I am not saying that is the case with said example. I am only saying it is OK to let go. It’s OK if certain individuals are just chapters in ones life.
I pray for this person daily, I get happy when social media reveals progress and success, I’m not going to be bitter, the success is much deserved. I am just wondering where the concept of forgiveness truly lies. Not just for myself, in general. Can we really truly forgive like Christ?

I am surely trying. Not just with this example but every aspect of my life. [work, family, friends, relationship]
Jesus forgave everyone involved in his crucifixion, he forgave those who made fun of him, he forgave those whom hurt him, he gave them all salvation. He loves them all, even if they don’t love him. Luke 23:34

There’s a song in Spanish that states: (to translate /para phrase):

“My mind doesn’t understand, I don’t think anyone understands how you were able to forgive those who killed you on the cross, they humiliated you, they made fun of you, yet you still told your father to forgive them, you died and resurrected showing me that with you death doesn’t exist only life. You showed me the secret of forgiveness so that today we can see the light , well today we forgive one another so that we can one day rise with you”
The title of the song translates knowing how to forgive (saber perdonar). This is only the chorus, it just hits me like wow. It’s true, many of us forgive and don’t let go, forgive and don’t love, forgive and don’t move on (together), forgive and still be bitter. Why can’t we forgive like Jesus, why can’t we forgive like a kid?

I only wrote this not to discredit anyone or friendship, not to vent about being ignored, but to think about forgiveness and how we sometimes don’t truly act upon it wholeheartedly.

I wrote this more of a self reflection of how I want to forgive, the way he forgave.  Wholeheartedly, without looking back, without taking it back, without holding back, without any negativity despite the obstacles, hurdles and temptations.

How children can forgive in the same manner that Jesus has forgiven yet even believers have a hard time forgiving.
Father God I ask you to forgive me if I have offended you. I forgive those whom have offended me. I am more than willing to move on, with them if they allow, or without them if they don’t allow it. I ask for forgiveness in return for anyone whom I may have offended. Sometimes we offend and do not even realize that we have offended. God I ask to have faith like children, to trust in you wholeheartedly to forgive and move on as if nothing ever happened. To love unconditionally like Jesus has loved. I pray for my friend, you know who that person is. May this friend have an abundance of blessings bestowed their way. May that person prosper, soar, succeed, may they continue to seek you to receive your blessings. May we someday speak again, Without bringing up the past. I forgive you dear friend for offending me. I hope you can also forgive me as well. May we all forgive one another, may we all be given the guidance by the Holy Spirit to show us how to forgive. Amen.

God is great, God is Love

God is Love.

All I could do is cry yesterday and give thanks to God.

My son has a story of his journey.

A story where God shows love and mercy.

A story where faith is tested.

A story where God says I Am Emanuel (here with you).

A story that in today’s chapter God says, I love you. Now relax my children, your worries are GONE!

God is great, merciful, kind, loving, a healer, and with us.

From day one he has shown he is with us. I named my son Emanuel because of Gods faithfulness to us despite our sins, despite our behavior.

My son is strong and loving, though we have had complications, scares, worries, stress, concern for his well being. God told us, hey I told you I got you, keep faith.

Faith we do have.

Faith is all I need.

Love for our father is all I have to give back to him.

Thankful for God, thankful even for the trials and tribulations. Thankful for the tears shed, every headache and worry, for they made me stronger and got me closer to God.

Today I rejoice.

Today I exalt his name.

Today we proclaim victory.

I am thankful for our support at our church. My church family and leadership are some amazing prayer warriors, I am not sure what I would have done without  their support, prayers and words of encouragement.

God I thank you for this journey. This journey has taught me many lessons, this journey has tested my faith. This journey has recentered you as the primary focus of our lives. Thank you dear lord, for not giving up. Thank you for this lesson. Thank you father for our church. May you continue to bless our leadership and our church family.  Thank you lord for an amazing team. We are a team at IPJ.  Amen

Gracias Seńor

Te amoTe exalto su nombre .

Te pido las gracias,

Por su amor,

Por protegernos,

Por nuestro salud,

Por nuestros finanzas,

Por nuestro hogar,

Por nuestro alimentos,

Por un día más,

Por una oportunidad más,

Por su misericordia,

Por su perdón,

Por su sacrificio.

Por sus bendiciones.

Por refrescar mi alma.
Y luego de pedirte las gracias, me siento mal.

Como puedo recompensarte por ser tan bueno con nosotros.

Oro, pero no como debo de orar.

Ayuno, pero no como debo ayunar.

Testificó, pero no como debo de testificar los grandeza que has hecho en mi vida.

Aveces me quedo atrapado al pecado.

Aveces me olvido pedirte perdón.
Soy humano, nací bajo el pecado.

Y con todo eso, todavía me ama.

Se que sin ti,

Nada puedo hacer.

No importas cuanto planificación hago.

Tu tienes la ultima palabra.

Tu me diste todo.

Todo mi entero de ser,

Mi vida

Mi respirar,

Mi familia

Mis hijos

Mi hogar,

Mis alimentos

Mi salvación

No quiero nada que intentes de separarte de mi vida.

Quiero tu gracia disfrutar eternamente

Y dedicarme solo a ti.

Se que no merezco su amor.

Pero trabajaré a ser su voluntad para nunca estar sin ti.

What to expect when your expecting…

Many expectant mothers have purchased this book, myself included. This book was amazing. Detailed. Helpful with the changes ones body goes through.

What about for special needs adults?

What to expect when your an expecting special needs adult. Not a catchy title, but nonetheless, needed.

Expectant mothers of the special needs population undergo extra testing, need extra emotional and mental support, need extra guidance, extra education.

Being pregnant is fun, hard, scary all at the same time, imagine how it may be for someone from the special needs population. My heart aches that my sister had to endure all these extra testings.  Of course the well being of the baby is of the upmost importance.

While we’ve been reading the what to expect books, it dawned on me, I haven’t seen any books that may disclose what she may be going through that I didn’t experience.  As soon as I thought that, she asked me.

I tried researching to see if such books exist. Nope. Nada. What I did find were blogs about special needs families.  Though are bodies are the same, going through the same things, more emotional support, education, resources, testings and patience are needed with caring for an expectant special needs mom…. and dad to be.

We really need to advocate more for special needs adults. More resources are needed.  I am thankful that my sister has the support system she needs.  I am thankful that we can help her emotionally. Thanlful she has is. Crying for those whom don’t have that support.

God I pray for the strength and guidance needed during this process. I pray for families across the globe going through similar circumstances we are.  I know dear lord we are not the first, nor will be the last. Please lord let us use this moment, this time to help those for the future. Amen.

RIP Compadre.

My sons God father passed away 3/15/15. Not too long after his death I was taking a class that required an obituary. So I wrote one for him.

My compadre was born on the 12th of June 1981 to his wonderful parents. He was taken away in a heroic attempt to save his dog on the 15th of March 2015. He is adored and cherished by his parents, his fiancé , his son  , his brothers,  his God children, his many aunts, uncles, cousins, close friends and acquaintances. My compadre grew up in a God fearing home. His mother kept him active in various recreational activities while also preaching to him the word of God.
Growing up his mother ensured that he always read, always studied, always loving, always caring, always be kind, help the less fortunate, help those in need, grow educationally. She taught him the basic principals of humanity. She taught him to accept all for who they are, not to judge. She taught him to have the endearing heart he had. The foundations that his parents laid out as he grew up is what we all came to love and know.

In junior high school he met his best friend who had recently moved around the corner from him. The duo would play endless hours with the kids in the neighborhood and have bonded like brothers. As a matter a fact they became brothers. The duo were inseparable.
My compadre, as he was known by many was kind, genuine, helpful, an adventurer, smart, loyal, loved and cared for animals. Helped anyone who needed help whether a furry animal or another person who was being victimized by bullying or injustices of the world. He Would intervene in any circumstances to help a fellow brother out of harms way. Protected those he cared for.
He loved fellowship. He loved being surrounded in a good ambiance with friends and music. He loved music. Music was what fueled his soul. Music was his passion, his hobby, his love, his side gig, music was his breath of fresh air. Soca though is what pumped the blood to his heart.
His love for music came at a very young age. He had an eclectic taste in music. A great ear for mixing tunes. His passion drove him in to his hobby as a DJ, more famously known as the Mad Architect in many circles of the music / radio industry for his creativity in mixing beats for upcoming soca artists and talent in mixing music across various of genres. His name also combined his love for his profession as an architect.

He was talented in his field. Blessed to have been able to partake in amazing projects that to this date his plans are still under construction on the West Side. He was well respected and well loved in the architectural industry as well.

My compadre studied and worked hard for while teaching his fellow brothers, working at an established architectural firm, producing beats for his artists, being a husband to his fiancé, father to his child, child to his parents, brother to his friend, uncle to his God children, and care taker to his dogs whom he adored as children, both of which he rescued from shelters.

He was a busy man, but never did he stop showing those he loved, that he loved them. He was a smart man. He was a humble man. He was a caring man, he was a blessed man, he was a spiritual man, he had strength and endurance which came from the faith he had. Despite the circumstances and challenges life threw at him, he overcame it with pride, with dignity, with class, with faith and understanding.

Every curveball life threw came with a lesson. He understood that, he spoke of it often.,The politics and bureaucracies of societies. The discrimination and racial profiling of young black men. How disgusting the legal and judicial system is. How it is a trap for failure, imprisonment and slavery. He understood the psychology of it all and never let any of it let him fall. It made him stronger.

He urged to educate his peers on this subject, determined to teach the next generation to educate themselves to not be victims of the trend. To not be another number to the stereotype. To be above that, to rise above these stereotypes and social expectations of men of color. To be smarter. To be wiser, to learn the legal system and their language, to know when to use their lingo to not fall into the trap. To be educated amongst the educated and even more so amongst the ignorant…. Not just of educated in knowledge but in the spirit. See tony had a respect and an affinity for others of different beliefs. He was knowledgable of various spiritual relationships, customs and traditions. He respected them all equally as he would hope any one would respect his.

His experiences made him stronger. Made him more faithful. Made him realize that in his most difficult moments, he knew who stood by his side, his families side and who never turned their backs, regardless of the circumstance. He understood who were his brothers to the end.

In John 16:33 It says “These things I have spoken to you, so that you may have peace in me. In the world, you will have difficulties. But have confidence: I have overcome the world.” From my understanding Tony lived this quote. No matter the difficulties he over came them. He was confident. He was determined not to let his difficulties make him nor break him. He found strength during his challenges and overcame them. Regardless the obstacle. Personal, professionally, socially, etc, he over came them, and which each obstacle he willingly guided others so that they wouldn’t fall within the same trap. Leading by example.
Now as life threw him another curve ball. He chose to follow his heart and love for another being, he saved his dog, paid a sacrifice and lost his life. He knows who is still by his side, despite the tears, despite grief, despite the heartache, despite the anger, despite the acceptance, despite the unacceptable. He knows his parents will be watched over, his fiancé will be taken cared and loved, his son will be protected, by the same people whom always remained true to him as he was true to them.

Our pain with his loss is God’s megaphone. As in The book of job, Job learned that God gives and God takes away. We have also learned that no matter how good you are, how faithful you strive to be God gives and he takes away. We may even want to question, why me? Why take him away? What have I done to suffer this way? Job asked some of these same questions his meld. He asked if God can be placed to trial for his actions and questioned. God spoke to him. He reminded him that he is the architect of the world. Job learned that despite his suffering God delivers. “But those who suffer he delivers in their suffering; he speaks to them in their affliction” job 36:15. Though we are all mourning, grieving and suffering the loss of our beloved Tony, God will deliver us all from this pain.

Remember that God has his reasons. God has a plan. God is the architect which created this world. He designed you and I in his image. He designed it all. He delivers amongst your pain, afflictions and sufferings. Also know that when you overcome your trials and tribulations you come out stronger. Learn from the trials educate others based off of your testimonies from your trials just like my compadre would have.

I know this is a somber moment. Saying goodbye to the flesh is very hard. The memories shared will live on. Compadre will not want you moping around his loss.
He would want you to share your wonderful stories of the moments you’ve shared. The funny stories, the silly stories, the I can’t believe we did that stories, the personal stories, the private stories, his memory shall live within you. How you’ve grown together in your friendship and how that’s made you grow as an individual. He would want you to be rejoicing. He would want you to celebrate. To bring a toast. To dance. To laugh. To love. To féte. To watch out for one Another. Most importantly to Live.

He would not want you to stop living at his loss. He would not want you sad, depressed or in pain at his expense. He spent his whole life trying to bring joy to others, regardless of the circumstances.

He would say stop preaching, stop talking, turn on the music, someone man the turntables, get the vibes right, have that fête, celebrate your lives, take care of one another.

That’s what he would have wanted . Remember to share your experiences. Educate one another, provide strength and refuge to each other, lend a hand, lend an ear, share moments, create memories, make music, share laughs, enjoy fellowship, we are a framily.

God gave him brothers and sisters via friendships. He found love when least expecting to. He would be celebrating your life in your honor had roles been reversed.

Celebrate life. Live like it’s your last. Teach each other for knowledge is a good tool for empowering one another. Guide each other, care for one another, remember the less fortunate, remember the four legged animals,

Remember each other, support each other during this time of grief, for we all know that’s exactly what he would be doing.

God bless you.

…A wise man holds it back…

This morning I was reading my many daily devotions.
I start my mornings the same, I rise, I thank the lord, i pray,I start getting ready to start my daily routines, for work and get the children ready for school. Before I wake them up I give myself 20mins or so to read and reflect the devotions.
This proverb 29:11, struck a cord in my soul. As soon as I read the proverb I said thank you God for being my council. Had I not given myself to you, or reopened our Channels of communication I would not have handled last nights situation as calm, collective or civil as I did. Thank you for reminding me why I had to maintain my composure.
So about last night…. I am a mother of two amazing young men (ages five and two respectively). I am the eldest of four siblings, my siblings I treat and look out for them as if they were are also my babies. I helped raised them.
My sister (#2 in line) is currently expecting her first child. She’s been having issues with her child’s father and family regarding the pregnancy and decisions that she needs to make pertaining to her care and the care of the unborn child. They’ve been highly demanding, not catering to the needs of mother and infant, the father feels he should be catered to, he feels he should have a say with things concerning her body. (Subject of amniocentesis came up- he was for it she was against it).
Both adults are functioning adults with some disabilities. Some concepts are hard to understand, this is all new to them both, this is a change that is affecting both emotionally. Lots of educating needs to be done to both parties. Not singling neither side out. There are differences in opinions due to differences in upbringings which have taken a toll for both. Not excluding neither parties here. Both are of concern to me.
Regardless of who is my family(blood) and who isn’t all three, mom, baby and dad are important and we are concerned for. At this moment in time this union and natural act of love conceived a child which has sanctified this bond and united both families. The main concern and focus is not only the well being of mother and growing baby, but the father during the pregnancy. We just need to fully get them both to understand the changes both are undergoing and what the process is.
Last night was a rocky path. The father called my sister, details of the conversation I will leave out, the end result was: she was extra emotional. Her blood pressure sky rocketed, she had a near panic attack with whatever was discussed between the two.

I had to reach out to the family And explain hey, not sure the full details that happened, however this was the aftermath that was left.
The well being at this precise moment is of the mother and child. Please explain to the father to be that what he does, say, act can affect her emotions, hormones, health which put together is not good for the child. I am not sugarcoating or condoning what my sister may or may it have said, but both need to understand the risks for both parties. I Kept my tone calm, collective despite my fears and worry. Kept it civil despite my wanting to yell and say a few choice unchristian not ladylike words.
Waking up to this verse is my confirmation from God, do not go there. Be the bigger person. Turn the other cheek (though i can hesitate on turning my cheek and would prefer to throw in a fist instead). As Former First Lady Michelle said “when they go low, we stand high.”
Mother and baby in the belly are fine at the moment. She was in great care, surrounded by family whom work in healthcare and understand how these situations work. Her healthcare providers were quick in responding to address last nights episode for her to ensure her well being.
Sometimes in some situations we can’t loose our temper, doing so is not only foolish, but could make any situation worse. We will have moments where we will need to bite our tongues, turn both cheeks, stay quiet and resist every natural carnal impulse that we have to defend what we love.
The devil is a liar. He tries to attack you when your climbing that spiritual ladder. He is there trying to saw at the steps so you can go falling down. Don’t succumb to these trickery of the enemy.
Father God I ask you to protect my sister and her expectant child, I ask everyone reading this to pray for her. God I pray for the family of the father, give them understanding, compassion and the strength needed for this next chapter in all our lives. I pray that you give my sister strength, compassion and understanding. I pray for other expectant mothers in similar situations. It is rough, it is emotional, pregnancy involves changes in every aspect of an expectant mother and fathers lives. I pray that despite the words which have been exchanged between the two, though hurtful, that they can forgive one another and move on. I pray that you guide our families in this complex situation. I pray you guide families in similar situations world wide. May we all in your name be advocates for our disabled adults. I pray for the physicians involved during this prenatal transition, the team in place is beyond amazing, lord bless and protect these amazing physicians. In your name we pray. Amen.


“You have been set free from sin…”
(Romans 6:18, NIV)
We are free from sin.
Christ made the ultimate sacrifice to liberate you.
We are no longer prisoners to our afflictions.
No longer bound to our sins.
No longer do we need to carry the burdens of our past.
We have been liberated from that the moment you accept Christ, the moment you take communion and repent of your past sinful ways, the moment you take that leap of faith into the waters and become anew.
This month in America we celebrated our freedom from the crown.
The founding fathers were liberated from taxes to the crown, liberated from oppression, liberated to pursue religious freedoms…. they were free. In order to be free (aside from the way) they needed to openly declare their independence from the royal crown. On the 4th of July of 1776 America declared Independence….the vocally got up and in public declared they needed to cut ties with tyranny, and be liberated from the Crown.
Just as the founding fathers publicly declared their stance on their new home for their new lives, Christians need to do the same. Declare our freedom from oppression, addiction, depression, poverty, sickness and the enemy. We need to proclaim our king and declare our Independence from the enemy. Our Founding fathers declared their Independence and continued to spread the word despite an obstacles they faced. We need to do the same. Declare the freedom that Jesus has given us. Spread the word on his good deeds in our lives. Despite what obstacles come up, no matter what we may be facing. Declare that you are free. Declare that you have been liberated from sin. Celebrate your victory.
Celebrate Your Freedom
Father thank you for liberating me. Thank you for freeing me from sin. Thank you for taking away the shackles and chains that help me back in my other life. Today I declare my freedom. Today I declare my independence from sin, today I declare your victory. Gone are the shackles that kept me bandaged, I declare that I am free from all bondage, free from poverty, free from addiction, free from strife, free from doubt, free from substances. You have set me free, you have paid the ultimate sacrifice for me and I thank you for my liberating every aspect of my life. Amen.

An uncertain future


 You can never learn that Christ is all you need, until Christ is all you have. Corrie ten Boom

I remember when I was younger, no matter where I went or what I did I was always surrounded by people.  I was dating and getting to know different guys. Yet every where I went or did I always had a clique with me, or at least that’s what one of them complained about.
I had a shopping buddy.

A binge drinking buddy.

A buddy to watch movies with.

When my interests wanted alone time I had to see what my people and I were planning and schedule them in same how 

Obviously those relationship’s didn’t go no where, it doesn’t bother me either that they didn’t.
I was young, free spirited yet codependent on others.
I started this post with a quote “You can never learn that Christ is all you need, until Christ is all you have.” Corrie ten Boom
We tend to try too fill the voids in our lives with people, with vices, with hobbies, with everything but Christ.  It is not until we have that moment alone with Christ, when we look to the left, look to the right and see no one there that we realize we are alone, yet not alone. I do not feel empty because Christ is with me. I am unafraid, because I trust in him. I do not need to fill any voids. Why did I spend so much time wasted, when all I ever needed has always been with me. 
It takes for us to reach an epiphany in our lives before we realize all I ever wanted, all I ever needed was with  me all along. Chris is all I will ever need. 
Father forgive me  please for always using vices, people, hobbies etc to attempt to fill a void they will never be able to fill.  Thank you for loving me, for opening your arms. Thank you for being all I need.  I no longer need to fill voids in my life. You complete me in ways that nothing ever will.  You are all I want.  You are all  I need. Amen
If you are going through an aha moment and realized god is all you will ever need and you said this prayer with me, you have just taken the first step towards building your relationship with Christ.  Find yourself a home a church with a strong bible study group to continue your journey.  

Spread his message

​While reading Roy Petersons Set free, I saw a prayer within the forward and was moved, I need to share this. 
Prayers in the forward

 God, Your Word is more precious than all that I possess. Your Scripture gives light to my path and directs my steps. Through Your will alone lives are transformed and minds made new, So I now pray for all people who do not yet know You. For You’ve promised that Your voice by every tribe and nation will be heard, So equip us by Your breath to provide every heart language with Your Word. –  Mart Green Chairman, Hobby Lobby.

Let us utilize our resources and spread his holy word.  Use your social media outlets, your websites, text messages, emails, conversations, your actions and your words when interacting with others  Be of a testimony.  Be a tool to spread the gospels.  “But I am shy”…. So am I, yet here I am blogging about Christ so others could hear of his wonders. Sharing my stories and experiences, my trials and tribulations, because my pain, my struggles, my burdens and my blessings could be of a blessing to someone else.

Father as I pray this prayer with the prayer we opened this post states, your word is the most precuous thing in my possession, your word guides me, directs me, transforms me, makes me new. I ask  that you can help me, with your words, help make someone new. You asked us to take the gospels to all four corners of the earth.  Thank you for your blessings. I ask that as we spreads your words, that we could be of a blessing to others. Amen

deepest wound is where the flower grows.

​Bart Gavigan, a writer for the film End of the Spear, once was Quoted in the book by Roy Petersons Set Free.  He said   “If I am going to write a movie about someone, I am going to find out what their deepest wound is, as that is where the flower grows.” 
Let me just repeat the gist of what he said… “deepest wound is where the flower grows.”
Glory to God for this allegory  “deepest wound is where the flower grows.”  do you know what this means? What this is saying?  At least how I am interpreting this…it is because of our pain,we can learn, grow and blossom.  Our wounds, like our scars are reminders of our past.  What we do in those circumstances can lead  to flowers growing.

My biggest wound was my infertility.

Spent 10 years believing science until I was reawakened by faith.  I was accepting that scientific result not  a final nail on my fertility coffin, but that my God, the God whom loves me even when i don’t deserve to be loved, that my God can show science who is king!
Take your wound, with faith, knowing that the Lord Jehovah god got your back.  

Have faith.

Be patient.

Tryst in god.

Trust in his timing.

Relieve his blessing and….

Watch the flowers grow from those wounds.
Father God I thank you for all that you do. I lift your name high. I thank you for these inspiring words  that you provided me while I read. Thank you for allowing  me to experience these wounds, so that my faith In you could grow.  Thank you for blessing me and giving me flowers which grew within my wounds.  My uterus was my wound, my children are my flowers.  Only you, not science made this possible.  Only you dear Lord. You allowed them to come into my life.  I humbly thank you. Amen.

Set Free

​Roy Petersons Set free is my current read.

As I’m reading this I’ve been inspired by some phrases and even verses.

I will share these with you.

From the forward:

 2 Corinthians 1:3–5, 7 (NLT): All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. . . . We are confident that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in the comfort God gives us.

What adeep verse, fitting for this book for! The little I’ve read thus far.  

We have here  the letters to nthe Corinthians Paul reminding the church that we Will suffer. We will all face difficult times.  Some of us maybe experiencing them right now as your reading this.
In the midst of our suffering good will also comfort us and bless us, as long as our suffering is for him.  What this means is that for being believers and followers of his walk, many will persecute you, many will blasphemy against you, as long as you continue to remain with him in faith, he will help you.  He will bless you. He will comfort you.
This experience we go through as Christians is a natural, or shall i say super natural.  The enemy sees you as his enemy and you have a target on your back.
When you overcome your obstacles and suffrages Paul clearly tells us that we Are to share In our suffering as well as the comfort God gave us.  What this means my friends is that we are to be there for one another.  We are to help each other out.  We are to rise not above one another but rise together as one body of Christ.  We’re are to share our stories, so that others can leaern from them.  We Are to bear witness and testimony, to inspire, guide, lead and help others.  
Lord I hope and pray these writings you are inspiring me to write are of a blessing to those reading.  As I pour out my heart, my soul and the words you provide me, that I am helping someone during there times of suffering.  That the words you give me provide counsel and comfort, as you have indeed  provided me.   I pray for you reader, that your suffering come to an end so you can reap the benefit of his blessings and comfort, I ask that you too be of comfort to someone else in need. Amen 
Not surge how to help someone, when you yourself is feeling lost? Unequipped? Unsure?

Start by writing.

Start by sharing what  you read.

Start by trusting in GOD THAT HE Will COMFORT, HELP AND guide YOU

Prayer warriors needed to fight the good fight 

“Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.”
(1 Timothy 6:12)

We have all been placed here for a specific reason. We all have a specific role to play and a specific fight we need to fight for our creator. Each one of us has a story. Some are simple, some are hard, some are very complex.  
What we all have in common is no matter what our stories are, no matter what struggles we face, we all have the same fight. Yours may be more specific than mine, mine may be more specific than the person sitting next to me on this train, but we all have the same fight.
Our fight is a spiritual fight.

It’s is a fight for our faith.

It’s a fight for acceptance.

It is a fight for hope.

It is a fight for our eternal salvation.
Regardless of our backgrounds. Regardless of our hardships, the fight of faith is one in the same.  
We were chosen to be Gods people.

We were chosen to be his prayer warriors.

We were chosen to spread his word.

We were chosen to defend him against the enemy.
Fighting the enemy could be tiresome.

He comes from Many angles.

He uses different pathways to deter not only your blessing but your faith in God.

He attacks us using our loved ones.

He attacks us using our colleagues:

He attacks us using random strangers.

He attacks us with illness.

He attacks us with stress.

He attacks us with uncertainty.

He attacks us by filling us with doubt.
Our faith is what can help us with this battle. We all have a pivotal role in this celestial fight for our eternity. Are you willing and able to pick up your arms (spiritual) and fight the good fight?

Are you going to continue to fast, continue to pray, continue to praise even during the hardship?  
Job lost it all, was tested, over came his circumstance and in the end was blessed.

As parents, nothing hurts us more than seeing our children in anguish, pain and torment. As I am writing this, I have an uncle who’s son (my cousin) is in a hospital because he was found unresponsive in his room. Several exams were done to see where the problem lies. My aunt and my uncle are desperate in need of prayers. 
We will fight this food fight with you for your son. We will take up our coats of arms, we will hold our shields, we will gather our swords and we will fight this good fight with you.
My grandmother told my uncle, ” he was chosen by God to do his work and that everything he is going through is the battle that he will face against the devil.”

God chose his son for his specific battle. He God will lift him up from this circumstance.
My young cousin maybe unresponsive right now. But I know deep down he is fighting. This poor young child…. whom has been through a lot in his life, please feel our prayers, please feel our thoughts, please feel our words, listen to the voice of God. Follow his lead little one, he will direct you, he will guide you, he will help you in this fight.  
I am praying for you little champ. 

You will come or victorious in Jesus name. 

The lord will guide your doctors to reveal the nature to your current mysterious circumstances. God has he answers and in time will provide. While we wait I will pray. While we wait I ask for prayers. While you fight, we will fight with you. 
Father God I ask you to cover your hands over my cousin and bring forth healing. I ask you to wake him from this nightmare. I am asking for healing and liberation in your name for this child. May he be liberated from the demons holding him down. I ask for strength for my aunt, uncle and family as they face this battle of the unknown. I ask for guidance, patience while awaiting diagnostics, I ask again for healing. I ask that anyone reading this can unite with my family in prayers. May the Holy Spirit move so that we can provide strength and liberation for my family. Lord your will, will be done. Amen.





“hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls” (Hebrews 6:19, NLT).
What is hope?

As defined by Webster dictionary, hope is:
Definition of hope

hoped; hoping

* intransitive verb

* 1
:  to cherish a desire with anticipation :  to want something to happen or be true hopesfor a promotion hoping for the best I hope so.

* 2
archaic :  trust

* transitive verb

* 1
:  to desire with expectation of obtainment or fulfillment I hope she remembers. hopesto be invited

* 2
:  to expect with confidence :  trust Your mother is doing well, I hope.

hoper noun

hope against hope

* :  to hope without any basis for expecting fulfillment

We have personal carnal and spiritual desires in our lives. These desires and aspirations give us the hope we need, sometimes to carry on.

We all depend on hope.

We hope for a better future.

We hope our elected officials can take care of their constituents.

We hope, as children, our parents will take care of us.

We hope, as children, we will get that cool toy we saw.

We hope, as parents, that we are doing a good job parenting.

We hope we are setting an example for our kids.

We hope God will protect and guide us.
We hope, despite our flaws, that god will continue to love and protect us.

As parents we try our best.

Parenting is not easy. 

It’s not easy being a working mom.

It’s not easy juggling work and educating your kids.

It’s not always easy setting your temper aside.

We can hope we are doing the best we can.

We can hope that every effort we make for our families can lead to a better future for them.

With hope, we need faith.

With faith, we need to trust.

With hope, we too need to do our part.
Our hope gives us something to look forward to. Our hope can build our faith, our hope can build our trust. 
Paul writes that hope is our anchor, it is an anchor for our soul. With hope all things are possible to move forward and move closer with God.
When we loose our hope, all is lost.

Desiring God has a sermon written by John Piper. In his sermon he mentions our struggle with hope. He says “Hoping in God does not come naturally for sinners like us. We must preach it to ourselves, and preach diligently and forcefully, or we will give way to a downcast and disquieted spirit.”

He mentions the need to preach to our selves, the Bible helps us with that. Hope in God- psalms 42:5.

He used psalms 42 for its example of struggle.
The author stated “I love the way the psalmists wrestle and fight and struggle to maintain their hope in God. This is normal Christian experience while we are still just saved sinners. And we better own up to it, or else we may grow sluggish and negligent in our fight for hope. And that is very dangerous, as our text plainly teaches.”
Psalms 42:5 says “Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God!”
Just like I started with Webster definition of hope, the author mentions we are to not only know websters definition but the Bible’s. He breaks it down in to three parts

1- ” Hope is the desire for something good in the future. The children might say, “I hope daddy gets home early tonight so we can play kickball after supper before his meeting.” In other words they desire for him to get home early so that they can experience this good thing, namely, playing together after supper.”

2. “Hope is the good thing in the future that we are desiring. We say, “Our hope is that Jim will arrive safely.” In other words, Jim’s safe arrival is the object of our hope.”

3. “Hope is the reason why our hope might indeed come to pass. We say, “A good tailwind is our only hope of arriving on time.” In other words, the tailwind is the reason we may in fact achieve the future good that we desire. It’s our only hope.”

He summarized it as follows:

So hope is used in three senses:

1. a desire for something good in the future,

2. the thing in the future that we desire, and

3. the basis or reason for thinking that our desire may indeed be fulfilled.
Then he goes on to mention “The Distinctive Biblical Meaning of Hope”

“Biblical hope not only desires something good for the future; it expects it to happen. And it not only expects it to happen; it is confident that it will happen. There is a moral certainty that the good we expect and desire will be done.”

“When the word says, “Hope in God!” it does not mean, “Cross your fingers.” It means, to use the words of William Carey, ‘Expect great things from God.”


God teaches us the biblical definition of hope. As I mentioned earlier that:

 With hope, we need faith.

With faith, we need to trust.

With hope, we too need to do our part.
The scriptures teaches that here in Hebrew 6.

Paul shows us the relationship between faith and hope.

He also shows us this in Romans 4:22, discussing Abraham faith.

In romans 6:18 Paul shows how faith and hope go hand in hand “In hope he believed against hope, that he should become the father of many nations.

Our God is a god of Hope and faith. We can hope for things, but we need to also have faith that God will make it happen, that God will provide, that God will work it out. We need to trust him. Our hope is our Anchor!
Father God, I thank you for another day, another opportunity another moment to take in your greatness. Father I live with not only hope that i will be with you in heaven but have faith that i wil lget there. I trust in you my lord. I trust in you my lord. I ask that you continue to guide me so that I may not steer in the wrong direction regardless what obtstacles are thrown at me. As in pslams 42:5 says, we will hope in God, no matter what. Abraham’s hope in you lead to his faith and trust in you, Paul’s faith in you is intertwined with his hope in you. he says our hope is our anchor. May our anchor remain firm so that we could never loose the faith and hope we have with you. Amen.