Crying a River

Psalm 23:4 “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me
I’ve been crying so much I could probably replenish the ocean.  

We all complain about our problems.

Gossip.

Stress.

Financial hardships.

Disrespectful individuals.

Selfish folks in our lives.

Illness.

When things don’t go out way,Etc.
Those with terminal illnesses, how often do you hear them complaining?

They ride it out.

Hope they can buy more time.

They pray.

They hope.

They find faith.

They fight.

They don’t complain.
I work at a prestigious facility, where our patients, whom come seeking care, their happiness and comfort is our priority. We must go above and beyond, regardless what role you play in the institution. We do everything we are physically able to within the constraints of our duties to not only get our jobs done but to ensure our patients are rightfully cared for.
I have a patient whom I will refer to as patient Doe. I won’t even reveal the gender of patient Doe, nor anything specific to this patient other than Doe has a terminal illness.
Doe has been a trooper throughout the various stages of Doe’s care. Currently it’s not looking good for Doe. I respect people like Doe, why? Despite what they are going through they don’t cry, complain, fret… they know the cards they were handed in life. They know where their path wlll lead them. They don’t complain.

They don’t cry.
We cry over everything. We stub our toe, we complain, we trip we cry. We have a bad day, we cry and complain. We complain, complain and complain failing to realize others have it worse than we do, terminally worse, and they are not crying, complaining or fretting.
Patient Doe could be any patient. Though the Patient Doe whom I’m thinking of as I’m writing this only God knows whom this persons true identity is. I’ve been crying for over a week because of this patient Doe. I did become emotionally vested in this patients care. Sent several prayers for this patient and the family. When I last spoke with Doe, the person told me, whatever God decides to do I am ready. If God grants me more time, I’ll take it. If God calls upon me I will answer. I’m ready, I’m scared, I don’t want to go, but I know where’re I’m going when I’m gone.
Isaiah 40:31 | NIV

but those who hope in the Lordwill renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles;they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint.
We should all hope in the lord to have renewed strength despite our circumstances.
I usually end my posts with a prayer from my heart, my prayers are inspired and led by God and the content of my post. My prayers are from the heart. Today I try, yet I cry. A river is flowing from my heart. I asked God to guide me with a special prayer given the nature of this post and he led me to this.
I saw this prayer online and felt it fitting with this post.

I’ve cried, I’ve prayed and trust in the lord for my patients.
God our Father,
we bring before you today
those who suffer
from chronic illness or disability
- those for whom sickness or disability profoundly affects their lives. 

When they feel diminished,
remind them that you call them by name and hold them
in the palm of your hand. 

When they feel fragile and broken, mould them and heal them,
that they may more closely resemble the image of Jesus, 

your Son and our Brother. 

When they are reminded
of different times in the past,
lead them to grow in the faith
that you love them today, as they are, in the reality of their lives this day. 

When they feel uncertain about the future, lead them to that perfect love
which casts out all fear. 

When situations remind them – not of what they can do,
but of what they cannot do – remind them 

that “love never fails”,
and that, living in your love, they will bear your fruit in plenty. 

May all of us
- whatever our circumstances -
never be so taken up with our own concerns that we do not see or respond to
the needs of others.
May we live with courage
the different challenges
that each of us faces. Amen. 
I will end with this scripture 
Deuteronomy 31:6 | NIV
6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
This post is dedicated to my Doe, It shall be God’s will. Keeping the family of patient Doe in prayers. Though I didn’t mention the full details of what’s going on, though I didn’t name this person, nor revealed anything other that this person is sick, I ask that you pray for this “Doe”. Pray for all that is sick.